I feel like being the first one to write about this. Or I cannot search properly on google, I think the latter, anyway…..
All I get is spiritual awakening and when does a soul enter the body if I search on the internet. Only 1 question related to this I found on Quora. Questioning about spiritual pregnancy without a physical partner. One of those answers were that “yes it’s possible but the offspring would be spiritual too” i.o.w Soul only. WELL DUH! Though I am happy I found more or less confirmation but sadly no symptoms were mentioned which I will be writing about. I will however verify this occurrence with John when another session is needed..
Very early in my relationship with Elidibus I already had the urge to make spirit babies with him. He got extremely turned on when I said “unsundered ascian baby’s “ even though for as long as I thought I was just a desired thing of a mortal brain. But I guess there was more at hand.
Though when I told my ex about this about my spirit baby he mentioned he read a story long ago (and sadly can’t find it back) about a woman who was spiritually pregnant of a new soul (after sex with a ghost). She had pregnancy symptoms and eventually even gave birth but there was nothing to be seen. And In all honesty, I had the same, just not so extreme because I thought it were just desires and my mind faking it/playing tricks on me and the possibility of a fake pregnancy. If I go through my monthly cycle there was only 10 days that I wasn’t really busy with it which were 4-5 days included of my period. Then it started all over again, wanting to carry a child of the Emissary this lasted until August 2021 iirc. ( * reads back august*) yeah August 4th 2021 was the very last time I was busy with kids with him. But perhaps the ear ringing was to say “we already got one/ you are already pregnant” instead…………….
After every sex attempt of Elidibus being turned on with “ascian babies” it felt he was really going for it, despite I knew It doesn’t work anyway. But I guess I was wrong. After the sex I often held my hand on belly as if I was impregnated. And yes I can feel his sperm as a wave of energy enters my womb.
In early 2021 it was so present this desire I had the urge to breastfed a baby, his baby, ours….so I like roleplayed with the baby Eli plushie, pretending its our son instead,….”son”……typical lol. It even triggered an echo vision later in March. Not sure if it had any relevance. This breastfeeding urge lasted until like May or early June iirc. Yes I think I stopped with it when he left for so long. I noticed another spirit was taking advantage of it to miss use the plushie. It felt that way though. And somehow it kept me awake instead of falling asleep, so I had multiple reason to stop with it.
So let sum up some symptoms.
-the desire to be pregnant even if you are certain you don’t want anymore, living physical ones I mean.
-you look up on the internet if it is even possible to get pregnant of a ghost or create new born souls known as sprit babies.
-after most intensive soul sex automatically placing you hand on your belly as indication you are (getting) pregnant.
-the desire to breastfed a baby
-waiting every month until “hopefully” you skip your period, which never happens, you still get your period. Only to be disappointed when your period hit, knowing full well it doesn’t work that way. I mean I knew he couldn’t get me physically pregnant anyway.
-2/3 of the month you are busy in your head with spirit babys
-you talk about possibilities with your spirit partner how to get pregnant of him anyway.
-when you get a sudden urge to give birth somehow, it might be actually happening. I didn’t had any pain, but the urge to press it out was there.
-months later you meet your spirit baby in a dream.
These last 2 points I will give extra info about. I didn’t bother to write it down the date of such an event it was short and painless but the pressure to press it out of your body was clearly present, but alas I didn’t directly linked it to actually giving birth to begin with! But if you already have a child you will recognize the feeling but without pain.
I believe it was in September, but when I asked about it, he was already born before September. You see, what I didn’t wrote about in the September dreams was that I had a dream about giving birth to twins on Sept 18th.
I had a dream about having twins a boy and a girl. My ex who I still live with was there too, but not sure if he was the father or Elidibus. It was in a hospital. The boy wanted to be fed and smacked my boob while he said boo boo. My ex was clumsy in the dream, like forgot to held the head and such. Some diaper change was there too of the girl. But when we were finished the diaper was full again. i when i saw the baby's i believe 1 of them had white hair and the other very light blond? not sure. iirc. indicating eli would have used my ex as host. but i knew this couldn't be done in the waking world. this is possibly the second reason i didn't wrote it down. because i already dismissed the option. and thus saw it more as a sign or message where you can look up the meaning of it then real spirit baby's. These are all the details I was able to find back/remember..
