i was planning on combining this with November, but i noticed it was already getting pretty long. so i decided to make it a separate chapter instead. TK became very good at communicating with Lahabrea so the important questions were asked via her this month.
Oct 2nd
dm’s with jezzah and TK, restarted a new group
dm's with jezzah:
jezzah: I added a rule to the group
me: i noticed. ty
jezzah: Ya know, we've had our ups and downs but I do consider you a very close friend now. I'm glad I met you and gave you a chance.
me: likewise
bunch of hugs gifs we send
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dm’s with TK
tk: I wonder if Pandemonium is gonna be about getting rest of the Ascians back that we didn't in msq.
me: oh i like your way of thinking xD
tk: Though they just are throwing us off and making the artwork scary lol
Like Emet and them in msq, rest will be with Lahabrea's stuff
Then the 24 man is lore about the Twelve lol
I know that the story is "done" at the end of 6.0 and the raids are technically after it, but it can be clean up lol
me: yeah i know. but what people seem to forget about the twelve is, that is isn't a reference to the convocation of 14th at all. its venat's group.
tk: I know, I'm just saying I'm still into it
me: yeah
tk: Cause.i like the lore
me: but i agree for the clean up part.
oh yeah, read these tweets if you haven't done so already: https://twitter.com/Ascianity/status/1444330220765564936
(1 of the comments i placed underneath that tweet was "ok lets add this. ascians become all untempered and become light beings. as in fact they are right now. light warriors... warriors of light. if your read dolores cannon books. you know hat i mean. they are in fact warriors of light. jesus was one too." )
tk: I saw!
me: they are light beings atm . the real ones
so yeah logic much xD
i hope , really really hope there will be slight hints in endwalker of the actuall existence of the ascians.
like i said on my pinned tweet. or things that only we know will come to light in endwalker.
i mean if they become light beings / warriors in game. that already a hint on its own.
tk: Hope so too :)
Wonder if Yoshi P put stuff in xvi too cause they are saying the main game is done now and doing side missions
me: i hope so. i think this Joshua boy who can change into the phoenix/firebird might shed some light about my shards. so i really need to play that game when it comes out lol. i like this tweet btw"December 18, 2022? For the 35th anniversary?"
that would be perfect
tk: Hopefully!
me: and 2 days before that i my 35th bday
tk: :o good bday gift lol
me: yeah indeed lol
tk: Was thinking lately when Jezzah said she thought one of my abilities was like luck manifestation? Noticed that Lahabrea comes around more that either I hope something happens it either does or something good happens. Not so much towards me (though my luck has been decent lately) but towards friends.
me: Oh interesting.
tk: I just feel more.in tune with stuff lately, guess that's the word, since Lahabrea has been coming and saying that things are developing.
me: thats so awesome to hear!. hey can i invite to the new ascian group that jezzah actually leads. iam co admin there lol
there are further no others yet.
tk: Okay, im at work but I will join when I can
me: nice!
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back to jezzah
me: invited TK to the group
jezzah: Should we make her an admin??? Sice she has been around a while?
me: we could do that if she wants to
jezzah: we'll talk to her
me: she said yes
jezzah: Yay
October 5th
jezzah: I am up way too late and these brainworms refuse to go away.
So, awhile ago there was this mini comic on Twitter where past Emet decides to just summon future WoL back to past Amaurot and the comic just ends there. My brain took this further and has future emet and G'raha get blasted into the past too. Tonight's WHAT IF!!!! Do....Ascians....dance????
Grumpy, pouty future Emet chillin on a street bench as my character fiddles with crafting a music machine and then she a raha start dancing to some jiggy jigs and then gets emet into it but...do Ascians...dance???
SAJHDKJHDSLKJFSHJ
I just can't
Imagine that scene from Titanic, the Third Class Party scene
Like that
With all the amautotines just clapping
I am sleep deprived because my husband thought it would be a good idea to snore loudly tonight
I cannot fathom Emet doing those really crazy hedonistic folky dancing (edited)
I'm sorry, I'm just...go into a corner now
-_-
I can't be the ONLY one thinking this DX
me: Well they dance with their partners. If I look at eli and me. But more style and romantic, they got class ya know.
Not wierd folk dancing stuff
They dance not often though. I did that last time when I knew he had a day off. That was in January I believe o-O
Though if I am correct he has a day off on the 22nd this month. But well, workaholic. We will see.
If I got time I see if he want to dance lol.
Zio: I can't see why they wouldn't dance.
I imagine they had social functions, perhaps even some wanting to display new types of music they constructed. I'm sure they would enjoy a dance now and then at such events.
jezzah: Yeah, I knew my brain was weirdly fixated on this for no reason.
