i gained many answers to my questions during a session with John. and surprisingly gained a student. someone who never delved into spiritual practices and sought help to communicate with his black hooded guide who appears in his dreams.
Aug 2nd
So 2 days ago I had weird light contractions in my womb when Eli was here on Sunday. And it was wayyy too soon for my period. They were definitely different from cramps, I recognized them when I went into labor with my son.
It just so happens he has a piece of him placed there since the 21st.
I was afraid it was getting out at first Because of the contractions.
We had some very emotional talks. Because I thought the one another, that wasn't happening. about that, a physical pregnancy isn't possible because of my copper coil. but if it would happen, I would lose it because of that. And I didn't want to lose his child ......so yeah, unnecessary dramatic thinking because physically pregnant with Eli solely is not possible.
When he left on Sunday, the contractions were gone. Slowly but steadily disappeared.
Today I was able to speak with him through Linala. The piece was for our second “astral” child. My piece will be there at the end of November and will get spiritually pregnant consciously this time.
This would confirm John's view that Quilitus was underway for a longer time. But didn't get pregnant until March 2021.
This would mean that, that “piece” was there since Nov or DEC 2020 already.
I wonder if John would be able to see this piece as I have an appointment on the 16th.
Also. When I think about this subject, I feel something resonating in my womb.
Ah yes, it could be a similar thing to implantation cramps. But not physically, I mean no actual egg being fertilized. His piece is waiting and I can feel it.
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Me: yesterday thinking: we need a new garbage can.
Today, my mom: you need a new garbage can. And bought one before she even arrived here.
(Without her saying it, we need a new one, she didn’t see ours either she just bought it when she was picked up by my ex)
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Aug 6th
Castle fest experiences
I couldn't get out of bed this morning. I was completely broken, of already 2 days Con behind me. Eventually, I asked Linala to ask Elidibus to come over to help me to get out of bed and fit enough to work. He came over, <3 he was spiritually massaging my body like physio and chiropractic together. I could feel him busy in several places on my body.
I was laying on my side. Had 1 hand free. Halfway, he grabbed my hand….I cried. And he grabbed my hand tighter. That was so beautiful.
I begged him to help me, to give me strength for the rest of the day to hold on. He did so.
After a few minutes, I was able to try to get up. But couldn't get further than lifting myself up on my left arm.
“It hurts my back” He pushed me down and worked on my upper body.
After a while, I was able to sit at least without too much pain on the Edge of the bed.
But the rest was still very stiff and my feet were killing me.
I asked him to work on my feet. And he did so. He massaged them and moved them to make them looser. I tried to stand, but when I did, my heels were still hurting bad. I could literally feel him making me sit down. it was like he controlled it, and he continued with my feet for quite some time. Sometimes the pain shot through my shoulders and neck. And then he continued on that place. It really felt like I was at the chiropractor lol but from the inside. He made me do movements to loosen my muscles. Also, when the pain returned in my back, he pushed my back upwards in a straight position like meditating sitting. And I usually hate to sit like that, so it was definitely him. After my back, back to my feet, my soles were still hurting badly while being loosely on the ground. He massaged and rubbed them. And eventually, I tried to stand up. Halfway lol couldn't get my back straight. He pushed my ass to the front and I stood straight up. And was able to stand without too much pain. After some more relaxing movements, I was able to get ready very slowly.
If I need to evaluate this event, I say he controlled my body sometimes and was sitting on my place in my body and was moving my body that way. And thus healing it from the inside out.
I slowly walked to the chair in front of the mirror dresser. (If that is what it's called) while brushing my hair, he continued with my feet. Then he helped me to get up to get dressed in my robes.
That went decently without too much help. While preparing myself further by styling my hair and makeup, he sometimes continued with my feet.
When I was done, I was able to stand up without the pressure on my feet. It was gone!
I asked him when he would leave. And it would when I would leave the apartment.
But a few moments before we actually left. I said to him, I was able to handle it myself now. And thanked him a lot. Said goodbye and asked if he could do this again tomorrow if needed. And he said yes. 1 last kiss, and he was off.
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Later that evening
Well, I definitely was able to hold on longer than the previous 2 days.
I didn't need to take off my sandals once today. My feet cured faster with only a few minutes of sitting. Normally an hour wasn't even enough.
Now that this con day is over, they start to hurt constantly again. T-T and I still need to walk to the car. …
Guess the spell wore off lol
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Aug 7th
Eli helped again this morning. And because he had planned to visit me anyway this morning, he stayed a while during the first 2 hours of the convention. He often flew off to scout the area when I was busy with customers, he liked it.
I just said goodbye and thanked him for giving me energy, hopefully until I am completely done and lay in my bed at home. Somehow I managed to stay up until 3:30am until I finally had the chance to crash into bed. That is not like me at all.
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Aug 9th (dm’s with TK)
TK shared a tweet with this text
“I met you when I was sinking in the void. You told me a tale of a world's end, of a universe sundered by immense calamity, but I was glad just to meet you. You came to me at my darkest hour, a streak of moonlight in the endless darkness.”
Me: Wait, search SCP foundation on Google. That person on Twitter is sharing quotes from that.
Very interesting “alien” stories.
TK: I know, but I shared the quote because it was very interesting to match stuff from any of the ancients
Me: It's this old already
Then TK started about she probably found another person with dreams of Emet. I won't share the details here, some are kinda private info.