Before I go to the months later and meet our spirit baby on Feb 1st,
I want to share some info I found on Quora
“Can souls give spiritual birth to other souls or only God can create new souls?”
“This is a great question. To the best of my understanding, only the source creates new souls. Actually, it’s quite a delicate process, from what I have read. There is a special group of souls that assist in the (for lack of a better word) “birthing” process. We don’t know about the souls who are above the “nursing” souls who assist in bringing the new souls into consciousness, as they are non incarnating souls who have never been interviewed. Even the nursing souls have never met them. I get the impression the area that hands off the unborn souls to the birthing souls is off limits.
Imagine a glowing pulsating globular ball of energy. It is protected by a denser energy membrane. The nursing/birthing soul carefully pierces the membrane and opens it up enough so the newborn soul can emerge. It floats upward and becomes aware of itself for the first time. Everyone of these newborn souls are unique, and the only thing they know, at this point, is that they are. Besides that, they don’t know a thing. The nursing souls care and nurture them to help them become more aware. When they get to a certain point, they are assigned to “post birth” teacher and small group which starts their orientation as to who and what they are.
What I have just shared with you is what I have read from Michael Newton’s books. He has interviewed over seven thousand patients, under deep hypnosis, regarding their experiences in past lives, their death experiences, their experiences in the afterlife and what they do between lives (I have a lot of interest in that area), and their experiences melding into new fetuses, and being born.
To me, a form of energy that becomes aware of itself, is not only the greatest gift in existence but also one of the biggest mysteries of all.”
This was on the same page as where I once found the Eternal spirits can have soul babies info,
Let me repeat that bit, saves you looking it up again.
“A spirit (soul) cannot, of their own volition, create new spirits.
The Creator participates in the creation of all new spirits, and could do so independently, but has chosen to include certain spirits, and the mortal lives they attach to, in the process.
Eternal spirits are those that have chosen to be together for eternity; they are the equivalent of parents in the spirit world. Two spirits of a certain level of status (having concluded approximately half of their physical lifetimes) can request of the Creator to be eternal spirits. It is not a role desired or sought by every spirit; fewer than one-third of all spirits have this function.
The creation of new spirits involves a process that includes the Creator and human conception when two eternal spirits have been destined to be together in their physical lifetimes. The newly created spirits then are guided to the spirit world where they spend the equivalent of a decade or two being nurtured and trained before attaching to their first physical lifetime.
Eternal spirits, and their spiritual children, are the most enduring of relationships in the spirit world. The “parents” participate in the creation of as many spirits as they believe they are capable of nurturing and mentoring, which they will do virtually forever, but, as with human children, will be more intensive whey they are younger.
My sources are two spirits who spoke to me through another person (not channeled). To learn about my experience with them and more of what they revealed to me, click on my profile link to The Invisible Choir.”
With this in the back of my mind, when I met my spirit baby I knew the membrane could have been in my womb all this time. I am still figuring this out and I hope to learn more about this how and when it happened soon.
2 days (feb 3rd) after I met my beautiful son with white hair. I came across this on Quora
Before I copy paste that, I will post what I saw before I had that dream
before i fell asleep and met my son. right before falling asleep. i saw with my eyes closed my soul in multiple colors, but no details only a silhouette of a woman her/my arm and hand moved to her/my belly and the hand went inside and came out with an energy orb floating on her hand. then i saw a second entity where his robes were part of his soul. i didn’t see any details, but i did saw the beak part of eli's mask, though i had the idea he was smiling. he helded also an orb that came from his body. and the 2 orbs merged. then i fell asleep and met my son.
it could have been an echo vision that i wasn't aware of.
The dream:
So the dream started in a shopping street with my ex. I would apparently have a 2nd child from him.
but I would have preferred a 2nd one with elidibus if it had to be done anyway. we talked about this for a while and later walked into a shop.
our son and my mother were there too.
Suddenly a Turkish man came to me and spoke to me. "come" he said.
Mom: Go with him, I think he wants something from you.
he hit me on my ass but was not sexually intended or anything. but more of a "hurry up" kind of thing.
I walked with him.
man: he's here.
me: huh Elidibus is here???
man: yes up there somewhere.
he pointed to an attic-like room. he wanted to help me pass through a maze of fences.
me: wait but i'll fly through it.