Sorry y'all had to see me at 3 am
But would they if you dragged them into a folk dance??? Hades is saying he won't and to never bring it up again. XP.
zio: I'm sure some of them would like folk dancing. Depends on their personalities XD
me @zio: true hahahahah * non corrupted fandaniel folk dancing XD
zio: I can see Hythlodaeus doing it
me: absolutely XD
jezzah: Let's hope that they have some evidence that my people existed at one point.
me: yeah though that flying city next to garlemald can also be the Sources Amaurot remainings. i talked with TK about this once there is a vid on yt to back it up. https://youtu.be/new_Tv9xqvU
jezzah: Yeah, I figure that any evidence of my people will be long gone. Which is sad, really sad.
Gods he is even more beautiful every time I see him
Those eyes, that cheekbone structure, that nose shivers in delight love him to bits and pieces <3
I can gush about him all day
Me: :D
jezzah: That is very interesting actually.
me: ikr
jezzah: I hope Emet pops back up again
Surprise, you thought you could get rid of me that easily :D
me: he most definitely will.
(dec 5th: I am not that far in endwalker yet. but atleast echo flashback more I wont say)
jezzah: In the most dramatic theatrical way possible.
me: he says lines in the trailer we haven't heard before
"the final days were upon us. something something, by tooth and claw"
and elidibus is locked up, he will probably be released in someway or another I think with WoL and Ryne.
jezzah: He was grounded, he'll get released when he learns his lesson. Lol, jk, jk, I am teasing. You're a good boy, Eli.
me: lol
jezzah: I'm thinking that the city my people come from was founded by a group of immigrant Amaurotines and they just evolved differently and they are like sister nations, maybe?
They're very similar
me: maybe
jezzah: And the Source is a lot smaller than its original form. So, because of the Sundering maybe it was just wiped out of existence. Or buried under ice and snow at the very north pole of the planet
I want to punch Venat in the face tbfh.
me: i am not so sure the Source is smaller then what it used to be. the shards are already smaller iirc. the shards are parallel copies and not pieces that went out of the planet during the sundering or something.
Zio shared a dream
Zio: Hm. It was a couple of days ago and I don't really remember anything from it, but I dreamed I was surrounded and talking to (or listening to them talk?) fully masked figures like this, just the masks were different colors and different a bit in design.
Don't think it means anything but it was interesting nonetheless.
Me: well from what i have understand is that the masks are similar to what we see in game. and those different colors- i wouldn't be surprised for the lower ranks. remember that guy i went to the first time? when he saw the entire convocation? he said their robes had colors too. so in that case if they wear matching colored masks then well yeah.
this is just a speculation though.
the main convocation members have 100% red masks atleast
jezzah: I can see people from different parts of the city having different masks depending on the job they have. And then wearing white when out and about.
Me: sounds very plausible
Zio: Yeah, I had the impression they were some type of group within the city. Likely some sort of occupation/job.
Me: oh interesting!
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Dm’s with TK
tk: .... feel like Lahabrea trying to tell me something but all im getting is a headache atm
me: oh!, are you at home? if so take a break from screens and meditate. maybe you get something
tk: yeah im off today
me: good do a meditation. i hope you get info
tk: I haven't really done a meditation during the day honestly
me: ok take a moment to relax. and try to listen
tk: okay i will try okay yeah i definetly am not sure about that one from Jezzah...
me: well it's not physical lol she will be dead xD. i mean i want to be with eli too ya know in all eternity
but remember her desires are speaking.
tk: getting way more of a headache hold on >_<
me: ok
laha causing it maybe? trying to get through?
tk: could be
and tk actually talked to lahabrea rightly after!
sadly I cannot tell the details regarding jezzah and emet but I think I can tell this of what TK wrote
tk: crying a bit... did get a little bit but i have been feeling a bit depressed lately about stuff, when i finally got into one of my safe areas he quickly gave me a hug and said that i was very important to them (guess he means all of them in general). He then said that the reason he was trying to get me now was that he wasn't sure.
here I will stop its was twice as long but I cannot tell sadly.
me: ah thanks for this info and more or less a confirmation. so that headache was him
tk: yeah, was him just trying to say something but i guess im not really at a point i can just listen, have to meditate
me: practice makes perfect. though i wished i could do that. i have been meditating again and it goes way better when i follow my own set up advise for others hahah. but communications so i can hear them or just elidibus is non-existing. what am i lacking to communicate with any of them ? elidibus get through with telepatic emotions. but no words sadly.
Tk: I don't know cause im just as confused that i can even do anything like this lol
Me: it seems you got the same thing as i do. you suddenly CAN do something new and you don't know where it came from.
Tk: yeah
Some times later jezzah left a comment in the group about venat that made TK reply to me via dm
Tk: WOAH don't need to punch venat in the face jezzah .-.
Me: >.< uncannon plot twist its my mom XD
idk why this is stuck i my head. the idea of venat being eli's mom has ever been in my head since i saw her.