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Strangely, remember I ever spoke about lahabrea being an old man in dreams sometimes. And then thought it wasn't the real one?
Though in the 5D, everyone portrays themselves as Young and Healthy. So if the ancients in dreams portray themselves as older, then it's their choice of that moment.
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Aug 10th
Eli's favorite sushi
He joined bodies with me when it arrived. I have a different favorite. It was clearly noticeable, it was his enjoyment I tasted and felt.
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Now insert white hair, and the shirt has blue instead of gray.
Quilitus:
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Aug 11th
Had a weird FFXIV dream in the morning.
I was in a raid as a bard, but quickly changed to my main job, dragoon. A bunch of other people were there too. A huge Kingdra (Pokémon) came from the air. When he landed, the borders of the area appeared and the battle started. Somehow I knew how to do every dragoon move including Nidhogg's eyes that gives stats Boosts. (Forgot the name). After the battle, the Dream changed into something else.
It gave me pandemonium raid vibes, as in an opponent monster of it. Seahorse reference made by lahabrea maybe? if this happens to come true, that it was a vision instead. Be it either 6.2 or 6.4 we shall see.
Vision or not, it was cool to fight as me instead of operating my character instead.
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Aug 12th
I made a tweet I will share here.
“Looking through some QRTs of the lahabrea content to see any possible things why the crystal is red. I think it was a crystal with his old memories in it that he wants to forget. And he activated the glyph and destroys it. Hopefully not his glyph with it…as that is what it looks like.”
Reading this back, the start was correct with his old memories in it, as his copy is in there now. just the latter wasn’t correct.
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Aug 14th
I am somehow underlying excited about going to John (that guy who can communicate with elidibus) I never had this when I made an appointment.
Maybe some confirmation things will be revealed? I don't know.
Or maybe it is because Eli is with me the entire day and goes with me to that session.
It's really weird to be excited about this. Like, my higher self knows, but I don't lol.
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Aug 15th
I got someone who seems genuine but is too inexperienced in spiritual practices. but he definitely wants to learn. he contacted me through the website. and is only playing FFXIV for a little more than a month now. the robed figure in his dreams he thought to be Azem (Wol) but that guy is still alive. so after some examinations, I said it isn't him. though, I left other possibilities. what the most typical was when he told me he had those faint echo-like headaches when he heard the name Azem and the words unsundered, sundered, Ascian, Convocation, and more in the game. I had those too regarding Venat being my mom or not. it's clear his soul resonates with those words. though since he is inexperienced in everything, I will help him. but I was wondering if he could talk to one of you through group dm here on Discord. so not this group. it doesn't need to be now necessarily, I will let him read my journal first.
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the conversation with the person above on my weblog chat:
Corvus: Hey, my name's Corvus and I think I need your help.
So I've been searching the internet frantically to find out if the Ascians were based on some sort of real-world mythology that might be real or something since I've been experiencing things that didn't make sense. I've always felt like something or someone was watching over me my entire life. For years, I had dreams of a hooded figure following me closely as I walked down the sidewalk. As a kid, I used to think it was something like an Organization XIII member from Kingdom Hearts, but that didn't seem quite right and felt silly.
Then I started FFXIV a little over a month ago and things got weird. Certain words would ring in my head as I read them, almost causing a headache. Ascian, Convocation, Sundered, Unsundered, and more. Further, a name stuck out to me: “Azem”. Ever since first hearing it, I've felt crazy. It just feels correct that the person who's been watching me, following me, guiding me, is Azem.
When looking for an answer about how this could be happening or if the Ascians were rooted in real mythology or something, I found your blog. It amazed me that not only was someone else out there that had similar experiences, but they had embraced reality fully and even made strong, consistent contact with the Convocation. So, can we talk? Will you help me? There's no thinkable way I can talk about this with basically anyone else, I'd get shoved into a psych ward asap. Even typing this scares me, but it feels correct. I want to believe I'm not losing my mind, that Azem is really there, and that maybe with help I can reach out to him.
So please, can we talk?
Sincerely,
Corvus
Me: Hello. Though it is 5:45 here in the morning, I just checked my phone what time it was and saw your contact form. It gives me heart that someone else believes that they can possibly exist. But how old are you? Maybe sounds like a weird question, but they weren't always here on Earth. Let alone Azem (male WoL). According to Elidibus, he was still alive when I asked about it 1,5y ago. His shards are on the reflections as well. So they can't be here. But.....I was Azem to the (so far we know in this case) the 3rd one. Have you considered being a shard of mine instead? And that shadow figure is trying to tell you something rather than be Azem himself? If anything feels correct or not, let me know.
Corvus: Hi there! First of all, thank you so much for replying so quickly! Also, I apologize if my message came at an inopportune time and disrupted you.
To answer your questions, for starters, I'm 29. And yeah, the being watching over me that I feel like is Azem has been there for a very long time, over 15 years actually. I've never made any kind of direct contact though, so I'm not even sure if I'm right about who it is, or where they even actually are while I feel their presence. It just feels that way. Ever since first seeing a mention of the name, it's just been swirling in my thoughts and dreams that Azem is there. Somehow. Just looming. Watching. Guiding.
Basically, though, I don't know what I'm doing, or how much of this works. I'm not sure how much of what I'm feeling and thinking is real. That's why I reached out. I'm confused and a little scared, but I want to understand.