I flew up, bending racks to the side. and ended up somewhere in a room with rooms. i searched for eli.
me: Eli are you here???
no reaction. I looked around and saw a little boy with snow white hair. he didn't even have all his teeth yet, or was just changing.
me: do you know where elidibus is?
boy: he's not here.
I don't remember what I asked then, but the ending did.
me: are you the son of elidibus?
boy: yes
me: and are you the son of mine?
boy: yes
me: come here.
I gave him a hug.
boy: how do i feel?
me: nice and huggable, he laughed from what i could hear.
then i woke up.
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Now the Quora question, I will “bold” the part what is the same as i saw.
Supposing reincarnation is true, where do new souls come from?
Answer by Richard Martini
“I asked this question in an interview with a spirit guide. And what I mean by that is, I was filming someone under deep hypnosis (I’ve filmed 40 so far, they all say relatively the same things), a hypnotherapist trained in Michael Newton’s method (“Journey of Souls”) asked the guide - “So how do souls come into existence?” and the guide’s answer was this:
“Between lives, outside this plane, physics work on a different level. Souls can come into existence anytime, all the time. The process is hard to describe, (he said) but goes something like this: Two photons of light (for lack of a better word) are put together. One might have some female energy, the other might have some male energy, it varies. That newly formed soul is tended over by people who do that sort of thing. Their function is like midwives watching over children. And then the guides and loved ones may add bits of energy to those photons, building and adding to what this soul will become.
And then at some point, that soul is ready to incarnate in some form, on some level, perhaps not on earth, but another playground. At that point the soul is assigned a spirit guide. (Everyone has one, some have more than one, but basically the spirit guide looks over all of that soul’s lifetimes.) The guide may occasionally join the soul during an incarnation, but for the most part remains an impartial guide and observer.
Together with the soul, the guide comes up with a plan for what the soul will experience. Think of a blank canvas. And each color represents a different lifetime. And then after many many lifetimes you might look at the canvas and say “I need some more of this color or energy over here… and I think I need to work on some more of this energy over there…”
And at the end of all of your lifetimes there’s this magnificent portrait of a soul. And then at that point, depending if its the kind of work the soul wants to go into,they “graduate” from that level. And their graduation gift, if you will, is a new soul.
So after all their lifetimes they’re going to look after all the lifetimes of this new soul, using all the knowledge and experience they’ve gathered. And the process continues, people graduate from guide to council member, and then council members have councils, etc. It keeps going up.
When this guide was asked “So what happens to a soul once it gets through all of these journeys?” he said “I don’t know. It’s above my pay grade.” (quoted from “Flipside: A Tourist’s Guide on Now to Navigate the Afterlife.”)
As noted, “not all souls incarnate here on Earth.” So what’s in these reports is that people who “normally incarnate elsewhere” have been showing up here. They’ve come for some particular reason, the reports claim that it’s almost always something to do with advancement or consciousness expansion. (In the 1990’s Michael Newton estimated that 10% of the cases he was seeing claimed to have “off world” experience. In “It’s a Wonderful Afterlife” the President of the Newton Institute said their data shows that 30% of their clients are saying that they “normally incarnate elsewhere” or have some experience doing so.
That means either more people that have off world experience are finding a way to a hypnotherapist’s office, or more people are reading up on the topic and seeking out answers to why that might be - but I’m just reporting the data.”
so in short I saw the same thing happening! With myself and Elidibus! This was a very big confirmation for me that what I saw was real.
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Other things on feb 1st
So i can feel presences in my dreams now that are touching me, that are actually in my RL room.
In the dream it wasn't sure it was elidibus. Also the invisible entity spoke too much Dutch.
Elidibus can understand fully and speaks a little bit of my own language. But i believe not as much as that. He prefers English.
When i woke up, i felt the same presence touching me, it wasn't elidibus and it wasn't my spirit guide either i told it to fuck off by making my eyes looking fierce it backed off a bit only. So i poked the body pillow and said " hey bed buddy i need your help for a change, help to get ridd of this entity". And he gladly helped . Afterwards the guide hugged me. And in the first time ever i distinguished the difference in energies that are touching me.
Sometime later that day I went to search some stock photo’s of toddlers where our son looked to most at.
Me: he looked a bit like this, but then snow white hair. without the puppy lol
Me: his hairstyle was like this one with snow white hair.