Tk: could be possible
Me: eli doesn't want to tell me anything that could be in endwalker. he presumably want me to be spoiler free lol.
Tk: Lahabrea won't say anything XD. I dont want him to though lol
Me: no i bet. XD he want us to experience it
Tk: Lahabrea seems frustrated at Jezzah :/
Me: oh on what subject
Tk: the Source thing, nothing really got smaller.
Me: i thought so. would be wierd and unlogical for something to happen like that.
Tk: shards while called shards are kinda more a copy then anything else, only people are smaller.
Me: yeah i just said in the group only the people are smaller lol
Tk: oh oops lol. i dind't see
Me: no prob XD. just mingle yourself in the conversation. i mean she doesn't have 1 clue that you can talk to laha now lol. say the things he says about it.
Tk: Think Laha means that the shards are like copies but they represent something from the source (like how you can see that in game when one calamity happens that shard represents that element).
Me: yeah
Tk: I'm normally all excited for October but i just want Nomember here lol. he said he will see if he can come to me tonight to talk better about stuff when im asleep, but don't rush sleep lol.
Me: ohhhh. if possible ask what can i do to learn to hear them speak like you do.
Tk: okay, what was the other thing you wanted to ask? I have to look
Me: well i can only remember for now what i am lacking or what need to learn to hear them speak.
i need to look up the other one lol.
Tk: ah about the title thing. ...which i think i just got a "we will talk about"
Lol
Me: ah yes ty!
Tk: anything else you wanna ask
Me: actually so many. hmmmm . ah yes atm the old group fell apart i had a automatic writing session with lahabrea as a result of a dream i was noting. indicating via the writing that he experienced a similar break of the convocation. its it was making him depressed, (well sort of) that that happened.
i wonder if he can tell more about it? i can but assume this was even wayyyyyyyy before Hades joined.
Tk: do you mean like they arent really talking to each other?
Me: huh? no, but currently i got they idea they dont yeah.
let me look up the part i am talking about 1 moment
( I linked to the automatic writing seesion I had on July 3rd)
Tk: ah that. okay i will ask
Me: ty!
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later in the evening after meditation
me: So right after waking up from the meditation. I gained sudden info about the twins's dad. And I wasn't thinking about him at all.
I asked if he dies. Gained a no.
I asked if he sees the error of his ways, I gained a yes.
Well let's hope so. Because that guy seriously
(well if you have played endwalker, if you know, you know
But good night.)
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Oct 6th
Dm’s with tk.
Me: did you had anything?
Tk: need to get it all down
(some time later):
Tk: Okay so when I went to sleep I immediately felt like I was being dragged into deep sleep. Tried to think about going to one of the usual spots, ended up in the one I was in before. Lahabrea was already there (usually he appears after I've been there for a bit). He had like tea set up on the one table lol. Was pretty much like having a normal conversation with someone so I won't like put down like exact words but most important stuff.
-Laha says that in response to how you are with hearing them, that you just have a different "ability" then me or anyone else does, and that the way I hear them is different then the way you do. He just said keep practicing, you aren't lacking anything. He isn't sure if something is bugging Eli or not which would cause him to have issues communicating because he doesn't really get a chance to talk to him much (says he only really keeps up with Emet lately).
I asked about Jezzah again just.to confirm that and he said the same thing as yesterday, with the addition that she should also try to practice with connecting but her "obsession" over Emet sometimes messes with that.
On title: he says you would get a title later but may not be his, they haven't decided (also gonna be awhile lol)
On that depression thing: all I got.on this one is a smile and he said "don't worry, I had some friends that helped get me through that, like you help your friends and ayane through stuff" and that's it on that... Won't push anymore lol
After that he was just praising me for practicing and such.
Me: o-o wow
Tk: I told you I had to write it lol
Me: i think i just read it 3x that how amazed i am. but jezzah's "connecting" is that with emet then? or another ascian?
Tk: It could be Emet that is guiding her much like Eli and Laha are for us, though I didn't push on. Though it's probably Emet I wouldn't see why not.
Me: how do you come to that conclusion its still emet? yesterday we both agreed/concluded it wasn't the actuall one who is with her.
Tk: Cause even if it's not actual him he's still guiding her from the clone. Though could be another ascian for all I know, that was just my thought.
Me: yeah that's true. i got 1 question left. what do i need to practice to learn to hear them speak?
Tk: Well now I gotta ask that another time lol
Me: that's fine
Tk: Just got a lot, didn't expect
Me: i thought your were gonna say you had nothing, XD until you said you needed to get it all down lol
Tk: He said he was coming lol
Me: well he atleast keeps his word. to bad i can't say that from eli....but on second thought i can’t hear him, so i don’t know if he will be coming. and if i ask he doesn't come
Tk: I don't know why I can hear Laha like I do so I feel bad ;;
Me: do you hear him with his voice? so lets say not your own. don't feel bad....