Thank you again though for answering, and please, if you get this message while you're trying to rest or are otherwise busy, feel free to respond later. I'm grateful enough to be able to share this with someone regardless.
Sincerely,
Me: Thanks for your reply.
I do not doubt any of those sudden headaches when you think about the subject
I had the same on certain subjects. Including Venat being my mom. Which happened to be true. This means elidibus's mom as well......
Since I was his younger sister before….
Though I never heard of being followed by a shadow figure before with a hood on it. To be following someone. Or I just never met someone (aside from you) that was able to see them. Personally, I don't think it's the WoL Azem following you. But it triggers what you were instead. Though the problem is, I don't know what happened to my shards. So I can't confirm it either. you could be a friend or family member of Wol Azem. Or mine even in ancient times. Possibilities can be endless.
But there is 1 thing sure, that there is a connection to the ancients, that you are in fact from Etheirys.
What are your dreams about? Can you tell a few? Maybe I can fish something out of it. Though it will be assumptions, it's better than nothing.
Corvus: Thank you again! And yes, I'll describe my dreams as best I can remember.
One that recurs a lot with very little variation has me walking down a sidewalk. I can feel this being, maybe Azem, following me. I don't turn around to look, but I know they're there. As I'm walking, I suddenly turn down a different path than I would usually take, and it feels like it's because the being tells me to. I turn down that different path and wrap around a long way to get back to where I was going, and when I look back, the straight path I would have taken lays in ruin. The sidewalk is wrecked and cracked, the nearby structures are in flames, and none of the scenery was like that before I turned. So the implication I get is that this being guided me away from disaster. I've had a lot of dreams like this.
I've also had dreams where I'm just hanging out with my friends, and different people at different times throughout my life. Physical people, I saw day to day. In each dream, the hooded-robed figure would stand behind one friend and just shake his head “no”. Afterward, I would wake up in a shock. Every time I had that dream, something would cause that friend and me to have a falling out. Some stole from me, some gossiped behind my back, some just ghosted me entirely. Every person he shook his head “no” to ended up separated from me somehow. It's never failed.
Those were the most common dreams before I started FFXIV. Since playing the game though, I've had dreams of just being in a peaceful place alongside this hooded figure that might be Azem. We sat under a tree as I gazed at the sky and the flowers. We stood by a water fountain and watched the fish swim about. Peaceful dreams. In each case, I can't hear him, but I can feel what he's saying. Typically, I just feel like lesson-type messages, things like “slow down and pace yourself” or “don't forget the small beauties of life” or even “never stop trying, because if you can breathe, you can persevere”.
Amidst all these dreams though, I've never seen him. Just the robe and hood. Truth be told, he's never actually told me his name, it's just that when I saw the name “Azem”, it shook me to my core. The feeling was strong, but it was just that, a feeling. The sensations I got when hearing the concepts of Ascians, the Convocation, Sundered and Unsundered beings, and Azem himself just seemed like an awakening.
Anyway, hopefully, this helps, and I thank you in advance for reading this. I'm very new to this, especially compared to someone like yourself that has direct contact with several of them regularly. Any help or direction you could provide would be sincerely appreciated.
Thank you again,
Me: So you were only able to see him in your dreams? Guess my morning brain skipped a few words on your first message, lol. At least it doesn't sound to be a dark or evil entity thus far. What color are the robes?
And at what age did you get those dreams?
Strangely, you cannot hear him talk in a dream. Because in a dream you are pretty much in the astral realms and should be able to hear everyone in that dream, including him.
That sidewalk path. And laying in ruins and fire. It could mean a lot, but I wonder if it has to do with the final days. As that is what first occurred to me when reading that.
If you ever get aware enough in a dream to ask this entity who he is. Then do so.
Though, however, it can name anything that you feel pleased with, keep that in mind. So it doesn't mean it's the truth.
Though if it were an ascian it would have gained shape to 1 of them at the very least by playing the game. Maybe it's one of their students they apparently have, according to the man I regularly go to for clarifying things.
Or maybe some other spirit guide of yours who is in contact with them.
I can go into meditation practices later today. As I need to be rested enough to not miss any details.
But as I said before, that somewhat headache you get by thinking of the said subjects. It's something that triggers your soul. It doesn't come from that entity per se. It's like a remnant of the echo, I believe.
Corvus: Hey, my apologies for the late reply, but you gave me a lot to think about, plus I wanted to wait a while and let you rest. Thank you again for your willingness to help.
As for the figure, I've had these dreams for almost 15 years. The first ones came sometime around 2006. Their hooded robes have always been black, hence why when I was way younger I mistakenly thought they might be Organization XIII from Kingdom Hearts. I've never seen anything under the robes, not even a glimpse of their face.
If these meditation techniques you mentioned could help me gain some sort of grasp of understanding here, then I would welcome anything you suggest. Asking them who they are would make perfect sense, and I've wanted to know for so long, but I never really feel like I'm “in control” of myself in my dreams. Always, when I wake up, I think about what I might have done differently in that scenario. Also, thinking about it now, I don't think I talk much in my dreams. It feels like there's a conversation happening, but I can't really recall saying anything. I've never had lucid dreams, or otherwise dreams where I can tell consciously at that moment that I'm dreaming, so I've never really “explored” my dreams per se.
At any rate, please let me know if there are any other details I can provide that might help, as well as anything you recommend I do to gain further clarity. Again, thank you very much for helping me with this. I imagine there was a time when you felt as scared and alone as I do now, so I hope you know how much it means to me to find someone with similar experiences.