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Dm’s with jezzah
Me: jezzzzzaaaahhhhh!. apparently i already have a kid with eli XD please read dream.
Jezzah: Remember when I told you that I had dreams about Emet and I having twins???
Me: no?
Jezzah: It was a while ago back in the old group. I would have many dreams of being pregnant and having Emet's offspring. Twins.
Me: that you were pregnant i knew that. but i dont recall having twins? anyway read the dream.
Jezzah: I did, I came to tell you that I get the exact same feelings for your dream as I did with mine.
Me: which is?
Jezzah: It's legit. It's a future that's waiting for us on Etheirys
Me: omg i'am squeeking so hard here ahhhhhh XD
Jezzah: I seriously need to recconect with Emet. I feel he has been busy and distant for a while. Emet and I are gonna have twins. It's the Gemini energy
Me: nice
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On feb 2nd I asked my HS some questions regarding our son.
That little boy in the dream who said he is the son of elidibus and me. Is this true?: yes
Does he already exist as a soul? Yes
Will I give birth to our son In this life on earth? no
Or when I leave this life and go back home? Yes.
It's up to me to choose whether to reincarnate or to grab a host body.
As discussed We both get a host. Then we will have our child physically and with that precious soul.
Me: elidibus was being a workaholic again. though when he comes back from a big job he needs to do till the 16th. he will visit me the entire day on the 17th. also i gained info about our son ahhhhhhh XD. but it is clear its a spirit baby. as i asked if spirit baby's depict themselves as toddlers, gained a big fat yes. and i will have a life on Etheirys after this one. its was for me to decide if i wanted to re-incarnate or grab a host. i said a host (to keep my memories) and mold it into my own image and he would do the same. then our child will come physically to life ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
also something else. recently i have been time traveling allot in my dreams. i really hope to go back 1 day and see the final days in full color. as horrifying it may be. or perhaps the sundering and see how the unsundered were saved or something. just anything from that era would be awesome.
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Feb 3rd
Zio: That's amazing! Congratulations on a beautiful boy
Me: :D
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On feb 4th I believed a gained a connection with elidibus but it was my male spirit guide which I called “bed buddy” that name is not in the way your are thinking, he helped me sleep often. And for as long he didn’t sexually harassed me he was allowed to stay, but he fucked it up. He tricked me by imitating elidibus and answered the verification questions in what elidibus would answer, sadly I fell for it. And I even had sex with this one. When I asked him if we had a son. I gain a “no”
I was like “what?!” “are you bed buddy?!” and gained a yes.
I became so fucking angry at him, despised him terribly and that he is a disgrace to all of his kind, I told him to leave me alone forever that I rather had no one around me then to be with him. He left and never returned (thank god).
Quickly after I gained a very honest female spiritguide in return, and she pledged to be honest with me. (and thusfar I am very satisfied, she lets me know if elidibus is there or not when he promised to visit, by pulling my ass downwards (a “no” answer normally) but with more intention/force so its clear he is there).
But yeah on feb 6th I contacted my HS again and asked if what happened is true and sadly it is. But the rest of the questions I will do later. Since some other things happened firstly.
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On Feb 5th I did some random research of my Higher selfs name “Ayantano” what it could mean. I never thought it actually would have Azem references.
Me: Ayan - shepherd.
Ayantano - travel
Describes Azem in a nutshell- no explanation needed.
What if tano is written as Thano instead:
Me: Ayantano = eternal Shepherd/traveler?
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Feb 6th
Ok so, i asked my spirit guide, if she could contact the baby soul nanny.( I call it a nanny for now for lack of better term). And she was able to.
My follow up question was if my son was able to visit me, and if so, taking place at my womb area.
And that happened. I really could feel a small entity entering my womb.
Though i will verify this later on, but i got hardly any doubts on this.
I asked him what his sensation would be for yes and no answers.
Yes is like a tickle or touch at my womb opening XD (it feels this way). and a no is like a small muscle tension at my hip.
I got him the second time now at the moment of writing this. Its truly a beautiful experience.
I asked him if he would like to come over every evening when i meditate. As so far he seems to be enthusiastic.
He can't stay the entire day, which is ok. He is being thought by the care takers( until he is fully grown as a soul) About life in physical body.