Tk: Yeah not my own definitely
Me: woah that so huge. damnation. i am so jealous xD yet proud on you aswell.
Tk: That's why I feel bad
Me: -_- don't, maybe you can help me by learning it. by asking lahabrea how?
Tk: I can ask next time. Not sure if he will come tonight though.
Me: i guess he is not around i take it?
Tk: Not atm no
Me: ok no prob
Tk: But whenever next time is, yes I will ask
Me: ty!
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Group posts
me: My son did this. Elidibus with minion on his head
jezzah: XD. I need an Emet body pillow. Would never stop snuggling him
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Oct 9th
I couldn't sleep for 3 hours. But during that visit I noticed being hugged a couple of times.
I tried to connect with elidibus through thoughts. But firstly asked my guides, guardians, and any other entities not to interfere, they listened to that thankfully.
So I connect with elidibus quite quickly, it seemed he was visiting me, he answered yes to that and it was clearly noticeable. He clearly wanted something "more", but I was so broken I was way to tired for that. He understood. So we cuddled allot. I was able to feel some astral body parts of him (I don't know how to call it otherwise), he used the body pillow this time. Firstly I was able to feel his neck with my left hand. And when I moved my hand to where actually nothing would be, I also felt nothing. It was nice to test this, because when I placed my hand back I felt him again.
I asked him if he could help me sleep multiple times because my mind didn't wanted to shut up. But during these times I asked if he could pat my head, maybe that would work to help fall asleep.i didn't felt anything really upon my head but I did felt his hand landing on my shoulder plates.
After I felt his leg crossing mine in bed.
We cuddled allot, and I asked him if he could just hug me to sleep. Eventually that worked.
He was away when I woke up at 11:55 am.
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Later that day I was complaining about Ao3 taking my story down and asked jezzah if she could help.
jezzah: Ao3 is probably just tired of the constant complaining. I have a court date coming up soon and I can't focus on this. I could seriously lose my kids for good [redacted]. I never fully trusted that site to begin with, I would suggest self publishing your work and switch to a different site as Ao3 is mostly for fanfiction. Also, yeah, a lawyer would be needed because M***ie keeps harassing you and you can legally tell her to stop. Iirc harassment is illegal in any country.
me: oh my, what is your mom doing now? wanna talk?
now here I will skip a bit since its kinda personal. she is being attacked on multiple things including her Pagan believes.
jezzah: Yeah, you see the impossible situation I am in?
me: yeah i see. you being attacked on multiple things. i really hope the court will be in your favour.
skip some parts again
me: ok, stay alive for them.
(I sended a pic of the unsundered made by an artist but I atleast know the artist doesn’t want it to be reposted elsewhere without permission. may ask later.)
jezzah: I really could use their strength rn. I wonder if Laha could help bring out the truth?
Wait, if Laha and Emet team up
idk
I just want people to realize the truth and stop trying to fuck us over.
me: @TK if you haven't meditated yet take this with you for jezzah
tk: i didn't yet, i will.
me: thanks
jezzah: Thank you, I'll try to talk to Hades about this.
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Dm’s with TK
Me: hey, can you take a moment to read what i posted. its concerning about my ao3. M***ie attacked it via ao3. and now all of a sudden they take all the complaints of others with it.
Tk: Just take out parts with her then put.it.back. not much more you can do.
Me: but which parts? all of it?
Tk: Anything that was a dm. You can make a case that anything said in the server was public and therefore isn't harassment to post. But when dms get involved gets a bit tricky.
Me: so that would be the twitter dms?
Tk: Yeah
Me: ok. strange is was thinking about that before i read that email. and that would be the only proof that she believes the same.
Tk: I wouldn't consider anything she said in the discord server harassment , cause that's technically a public place.
Me: yeah
Tk: Technically she's making it worse on herself. The receipts are all there, I've seen people when the "witch hunt" was going on before questioning her because "didn't she also believe in this?"
Me: IKR she is still trying to talk herself out of it.
Tk: was she the one that talked to laha or was that mysi***
Me: yes m***ie talked to laha
Tk: maybe he went to me cause he was upset about how she's acting
Me: perhaps. thats maybe a very good question to ask when you encounter him. got a question though. allot of what was spoken about in twitter dm was repeated in the discord group. would that then count as public
Tk: if she said that it was okay to then yeah
Me: the first talk with elidibus she posted herself even.
(Now the conversation went about jezzah and her kids and her upcoming court date) .
Tk: Poor Jezzah
Me: i know..... but this whole situation blocks her off too. spiritually i mean
Tk: I know. I have no idea why her area is like this honestly, there's rules in place here that you can't be harassed for your religion. also why they are forcing her to have contact with her mom if she's that abusive.