Sincerely,
Corvus
Me: As far as I could communicate with elidibus, he doesn't know if it's someone from the convocation. He knows too less about it. I will let him read tomorrow everything when he is over the entire day. It will be at the end of the day (GMT+2) since I go away for a treatment/session with that guy I go to. I will let you know his reaction as soon as he knows it.
The meditations will train your visualizations. Don't expect immediate results. It needs to be trained. As a result, you will get more lucid chances in dreams.
It could also happen that you will see this hooded figure while being half awake when you meditate. Use it to ask things.
Be it in trance or dreams, If possible, ask him if he knows who are the ones of the convocation of fourteen. If he does. Ask him to bring over Emet-Selch. If that can be done. Emet will tell you more, I am certain of it. He is more known to seek contact first, especially in dreams. Lahabrea sometimes. Elidibus is rare since he only goes for personal interest. And has more trouble getting into dreams, though depends on the person.
I will give the link to the guided meditations asap. I need to do my work now.
Where do you live? So I know what timezone you have.
Also, it isn't that strange to believe it was someone of kingdom hearts. I never played the game. And a few months ago I learned about that organization. I was like wtf even in that game they tell the story partially.
The FFXIV story is for 76% correct on what happened in the real Etheirys. The rest is fiction added by the developers. In some other well-known media, however, you can see little pieces of it. Even in my little pony (friendship is magic) a slot episode at the end of a season. (7 I believe)
Raven's past from teen titans has similarities too. But everything other than FFXIV has a lot of fiction added to it. Those creators are less influenced.
In 2006, you say. The unsundered, well lahabrea at least, was already here at that time. But I know the seeking contact with players of FFXIV didn’t happen until Shadowbringers. Though some magic-inclined people did have connections with lahabrea during ARR/HW already. But those are really Wiccans/pagan/ chaos magick practitioners.
I need to go now. I will tell you more soon.
Corvus: I understand. Please, respond at your leisure. I'm thankful for your time nonetheless.
As for the time zone, I live in American Central Time, or (GMT-5). For instance, at the time I'm typing this, it is 7:45 AM for me.
Being able to actively converse with the one watching over me would be a huge first step. I would love to ask for their names and certainly reach out to other Convocation members as well. The idea seems daunting, but hopefully one day I'll get there.
I would also like to know more about what concepts presented in the game hold true, and what concepts don't. The more I learn, the more likely I think reaching out might be successful.
To that end, please let me know what I can do to start building that connection. I don't have a lot of experience with spiritual attunement or meditation, so I'm unsure where to start.
Thank you again,
Me: I know the uncertainty of “don't know where to start or what to do” I have been there as well. though the experienced people whom I asked couldn't explain it to me properly. It was frustrating. I was like, “Why don't you remember that?!” I am not the most experienced person either, but I can help you to take the first steps on this.
reading on the subject helps a lot too. in this case, read my online journey first. along the way, you will find a lot of answers, the early connections outside the dream world. and some practices as well. Even on what actually happened in that world and what happened differently and what is probably fiction.
when I am done with my work, I will take time to list the guided meditations. and other advice. and probably more info.
Corvus: I'll read through the blog journey entries from the start. That's as good a place to begin as any.
If there's anyone else I should talk to as well, please let me know. It certainly seems like you have a group of people assembled together who all share these experiences and/or connections, and I would hate to just throw a million questions at you and overwhelm or bother you.
Me: well, I had a lot of people, kind of. unfortunately, due to some call out doc from people who hate me, the entire group disbanded because they were feeling unsafe because there were spies in it who didn't believe anything and were just there to find anything they spill out to talk shit about me. I have been through a hellhole, which will also be in the journal starting in chapter 10. it was only for 4 or max 5 months ago that the witch hunt settled down, finally… In October last year, an ex-member of the group started a new one. we are only with 4 of us left. though, the others have either relationship issues (Jezzah) or health issues (Zio), or other things that make them less available (TK). those names you will come across in the journal later on.
so for now I will be helping you the best I can. When the others are in a better mood or health, I will ask them if they want to help you. probably through a group dm on Discord.
the first meditation is to relax fully. I use this one: https://youtu.be/Uhb4RfUvHTE
after that, I usually listen to this one: https://youtu.be/Rqe78QSx0tw These are 4 sessions one after another. I usually continue until I am done or fall asleep, lol.
both YTérs have very good videos about this subject. the one from the second link (Michel Sealey) has a lot of variety in guided meditations. if one doesn't seem to work for you, just try another.
also this YouTuber https://youtu.be/PvHk6fMriPE
might have some good ones too. his voice sounds a bit like Emet-selch, lol.
he also has some explanations if you can't visualize or have trouble with it https://youtu.be/DuzM2V3DY7k with a very simple practice.
the books I read also helped with the early awakenings and wtf moments. books from Dolores Cannon's convoluted universe 1 through 5, are very big pill books. Just read the chapters at first where the title speaks to you, that's what I did. later, you can choose to read the rest... And a book I read last year called “The Phase” that book might be an excellent practice for you to get into lucid dreaming. my soul was resonating so hard that it was already trying the first night, but couldn't yet. I noticed my soul tried to get out of my body but was stuck while being clearly awake! follow the steps in that book and after some practice, you will be amazed. https://www.bookdepository.com/Phase-Michael-Raduga/9781500578039
Dolores Cannon:
she has more books with very interesting subjects discovered through past-life regressions from her clients.
and funny enough, in some lines she says that she wants to discover the most hidden secrets out there. made me say Y'shtola is Etheirys's Dolores cannon lol since 6.1 well actually since 5.2 already but it was so obvious in 6.1 xD.