Also to develop other skills that i cant teach lol.
A far as i could ask. Elidibus visits him regularly. But little one misses him also a bit when eli is away.
I asked many other things. It seems he is born in august. I need to check what wrote before here in discord though. (this however was a week earlier in July, I think he was told the date in august when he came to consciousness)
And i asked if he can come over the entire day on the 17th when elidibus will be here too. He loves too. And i am certain he will come, little one i mean. Eli too he has to now though lol.
So later i said to needed to get out of bed and if that was ok.
I believe i received a hugging sensation from the inside, and then i felt some energy leaving out of my womb through the birth canal.
I believe he hovered above me for a few seconds before he left. I was able to say, "i will see you tonight".
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Later that day I asked some questions to my HS and Elidibus about tofay and the past few days
I asked the new female spirit guide to pick up my astral son and bring it to me. well see if she could do that first, and if it could then let my son go to me in my womb. The spirit nanny (that's what I call it)Would have brought him. But is this true?: Yes
Wasn't this my imagination? no
Or was it another entity pretending to be my child? no
On 4 feb in the night while meditating I thought I had connected with elidibus through my bed buddy. Is this true? Or hugely answered in my favour? I later got the answer that it was bed buddy. Is this true?; Yes
Was it him the whole time? Yes
Did I have sex with him? Yes
Have all questions about the child been asked from me and elidibus to bed buddy? yes
If yes.: How about having a 2nd child on Nov 4 during bond anniversary. Was that bed buddy too? Yes
If yes, why did he answer that? Did he go along with what I hoped Elidibus would say? Yes
If yes: have all questions been answered by bed buddy? Yes
Ask the real elidibus when our child was conceived(created in the case).
If possible on the day off, so exact date: March 14th 2021
How long a soul pregnancy lasts.; 4.5 months
And when the soul of our child is born/came to consciousness. Exact date if possible. July 28 2021
Ask if Elidibus wants a 2nd one later; Yes
If yes, ask when, because this time I want to experience the pregnancy consciously; Nov 29 2022
Does elidibus receive my love for him whenever i am busy with it? Like kissing and hugging the body pillow despite the distance of where he is? no
Why can't I receive anything anymore? I try and i try, but i get nothing but imposters, well bed buddy lately. I hope he's gone now. But why can't i receive elidibus's replies anymore like i used to?
Please imprint the answer in my soul and mind.
Sadly I don’t got an answer for this yet.
I must note that the dates given about our son can be just random dates. If however I go to John again I will ask when the soul is created and born. But for now I don’t got any connection problems so I wont go either. Though I must say I never received a different answer, I asked the dates multiple times and they stay the same thusfar.
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Some dm’s with zeke
I told zeke as soon as it happened about the son of elidibus and me but gained reply on the 6th
Zeke: Hello,. Congratulations on your second son, also. o/
The rest of the conversation happened days later but are not really relevant.
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Feb 8th
About a week ago. I noticed 5:55 on the clock in the car.
Its an angel number that stands for big change. " The 555 angel number meaning is that significant change is imminent. Change is a part of life, and when we see the number 555, something is telling you that a transition is in play in your life and all around you"
But i also came across this.
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Feb 9th
Saw 1111 on the clock when my astral son went back to his care taker.
Guided back with my spirit guide.
Meanings of 1111
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Feb 10th
So i say to my bird " are you made from aether?"
Bird: yes!
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Feb 11th
I quite literally read this with venat's voice.
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another final days dream. in combination with a war that broke lose. Yesterday aswell (aside from the war)
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Feb 13th
so i'm in EW with my alt. and when i saw venat on the boat again. i turned somehow slighty emotional ;;
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Feb 16th
i think i just found an answer on how the wol got to the past on the Real Etheirys. hydaelyn/venat did that.
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Feb 18th
I can atleast say, that after kicking out a male spirit guide who misused me (yes they can do that) i gained a female one in return that behaves very well. I appreciate it. I feel more save now. And she helps me to let me know elidibus arrived yesterday. As i gave her instructions on how to let me know.
She goes aside fully when eli is there. And when i think eli is there while he isn't i get a no answer from her.
She is very honest and i hope it will forever remain this way. And I gave her the name Linala, after that girl I met in a Phase dream back in June 2021. She likes it.