Me: because everyone beliefs her mom that the problem
Tk: eh, i know that unfortunally... i don't have any contact with my family cause of it
Me: damn
Tk: im off today, will try to meditate
Me: oh cool. if you succeed. try to ask what i need to practice to hear them speak.
and that laha flees to you sorta say because of m***ie.
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Oct 11th
Continuation of tk dm’s
Tk: I just asked him to help Jezzah out if he could, haven't really talked though
Me: ok
Tk: I think maybe try to focus on getting in touch with Lahabrea and then maybe he can help figure out what you need to do to hear them?
Me: .....easier said then done
Tk: Ah okay :/ I'm sorry I'm waiting to ask but haven't been able to since.
Me: ok let me know as soon as you get the chance
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Oct 12th
I launched my weblog
we didn’t heard a thing about jezzah after her court date. only for her husband to say she was at the hospital…..
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Oct 13th
Dm’s with tk
Tk: Okay so got a little bit last night. Was having a normal dream but when walking though a forest during the dream Lahabrea appeared and I became lucid enough that I could ask stuff.
On you connecting to them better, he said just keep trying to meditate, maybe light more candles for them. He has no control over how Eli connects with you so he has no way to help with that, but he can try and talk to him (though he then gave me a small chuckle and said that he's busy a lot so will be difficult but he'll try for us anyway lol)
On M***ie thing, he pretty much repeated what I thought he was trying to get across before, that she was being too possessive of him, but with the addition of the fact that he wants to help others but she was attempting to keep all of his help to herself. He didn't say anything else though, so that doesn't answer "why me" with it.
Me: oh wow ty so much!.
i almost chocked into my coolbest juice i was drinking when i saw your message pop up say "so got a little bit last night" hahahahah.
Tk: Oops sorry lol. Oh yeah he said he was trying to help protect Jezzah along with Emet.
Me: nice! she has the court date tomorrow!
i hope it will end positive for her.
Tk: Yeah same
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Oct 14th
Me: Elidibus has a day off on October 22nd . Lahabrea should be able to talk to him
Tk: KK
Me: I hope you can tell lahabrea this
Tk: I will try to :)
Me: Ty!
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Oct 19th
Me: Did you managed to let lahabrea know about Elidibus's day off?
Tk: yes i said something but he already knew
Me: Nice!
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Oct 21st
Interesting info.
Max size of an ancient is 6meters.
Lahabrea is 588cm.
Emet is 599cm
Elidibus is 453cm.
Max size of female ancient is 550cm
Igey is 537cm
He liked me for asking this question lol
( though after some thoroughly re calculating in january I remember I pictured elidibus too small in my mind because of the 5.3 scene and fanart when I asked these questions. Elidibus would be 486 or 510cm instead before joining the convocation. Because ancient are 3x bigger then current humans with 486 he would be 162cm that would be a 16-17yo eli. This is also the age where he and I had the same height, I am not sure If I even mentioned that in Jan 2021 but I did some lore hunting regarding me and him back then. He is about 17 in pandaemonium ( just turned 18, i asked this January 2022) and 170cm in game this is mostly likely right before he joins the convocation. 170x3 is 510. And eventhough ascian eli in game is 175cm in reality he would be 180cm which he answered to me many times. So his max ancient height would be 535-540 instead before he sacrifices himself. But the rest of the calculations I save for the january chapter but most are correct but it required some calculating to fact check, though hopefully I will get confirmation via another like TK in the future, and igeyorhms height is slightly off with 8cm but full report on this in january 2022 chapter)
Also he hopped over for a few seconds when i asked to hold my hand. He was busy but a few seconds were possible.
He did more then just my hand. He hugged me passionately. After that he left again. But remained present through thoughts.
@TK is there a way for you to verify this with lahabrea?
Tk: The height? I mean I can ask lol
Me: yes XD
elidibus's day off starts in 1,5h from now (then it the 22nd here already). so i hope lahabrea can get a chance to speak with elidibus in how i can connect with him better to hear him speak. or perhaps how he can have better access to me in my dreams.
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Oct 22nd
So i got eli over and did our "thing" i missed it to do it with him while he visits me. man the soul merging went so deep i thought i had sprouted phoenix wings on my back. Kind of a ascian prime effect. Also i could very vaguely see my own glyph while eyes closed. Only some outlining here and there but even that very blurry.
In the same way i saw his, saw 1 of those wings very shortly but blurry.
(He is watching me over while typing ).
And after our soul merging. I asked sone questions regarding going home.
The things i needs to learn regarding self love.
Accept the way i look like now ( i got allot of overweight). But i need to stop eating sugary treats.
I am not allowed to lose weight because i want it. But only to eat healthier. Mostly this result in weight loss. But i cannot go by this.
Yes its complicated.
Also admitting my mistakes towards others i know. I dont necessarily need to get ridd of those mistakes. But only acknowledge them to myself and others.