I hope you can get forth with this for a while. if you got any questions, feel free to ask.
oh, and these videos when you finally are getting along with it. and want to try on your own without guidance.
I hope I didn't overwhelm you lol
Corvus: No, no, you're fine! Thank you! I have a lot to work with, astronomically more than I had less than a full day ago. As you suggest, I'm going to keep reading, studying videos, and trying to give rise to answers on my own. To that end, I will probably only bother you in the super near future if I run into a wall or something really doesn't make sense. I promise you haven't driven me away or anything though! Thank you so much for all your help!
Sincerely, Corvus
Me: If you get stuck, feel free to reach out.
Also, if you are getting progress, then please share your experiences!
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Aug 16th
So I asked elidibus what would happen if I come back to Etheirys and a roaming shard that wasn't able to rejoin during the rejoinings. Finds me, could it rejoin with me?.
He told me a lot. But in theory, he told since my broken soul got repaired on earth the shard cannot rejoin anymore.
The shards have become permanent individuals.
Though if I would come across someone on earth who is an actual shard I would have the effect that I would know that person for ages.
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Session at John
So through only half of the month, I already had a couple of verification questions which I was able to ask all for a change.
Namely, that sensation I had when I was thinking of our second child (from elidibus). And possibly sort of pre-pregnancy (lols)
If he was really there during castle fest in the morning to help me to get up.
A few days before this appointment when I asked Linala to ask if elidibus was able to come over for some quick things.
Why he was not in my dreams for the past months. I only saw a glimpse of him in July. And between April and that glimpse, nothing at all.
Question about a dream in 2021 I never typed out for the public. In short, I died at age 44 in the dream. And the question of whether that was a future sight or a past life.
The candle flames of the tealight were pointing to the big candle on Quilitus’s Bday.
And some other things.
Here we go:
I planned this appointment when Elidibus would be with me the entire day. So during the car ride toward John, I asked if Elidibus could bring Quilitus with him as well. He needed to ask (the caretakers of Quilitus and Quilitus himself). But received a yes.
When we were there and explaining I have trouble with meditating, my body shooks me out of it as soon as I got into a trance. (During these treatments with John, Elidibus is always there, so I will ask the questions during the treatment). And ofcourse I said I have a couple of questions for Elidibus and named a few.
So when the session started, John started my head by holding it with his hands. Since there is where the problem lies. And kept working on the energies etc. so I was able to relax better and deeper throughout the session. The exact order of events/visions/questions I don’t remember, but I will try.
Firstly, John said something if elidibus was a king or leader of an army of knights.
Me: Well, I only know him as the leader of the Convocation of fourteen. So it’s unknown to me.
(I will get back to this since I gained an answer later when I got home together with other things)
John: yeah, this is what I see.
A couple of minutes later
John: the reason he wasn’t in your dreams for so long, was because he was in higher dimensions at work.
Me: ah, so he was not able to come over.
John: yes, he was busy over there and dreams are in a lower dimension from where he was, so he couldn’t reach you.
Me: awww I wanted to see him so badly.
John: the wanting, you need to let go. Or else it won't happen. Our minds will stagnate on that thought, and then the energy won’t flow to make it happen. If you let it go, the energy will flow and then it will happen.
Me: ah, I thought so, that it worked that way. Though I was not really busy with it all the time, lately I haven’t thought about it at all. But I guess he was too busy and too far away, and that was the reason he didn’t come.
(Remember in way older chapters that if I kept asking when he came into my dreams again the entire month, he just didn’t come? I don’t believe I wrote that out completely, but this was definitely the case. So That was not his doing that he did not come. That was mine, my mind blocked it. Soon enough I learned that wanting it too badly resulted in getting nothing at all, especially during that time he needed to make an apology. So I let it go and eventually didn’t ask anymore, or rarely. And I guess I received that apology in different ways, like that wedding ring and happened to be pregnant with his child <3., It's very nice to hear confirmation about the things I discovered myself)
John: ah, I see, yes, he was too far away from you.
Me: what about that, he was there during Castle Fest on August 7th and 8th.
John: what is that?
Me: a Convention like Elfia. (John knows what Elfia is) but bigger. I couldn’t get out of bed. Everything hurt bad, I was completely broken. I asked My Spirit guide, who I called Linala, to get Elidibus for me if possible to help to get up. Was that really him?
John: yes, he helped by putting his energy through your back.
Me: oh? I was so broken I couldn’t get out of bed, especially since my feet hurt horribly.
John: he directed his energy through your back, and from there it went towards your arms and legs and your feet.
Me: oh, interesting, it surely helped. Though, I have another question.
John hummed as in pray tell.
Me: the last 3 days he was able to come over quickly for a short time when I asked Linala to get him for things, and he surprisingly arrived. While normally he can’t. and I will receive a no from her that he can’t come. But he was just there when I asked. Was that really him?
John: yes, he was near you.
Me: in a dimension sense, you mean?
John: yes, he was in a dimension near you and was able to come over more easily. This was also the case on the 8th
Me: 8th? Oh, right, Castle Fest.