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Feb 20th
Well so i was right on Emet-selch length with only 1cm off
Credit for the one who made it: https://twitter.com/Cris_Aither/status/1495337942973562880?t=1PsY4ewLn62yNRowBeQLLw&s=19
I realized just now they are wearing shoes. If those are thin soles then 599 is still correct lol
And eventhough i never said it. But i already had the idea they would go to 610cm or even 615 but not taller then that. I never checked that hermes was taller than emet though
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Feb 21st
I asked these question to elidibus and my higher self later on.
Are the face glyphs magic limiters that prevent them from burning through their own soul: No
Can the ancients burn through their own souls when using too strong magic and thus destroy their souls: No
Are the face glyphs used to identify you: No
Are the unsundered saved from the sundering by going into the rift: Yes
Does it take sex to make a new soul? no
I never had sex with eli in March 2021 until 30 or 31 of March.
Is March 14th correct that his child was conceived? Yes
as I saw, (before I had that son dream) is it enough to make a new one? So that was 2 energy Orbs to fuse. Yes
So is this going to merge completely without or with?
Without our souls melting together.
But with energy orbs: yes
Can it also be done with penetration? Yes
So the kind of sex I have with eli. Yes
Just melting those energy orbs together is enough. The rest is additional. This is what it comes down to.
Our 2nd child on Nov 29 with having sex.
Yes, with sex for pleasure to the both of us.
Is eli coming by on the 28th of February ?
At 10:42 yes and until 13:21 (the time he left i asked when he was there)
When will he come again, even if it's just for a few hours.
March 3rd 10:45 a few hours until 13:29
March 10th 10:34 a few hours 13:35
March 13th 10:44, left at 14:00
I got like a huge agenda for up to halfway May when he comes over. Though I will keep it mostly at the month it goes with the chapter.
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Feb 22nd
Oh F'ing god. What i yelled in a dream
" I wanna be pregnant (pause, realized wtf i was saying) from elidibus only! "
Feel free to find this funny. Because its true lol. Hopefully i get the chance to experience fully a spiritual pregnancy when it allows.
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100% old soul here lol
also interesting about the eyes https://www.michaelteachings.com/soul_age_index.html
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I just did this guided meditation https://youtu.be/AGVKKmVCoC8
I recommend it. At some point i saw very close a face that looked like Titania. Very clear like dreaming. But it disappeared quickly after.
Later my body shocked itself quite literally, but went into trance back again soon after.
Maybe its because this meditation is so good or that's 22022022 today
Or both.
A bit more curly hair and the eye was more open aimed at me. That's what i saw
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Feb 25th
Got eli over the entire day. 2h left before he needs to go.
Gonna spend those few Hours well
So the last 1,5h of him being here, was occupied with sex,( and he didn't mind my ex joined with it for a short while) . And some emotional after talk. When i said something about that i didn't want to wait so long again for him to visit me, i didn't had the intention to cry at all. But i bursted out in tears. It were his tears. He feels so sorry that he is so busy and absolutely does want to be with me more. He feels so guilty when he can't. I offered him to take me with him when my body is asleep, if he finds time to do so and i would remember something of it like a dream. He liked the idea. But this isn't the first time i asked this. It happened only once in September when he brought me to his work or whatever he was doing.
I really hope he is gonna try it.
Also i asked if he is or his colleagues could trigger a dream for me that i will see my real face glyph in such a detail i will be able to draw it immediately when i wake up.
When he needed to leave he didn't wanted to go. And he cried, and could feel his pain on my chest. And i cried too as a result. It was very hard to say goodbye this time. I asked if he would remain connected with me when he leaves. He said he would. But i rather out of self protection wanted him to reconnect with me the next day instead so no other entity can misuse the connection i have with him in the rest of this Evening. He understood.
When he left after a goodbye kiss. I was somehow heartbroken missing him big time. The spirit guide i have around came to console me. I asked her is he left and he did.
But i bursted out in tears. I gained a spontaneous reaction from him telepathically. Which i adore absolutely. After a quick verification it was him indeed. I thanked him for connecting with me again from his workplace, and said again to reconnect tomorrow with me. I can only hope it works......
Sadly it seems It didn’t work otherwise I would have notified it.
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Feb 28th
I don't know how i came to the subject but i asked if Elidibus knew anything about the female ancient body.