Elidibus will speak with lahabrea today. So i hope lahabrea can pass the message to TK of what is needed to know how i can hear them speak and how elidibus can have better access to my dreams etc.
I hope is gonna talk to lahabrea now lol
jezzah: I'm back
tk: welcome back ^^
jezzah: Good news, the boys were taken away from my mother
I need to light a candle for Emet and Lahabrea
me: omg i am so happy for you. do you got them back?
or where are they now?
jezzah: We have to find someone else to watch them
tk: i asked Lahabrea to help (and ask Emet to help with) so i hope that was what happened. i am glad they are away from her.
jezzah: Yes, I assume it was their work and I am going to light a candle for both of them.
me: yes will appreciate that allot!
I asked her permission if I could post this ofcourse but with this added info:
her kids were taken away at first from jezzah and they went to her mom and they were abused by her. and then jezzah had a court. and before the court TK asked lahabrea to help and lahabrea asked emet-selch aswell.
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Me: ok did some lore hunting regarding the time flow of the source compared to the earth.
the source has 25h a day (compared to earth)
8 days a week.
4,5 weeks a month (so 36 days a month)
13 months
468 days in a year
the source is quite big! (or orbit is bigger)
and they started later with their year count compared to earth. but we are in the same dimension and galaxy ( milky way)
their week count is 58,5 so 1 year is 58 weeks and the next 59 weeks.
so the last month of the year has 4 or 5 weeks
i just found out that even Earth has 53 weeks in a year every 5 or 6 years. so i think these calculations make sense (edited)
also this question round was done with elidibus and my higherself together. that was quite some experience tbh. because eli was/is here atm i could ask him questions at the same time. he is answering via our telepathic feelings way and my HS with forward and backward method. 1 time i had both "yes" answers that was funny.
his next day off is Dec 13th ;P (………..that didn’t happen he did warned me 1 day prior in a dream he needed to leave …..but I will save that drama and despair for the december chapter)
they have the same names for the constellations we have but they look different over there.
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Oct 23rd
Me: So i have been asking this question before in regards of how the people of the source actually look like. And i keep getting the same answers.
Most of the people and races we see in the game are truly existing.
Except for viera and aura.
The beast tibes are also a thing but they aren't existing all of them.
Also i have been questioning if i wont succeed my self love lesson. If i can atleast reincarnate on the Source.
And between the death of this life and the reincarnation if i can be with elidibus atleast. (I want to take a break of reincarnations, and yes that's possible)
I gained a big fat yes to this all.
So i am so fueled with hope RN
TK: Not sure who you are talking with on that one but that is something that I've asked and all races that are in the game exist in some way. That was a definite "they do" that I just got reading that.
Me: well maybe the viera and aura look different. as you stay "in some way" can you tell me more about this? when did you received that answer.
TK: Like literally just now when I read it was the they do, though I've asked like some random time before
Me: hmmmm interesting. though when i asked that question i depicted each race to make sure it was talking about that one if it exists or not. it might be very well that they looked different. perhaps the veira only the ears and tail and further no fur on the body. and perhaps the aura only got horns and a tail and no scales on the body.
i guess i needed to be more detailed with my question.
but i will note this one down in my note pad to check upon this with my higher self later on.
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Me: so in regards with the info TK gave me about the aura and viera. they indeed exist. the aura have less scales and have wings. not sure if they can use them to fly i gained mixed answers on that.
the viera have bunny tails and more fur on their bodies.
i aslo asked about the Feol but they got only 1 bunny race.
the reason eli answered the these 2 wouldn't exist was because he thought i wouldn't believe him that every race existed. XD.
further a confirmation on the way i can get home etc.
and apparently my HS wants a break between lives aswell if i dont succeed in the self love lesson. the last part of the session was funny i usually ask to connect with elidibus to tell him i love him and thank him for the answers. it was good to feel him directly instead of a spiritguide pretending to be him and to tell to fuck off firstly lol.
it funny in the way when asking both the same question being pushed forward and gained the fluffy feeling for a yes answer together it made me giggle lol.
so i this regards my higherself can now link elidibus directly to me when proper connected. and visa versa. yesterday i asked elidibus to get my HS. but this was only possible because he was around.
can i conclude i am improving? despite i still can't hear them speak?
@TK do you get any confirmations or debunks from lahabrea regarding the details?
Some details i even asked lahabrea (via HS) though instead of eli.
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Jezzah: I just want to note that when I lit the candles, Laha's was a lot smaller than Emet's when I lit them. But they did even out after a couple minutes.