John: yes
(stupidly enough, I forgot to ask if Eli liked Castle Fest, that’s the only question I forgot, but actually, I already have my answer ;P )
Me: oh 1 other thing, Is Quilitus here? Can he be brought here?
John needed to wait a bit before he saw something.
John: yes, but he is here with 2 female midwives or kinds of caretakers. That takes care of him.
Me: oh nice. It makes sense he has caretakers since he is literally a baby soul.
(I just got confirmation about this midwives/caretakers thing for newborn baby souls. I know I already had this from Quora and documented this in chapter 23, but hearing this again without questioning gives me confirmation enough that it is true)
John: yes indeed.
After some minutes of meditation humming/treatment, he saw something interesting.
John: I see him making a blood covenant with you
Me: what is that?
John: cutting an incision on the wrists, and placing them upon each other, as a very deep oath.
(because Elidibus didn’t have a body for ages, I wonder if that happened in ancient times)
Me: was this during the time he still had a body over 12000 years ago?
John: that could be possible.
Me: my sister channeled Elidibus once. And he said he was my personal protector.
John: the energy shoots up really fast. That means it's true. and that is indeed what happened at that time.
Me: that’s nice to know
John: what were your further questions?
Me: well um (head turns red with embarrassment) I had this sensation recently and Elidibus and I have a second child planned at the end of the year to get pregnant, but I was wondering if something could be seen already. Because with Quilitus you were able to see he was underway before I actually got pregnant. So I wonder if you can see something now too.
John: how long was your gestation period last time?
Me: 4,5 months, but you said elidibus had an energy orb of him ready before that last time and later joined with mine, and then I actually got pregnant…
John: yes, his energy piece, for now, is waiting. And is swirling inside and around you.
Me: so mine will come later? And then merge with his?
John: yes, and when that happens, you get shivers all over your body. that I had to say that from him.
Me: that piece of him came that on July 21st?
John: I do see that you two were together on that day. Very deep, sunk away into the earth.
(well deep sunk away in bed lol “grin” if you know what I mean ;) )
Then John dwelled off a bit and continued the treatment. I don’t mind, I don’t get an actual answer if Eli’s piece was “planted” on the 21st. I know it's there and that my assumptions were correct and Eli didn’t answer in my favor earlier on the 1st of August.
After some minutes
John: does he have a sword?
Me: well, does have a sword and shield in the game at a certain point, but that’s all I know of.
John: I see it has 7 rubies and 7 amethyst stones on the other side of the sword.
Me: interesting! It doesn’t sound like the sword in the game, but hey, maybe that was the “fantasy part” in the game of how the sword looks like.
John: I also see a yellow lining in his white robes. You know, that warm yellow color.
Me: yellow? I have never seen him with that. All I know is that his robes are white.
John: this is what I see,
After a questioning “hum” from him, he continued the treatment.
During those pauses of the questions I often felt elidibus with me, upon me as well. Some kisses in-between and asked him quickly confirm things as far as I could.
Me: can I ask something?
John: yes.
Me: when elidibus and I were celebrating Quilitus’s Soul Bday, I burned candles. 1 big candle and 14 around it. 14 stood for the convocation of Fourteen, and all the flames of the tea lights were burning obliquely towards the candle in the middle.
John: were those 14 in a circle?
Me: that was the intention, but it was on a windowsill and was too small for that. so I put them in an oval.
John: and where did the big candle in the middle stand for?
Me: for Quilitus.
John: the flames marked his presence, that he was there with you.
Me: oh, that’s nice to hear.
John: how often do you see him?
Me: Quilitus?
John: yes
Me: the only time I have actually seen him was when I first met him. Further, I never saw him again in my dreams.
John: it seems he is with you every….mont….moon. I wanted to say "month", but I got correct to "moon".
Me: moon? Does that mean a full moon? It usually does.
John: new, ……during a new moon. Every new moon, he seems to be with you. Then the energy fields are the thinnest and you will be better accessible.
Me: oh well, I have never seen or noticed him after the very first time. I will try to pay attention then I guess?
(this was indeed very odd, aside from the beginning when I invited Quilitus to come over, and he actually came, I never felt him or seen him in dreams. More on this after the session)
Forgot what he said after that, but I started another question
Me: the last dream I had from Elidibus was last month, and he was standing there and chuckling about something, quickly after I saw him standing with a staff in his left hand. What does his staff really look like? From what I had seen, he had a golden ball on top. And then straight downward and at the end also gold, but I don’t remember it was flat or pointy at the bottom.
What John described next I just can't translate to English properly, something with a golden pyramid-like thing on the bottom and 13 upheavals of something around the base if I understood correctly. And some golden thread leading from top to bottom or something. Very strange.
(Though while typing this I realized it could have been a relic-like weapon. Maybe John saw the activated version and saw the glow with these shapes and everything extra, of what I didn’t see in that dream. If I bother enough, I will ask Eli someday, maybe we will just see it in the game instead. That would be better haha)
After that part
John: about the yellowness of his robes. That was actually gold.
Me: well, gold sounds more accurate, considering he is wearing golden armor on his robes in the game. On the edges of where the fabric ends, in a somewhat gothic style. Though I never saw the inside of his robes, it could be plausible.
John: does he have something to do with the sun per any chance?
Me: no, he rather stands for the moon.
John: but the moon is the reflector of the sun.
Me: that’s true
He continued the treatment
After some minutes
John: do you have more questions?