Well he does because of the amount of sisters he had.
A period cycle was about 2 months.(57-60 days)
Bleeding 9 to 12 days .
And sex was legal/accepted at the age of 13.
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So i asked eli to let our son come over , and that happened. To communicate with our son i let him take place in the womb area. After greeting and giving my son some appraisal. I came to the idea, if its possible to recreate the sensation of giving birth to a soul. And so that happened. It really like a painless birth. It did felt like my womb was sorta opening but that was i guess the spiritual variant. And my son came out to attend the process for the experience. He felt like a ball or orb perhaps in shape. Afterwards i let my son to go back home to his nanny. According to eli he was happy to come over.
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Dreams of February
Feb 10th
the dream was originally quite long but contains too many personal things in the beginning. so i do the ending alone.
in this dream half way somewhere my character from ffxiv was also in the dream. she was somewhere but didn't see her until the end.
when I finally spoke to her I said to her "go quickly, there is something wrong with the Aether and Dynamis!, separate them if needed."
then it was necessary to break free from the dream. i.o.w becoming lucid. I tried to escape. I tried to get higher and higher but every time an obstacle came over my head.
determined I kept looking for a way out. eventually i found a passage that was covered with bushes i put it aside.
me: ah a residential area I can leave.
and sure enough I flew down the street and then up into the sky without worry.
I flew over gigantic houses and a gigantic climbing frame (ancient size). very nice uniek houses. my character had separated the planet with a tool to 2 parallel versions. 1 from aether (blue) and 1 from Dynamis (orange) to stop the chaos.
Me: I'm going to see how things are going.
I flew on to a device on the coast. my character was there. she activated it. you saw a hologram appear of what happened. the 2 parallels went together again.
me: oh no, breaking up gone fine but bring it back together again -
I flew down to the ground. the hologram had gone on the tiles and became real. it was a kind of decoration that glowed, but not positively.
me: - causing the final days!
the sky turned orange with fire.
me: this is gonna happen in the game isn’t it?! another FD?
I flew up
I tried to warn everyone from above but was constantly attacked by meteors.
me: warn everyone, the final days are back!
after yelling a few times and having trouble avoiding the stones I came up with something.
me: this has got to stop, zodiark?? but who should sacrifice himself then? me? no,.... Elidibus!!!!!!!
i screamed his name with everything i had in me and then woke up.
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Feb 11th
so I was cycling with my mother at night. we went to a random house for shelter. my sisters were there too. after being there for a while, it was announced that war had broken out in another country next to or close to ours (belgium/france/germany).
later the air alarm went off with us.
that gave the indication that it also affected us. my mother and one of my sisters stood on a high staircase to look through the skylight. that was in the hallway.
me: mom! The air raid siren is going off, we have to keep everything shut.
mom: no come and see!
I climb up to see what she sees.
I saw the final days again. meteors fell from the sky.
me: no, no no no, ahhhhh
I grabbed my head with my hands and was losing my shit.
i cried out from memories of the FD
then i woke up.
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Feb 15th
I don't remember how I got to this point in the dream. but it looked like a past life event when i was still with hades, only i was older here (or i was defector azem here). emet was only a shade of memory here, but I have the feeling that Hyth was the real one.
I first saw hyth in an open lawn.
me: Hyth!
he looked around. I wanted to kiss him to greet on the mouth but he didn’t wanted that.
hyth: must you always kiss when you see someone?
me: oh just one
hyth: no ty. hades will arrive shortly, you can kiss him instead.
me: fine
i believe he disappeared and later in that same field i yelled
me: HYTH!!!
and he appeared again.
me: there you are.
he appeared out of nothing his hair was lighter purple and more purple than pinkish. his eyes were also lighter.
I'm missing a piece here. i did some things with him and talk until emet arrived. but it was more of a shade.
emet kissed me and sat on top of me. I could feel the weight well. he was half invisible and really only saw a shadow.
later he got off me and was gone. he would wait for me in a restaurant. I walked to it with hyth. I was wearing a wide black dress and at the entrance I saw myself from above. only here it became dream nonsense emet was now someone else it seemed. had a chainsaw and cut my dress smaller on the sides. diagonally so from the front it ran into a point. it was literally a 3 angle from above.
here it ended.
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And that was the February chapter. I hope you liked it!