Me: interesting
Jezzah: It's kinda like you and Eli
Eli's burns longer and stuffs
Emet's with me was larger and brighter
me: hahahah yes he often burns longer then the other 2 ( emet and laha)
Jezzah: I would like to light more candles for them but I am running out of tea lights as it is lol, I do use them to keep my tea warm
Me: lol hench the name tea light
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Oct 24th
Tk: Okay I at least got a little bit while I was able to, about what you posted cause he felt like he was bugging me enough about it lol
Au ra exist, but they are more varied (both genders) then the game has them as. (Lahabrea says the females being smaller all the time is dumb LOL) Viera exist as they do but are more willing to live with the rest of the people then they are protrayed (Lahabrea got a bit annoyed about that one and said that was becuase of the guy who had "made" vieras for Ivalice games had too much of his own input that was false lol) and more boys exist in society then the game atm protrays. I also asked about Hrothgar cause I was interested in the females and he got annoyed again cause the game doesn't have any right now lol. And that Queen Gunhildr in the Bozja plotline was a Hrothgar woman like the concept art shows (that's in the newest art book I believe) but was changed. (Laha doesn't like the roe woman look they put in lol). He specifically told me these when I read it because he knows that I like au ra lore.
He told me without asking that he talked to Eli. They had some chat about stuff, he said he may tell me later if possible.
Me: i was wondering if you got any confirmation vibes or debunkations (thats not a word is it?) on what i posted on answers that i got in the group. look if it doesn't add up on what i said on the looks of the viera and aura races. you need to tell me. i could have understood the answer wrongly. yet those fur, bunny tail, wings and things i questioned lahabrea. well via my higherself so not directly like you can
i hope you can give me a reply to that. because its bugging me a bit.
this was the info i received:
the aura have less scales and have wings. not sure if they can use them to fly i gained mixed answers on that.
the viera have bunny tails and more fur on their bodies.
i aslo asked about the Feol but they got only 1 bunny race. ( so technically they split up 1 race into 2 if i look at the feol lore being more under the people etc like you said veira are. )
the reason eli answered the these 2 wouldn't exist was because he thought i wouldn't believe him that every race existed. XD.
Tk: I don't think that all au ra have wings but.it.is possible that some do. Again they are varied (like some have more scales, some have different colors,etc) that's generally what I got from him. Viera I'm not really sure on other then what I said
Me: ah that kind of varied
but yeah it sounds logical though. i can only ask optional questions, me giving the options. so yeah you get these kind of answers with it. the burden of not hearing them speak
tk: I know I'm sorry
me: don't , you don't need to be sorry. atleast i can verify my info with you.
Jezzah: I can't wait to be a "fur" real bunbun lol, pun intended
Me: lol
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oct 25th
me: So i ordered the normal ancient mask and venat's one i asked to make the ancient mask red. But got the venat's red. (On taobao)
.....i like it, that will be my mask for as long that leather phoenix mask is too big for my head.
Additionally i told this to Elidibus.
And at the end i said " would you like me wearing it as an opposing to venat"? I gained a very big yes to that. He like it
In overal he has mixed feelings about venat. I can ask him again when i played endwalker.
Ok so Elidibus feels uneasy to talk about venat. He doesn't want to answer the question if she was our mom or any relative. Again i can ask him when i finished endwalker.
I believe i just received an " i am sorry" but sounded with my own thoughts voice. So not sure if that was him or me wanting to hear that.
( in regards to the mask, the middleman/ company where I sended to so I can get my hands on the product, returned the product to the seller because they thought it was wrong. Which is true. But I liked the color so I was disspointed when I received the correct white one XD. Recently I bought a new one and explictly asked to make it red and the decoration gold. I hope its done correctly now. )
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Dm’s with tk
Tk: Lahabrea told me to tell you that you are not doing anything wrong with trying to communicate better with Eli. He was even a bit trying to hide reasoning with Laha when he talked to him but he thinks that he's waiting until after Endwalker. Though he stresses that it's not your fault at all, you have the ability to do so.
Me: oh?
Tk: That's what he told me anyways
Me: so laha think elidibus is waiting until endwalker?
Tk: Yes
Me: good to know i got the ability for it to hear them speak.
Tk: Keep in mind that's what Laha THINKS is the reason, he is utterly confused otherwise because again you have the ability to lol. Though "I know Elidibus, he is probably waiting till after that" lol
Me: i hope so!
maybe we all will be in a wild ride when we finish the EW story
tk: Maybe :)
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Oct 26th
Jezzah: I lit a candle for Hades and every time I pass it I get a warm fuzzy feeling and sometimes I stop and I just feel hugged and loved. I love him so much.
Me: :D
Jezzah: I'm willing to use my tea lights to honor him
Me: They definitely like that
TK said that too when lahabrea told her that would help for better connection.
I always burn tea lights or candles when meditating before bedtime
Eli doesn't always notice. But he certainly likes it.
Jezzah: I need a lot more tea lights
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Oct 27th
Me: So i asked eli earlier today, well morning. about if unukhalai (i probably spelled it wrong) if he exist also.