Me: yes, I do have a few left let me think for a moment……….ah yes, I had a dream back in 2021 that I died at the age of 44. (I said the whole dream, but it's not important to type it down here). Is this a future vision that I will actually die at that age? I mean, the setting was way too modern to be in the past.
John: no, it won't happen in this life. Dreams can have different time zones. Something that happened in the past might play in modern settings.
Me: ok, I was mainly asking this because I am now 34. In 10 years I will be 44 and FFXIV has in terms of story content 10 more years to go. For so far as we know, unless SE gives more, but for now it 10y.
John: yes I understand but no it was a past life event.
Me: ok Ty.
John, do you have another question left?
Me: yes, about 2 months ago I asked Elidibus when he would be with me multiple days in a row. And I said, “Remember when John said you'd be with me for several days? and Elidibus was like ....... oh… yeah”
John laughed.
Me: and it came down to Christmas on December 24, 25, and 26th, is this correct?
John: yes correct
Small pause
John: November will be an important month for you.
Me: yes, that's right, on Nov 4th is our Bonding Day (anniversary). and Nov 29th we planned to start the pregnancy
John: ah interesting.
The session was about to end, but John told me 1 more minor thing.
John: can you feel him too? He namely stands with me.
Me: yes he is here all the time, I planned this session for today because he would be with me the entire day.
John: this is correct.
Me: cool, thought it would be nice to do such a thing while he is here.
John: you thought well.
He removed his hands from my head. The session itself ended.
When I sat up, I felt content and felt that Elidibus gave me a hug. I told John.
John: he laid next to you a lot.
Me: yes, and also upon me.
John: how do you feel?
Me: contented. Satisfied that I got answers to so many questions.
John: you feel inner happiness.
Me: yes
John: good.
He gave me another cup of water to drink and after some minor talk, we went downstairs where my ex was waiting.
So yeah, elidibus was with me for the rest of the day.
And when we were done with all the main things we needed to do that day, I left Eli to read some text Corvus sent to me through my weblog, and he said he will have an answer on the 22nd.
This is what I sent to Corvus: “Ok, I let elidibus read the one another. And he says it's a personal guide and not a direct convocation member. That he was certain of.
Though there is a big possibility, this guide is a student of one of the convocation members.
I asked him to go ask around his colleagues to check if there are any students of them guiding you. He said he will have an answer on August 22nd.
I hope this helps a bit.
Have you tried meditation by now? Or not? I hope I didn't discourage you because it's not Azem?”
(he answered the next day)
Later I asked about the details of the unknown and odd things of the session to Elidibus.
That Quilitus would be with me during the new moon was incorrect. I will be better accessible for Elidibus, but Quilitus is not near me without me knowing he is too young.
That vision of elidibus being a leader or king with an army of knights, and that one with the gemstone sword sorta says where hostbody-lives as I call them. He immediately knew what I meant with that “hostbody-lives” so that's alright.
Those gold lining in the robes I actually asked the next day, but I will add it now. It happened to be the reflection of the sunlight. Gained a big yes to that.
The meditation I always do before bedtime. it was better than usual. Elidibus is ofcourse helping, but I could clearly notice that the treatment helped!
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Aug 17th
Today I received a commission back
Quilitus
he does have a bit smaller face. but hey, I didn't want to be nitpicky when she already colored it.
Elidibus has approved it too. not perfect, as the real Quilitus is always better. but he and I are both satisfied.
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Corvus replied on my weblog
Corvus: No, no, you're fine! It just confuses me, is all. Now I have to figure out why that name means so much to me, as well as figure out who this person is watching over me.
As for meditation, though, I haven't practically started yet. I've just been reading and researching in my spare time. The last couple of days have been a tad busy, and they're only going to get busier in the coming weeks, but I promise, even if I don't respond right away, I'm still trying my best to figure all this out. I can't get discouraged right after meeting someone that shares these experiences, especially when I can't really share them with anyone else safely.
I'm sorry I don't have much progress to report right away, but I figured this was always going to take a while, ya? Rest assured I'm still keeping hard at work seeing what I can discover with all the tools you've shown me.
Warm regards,
Me: Ok, good to hear! :D.
I understand the confusion now, yes.
The name Azem triggers your soul. Could mean many things. 1 thing is sure you are from Etheirys or else it wouldn't do so much to you. Perhaps you were even a travel companion with Azem in ancient times. Who knows? But that's it, something you can try to discover yourself. And trying to find some answers or learn techniques with reading is a good thing.
Let me know when you have any progress to share.
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Aug 18th
was cleaning my coasters and 2 were left to do, Fandaniel and Nabriales. Did a little game with my spirit guide.
I let her check which one was Nabriales.
She said "left" by pulling me downwards. She was right
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Aug 19th
I made a new channel in Discord for a particular subject. “Spiritual pregnancy”
I will dump here all experiences I have regarding this here from now on.
this energy bulb of elidibus is resonating as soon as I think of it or the upcoming pregnancy. but this morning it was so intense that it felt like it wanted to get out. but according to my spirit guide, it wasn't the case (luckily). I made movements with my body as if I had severe cramps, but without pain. It felt like my womb was expanding or opening or something. it didn't stop. all energy was focused on that place. I could feel it so well. I asked Linala to get Elidibus for me, that I really needed him because I didn't know what was going on. he came over. and soul merged with me intensely. the sensation lessened but was still very present and didn't stop. I asked if this sensation was a good thing, and it was. somehow out of the blue, I came with up to have sex with him so that it might lessen the sensation. he agreed (or perhaps it was his idea, to begin with, lol). during it, the sensation gradually diminished. he had some very intense and long cumming to do. After when we were done, it was still there but not so intense that it would hinder my daily life. I asked some other questions. but it's nothing really new, like that I am not really pregnant yet and that my “orb” is underway or being prepared sort of. later said goodbye, he didn't want to go, but he had to. because of work. 1 more final deep hug and kisses and he left.