At first he said no, bit later i realized that the ascians are telling the story so everything in game on that regards must have happened. And then he confessed he thought i wouldn't believe him and unukhalai does exist.
So i gained some doubts over the day if i was even talking to Elidibus.
So i decided to have a talk with my HS.
But to spare me the hassle of spirit guides taking her place to fool me i connected to Elidibus firstly by kissing my plushie and lot a candle that i got explicit for him.When i lit the flame of the candle it was burning heavily, huge flame.. And then asked if he could get my higher self. The first attempt didn't work he also said it wasn't my HS. Second try was her.
So i asked my HS about unukhalai. But he does exist. Almost every character in the game also exist. They even got the same names. Not sure if that's true but i believe the characters does atleast (but graha tia doesn't lol) . The character however can look different in terms of facial appearances and hair color. But from what i have asked the races matches the characters atleast.
So i did a random question what Yshtola's hair color would be.
I started with white, but gained a no.
I went through all "natural" hair colours and it landed on brown.
I even asked if it was brown or a different color but it remained brown lol.
Not sure about every detail is correct or not.
But we can savely say almost every character exist. (edited)
Emet selch and elidibus have white hair. And lahabrea blond but that's no news lol. Only extra confirmation. Lol
(about the names was probably answered in my favour there will be names that match obviously I don’t doubt that. But all? No I think not. Also eli’s hair is considered white but has a silver layer/glow on it calling it “white silver”)
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Jezzah: Ascian snuggles are the best snuggle
Me: ikr
Zio: They are definitely very nice. Sorry I haven't had a lot to say or contribute lately. Been going through a lot of weird stuff, plus I haven't really heard from Nabriales in a bit.
Me: Oh that's sad to hear. I hope you hear from him again soon.
I got a question though, have you tried contacting him? Because if you are busy with stuff they tend to leave you alone. So you won't hear from him when busy.
Atleast i got this with eli. Maybe nabs does the same. (edited)
Jezzah: I can vouch for this with Hades too, he tends to distance himself when I have a lot of mental stress going on though I love it when he snuggles me and lets me know he's still here for me.
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Me: So i random thought crossed my head when i was snuggling with eli to wake.
I asked if he was lonely before he met me. And gained a yes with a very big sorrow feeling with it.
I said " i am glad i can give you fulfillment"
And gained a big compassionate hug feeling.
Also @Jezzah i asked about if he likes tea. And yes he does.
But i dont know which flavour because tea is endless with flavours. I hope next time when i am in the grocery store he is with me to check upon tea flavours
Jezzah: I had a feeling he liked tea, he had that tea lovers vibe about him but I wanted to double check with him and not assume. Hades loves tea. So when I light a candle for Hades, I'm leaving out a small cup. When I am able to get a large stockpile of candles I will light one for Eli and leave him some tea as well.
Me: i wonder if he would notice lol. he is very busy with work
he doesn;t always noticed my candles either though.
Jezzah: You'll need to remind him then to check ad see if I left something out for him.
Me: i will tell him then lol. i wonder what would happen.
Jezzah: I can't make anything now since we got an air fryer I have to move my Tea Bar
Me: no problem lol. i will let him know when you are ready lol
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Oct 30th
Dm’s with tk
Tk: lahabrea came a little bit last night, dind't really talk about much, was just there for comfort cause was feeling a bit depressed
Me: Oh lucky you.
I haven't had a decent ascian dream since the end of September...:/
Tk: ;; im sorry. i can try to say something to him if i try to meditate?
Me: Yes you can. If he is present then he will hear you. Otherwise i am not sure if he will hear you when he is not near.
But you can always try!
Tk: okay . i guess i can ask him why you haven't?
Me: Yes please!
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Oct 31st
Me: I showed elidibus the Eternals trailer and "info you need to know before watching". And he got sorta alerted by the name "celestials".
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Dm’s with tk
Me: Did you had time to meditate?
Tk: I did get a small time to chat with him. He said possibly soon you may, though he said "we can't say much until after you play".
Me: Wait what? So no dreams until i played endwalker? Wtf? Its not necessarily info about the game and such, just ya know teach me things in dreams.
Tk: No no he means like stuff about things going on, not dreams to teach you stuff. He said you may get one soon.
Me: I hope so!
If you get any other chit chat with him. Please share even its just your own questions you asked him.
Tk: Kk
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Dreams of October
Well I did had some dreams but that was either a message that was “that they probably said often is that you will always remain beautifull”. A fake eli (apparantly) dream and a dream with lyse as Yda and a portal to the FFXIV world at 14:45pm sadly didn’t got through because I woke up.
next chapter in November will be our Bonding anniversary and eli took a day off for that. omg i love him so much. also bare in mind that this new group of us is not seeking new members necessarily and we aren't looking for them either. but if you believe in the same and/or want to share your experiences with me/us you can always leave a chat message via this website or a twitter dm!
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