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Lately, I have been seeing 1111 and 2222 angel numbers constantly
2 days in a row.
During meditation, a saw a glimpse of my glyph that evening. I drew it on paper first. And worked it out on Aug 22nd
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Aug 20th
Also, TK went on silent mode for a while until close to patch drop i.o.w today
Me: ahhhhhhhh sorry wanted to leave you alone for the rest of the days until the patch launch but this happened! I won a medium house! In Ishgard!
TK: Oh shit- I guess Lahabrea helped, after all, was hoping one would turn up again
Me: :O did he say anything lately, then?
TK: Just that he was still trying to help you with that (I didn't know you bid on another one) and that I need to get ready for 6.2 lol
Me: XD He told you to get ready for 6.2 when? because I asked Eli to ask lahabrea some things
TK: Earlier this week. I've been in break mode from Xiv because I wanted to catch up on other stuff.
Me: LOL I asked earlier this week (iirc the previous weekend) to elidibus to talk to Lahabrea to have you reply at least on something I said (not that hacked dream). perhaps they worked together for the house, lol XD, yes, wait, I asked that again last Tuesday. Eli was the whole day with me that day. and today I asked also 1 more final time xD
sorry lol that I asked that. but I guess we got our things that match up now, I guess XD
since lahabrea told you to get ready for 6.2 lol guess that was his idea to motivate you XD
ahhhh, you don't hate me now for it, I hope? I meant it well.
TK: Hmm? No, I don't why would I?
Me: ok. :)
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Aug 22nd
I knew I had to do this 1 day before the patch drop (6.2)
my glyph. I asked elidibus for more details when I saw for a millisecond some glyph with these exact wings a few days ago. I have been busy with elidibus for every detail I could come up with for like an hour this morning. made MS Paint. via a scanned drawing. (second pic)
I shared the progress of making this glyph with TK
Me: working on something. I asked Eli what my glyph looks like. I saw a bit in a meditation vision on the 19th, but it was very quickly gone. I asked for all the details I could come up with from Eli.
Me: thought you might like to see what I am making.
TK: I do
Me: :D
Sometime later
Me: getting somewhere (in MS Paint)
Me: Finished
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Weblog chat
Me: hello, according to Elidibus, it's a student of Emet-Selch. though sometimes he answers in my favor. if you ever figured out if It's true or not. let me know!
Corvus: Hello! Ok first of all your timing is impeccable. I have things to share with you, but I just started back at uni today, and received your email literally as I was walking out of my last class for today, ergo as I was about to send one to you!
So I'm making progress. I've reached out to him in my dreams and stopped him from whispering vague nothing's and vanishing. I finally got a name: Aeneas. And yes, he's told me the same thing, that he reports to Emet-Selch. I haven't seen Aeneas's face yet, but I've heard his voice and seen his black mask. I had him take me before Emet-Selch, but Emet-Selch refused to discuss anything further with me until I'd learned on my own why the name Azem resonates so strongly with me. I still don't have an answer to that, but I at least know it's not Aeneas, it's me.
As I mentioned, I've started back in classes as of today, so I'm all of a sudden a lot more busy and have less time to dedicate to meditation and research, so further progress might be slower. I'm still proud of how far I've already come, though, and I owe a lot of that to you.
Thank you again,
Me: Omg, that's incredibly good News!
Do you mind if I put this into the August chapter? If there are things that you don't want to have in it, then please say so, like stuff that is too personal, for example. Also, I will need a nickname/alias.
And yes, Emet-Selch can be very strict. And no worries about being busy. What I always do is, just before bedtime, meditate. This way, in case of busy days, I can still do it. I hope you find your way to keep at it despite your busyness.
If you have any updates, then please share!
Corvus: Please, feel free to mention this in the August chapter! As for an alias, I think it would be safe to use the name “Corvus”. That's a name I haven't used around anyone I've ever known online, so it wouldn't draw any attention. And yeah, I'll definitely have a slot in my daily agenda for meditation, and putting that slot at bedtime isn't a bad idea at all. Rest assured, I'm staying diligent and will keep you posted as I make more progress!
Warm regards,
We had some contact about the glyph that I made, and he said it was looking familiar, but he had the idea it was missing something under the wings. And he wasn't the only one who said something was missing. My ex said the same, but he implied on top of it. Both were right.
So I later improved it by questioning my spirit guide and elidibus it was true there were some things missing, and I added them.
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Aug 23rd
I continued the details of my glyph today before I even started the patch.
Fun fact, when I “asked” about the details yesterday, I didn't look at my old one. And half forgot what it looked like in detail. Funny enough, the 6 stripes are still there. That thing in the middle is somewhat different. See pic 2. And 3 other pieces under the wings.
Now I need to verify some way the things I need to add. And funny enough, those 4 feather points in the old one. Were apparently the flight feathers of the new improved one.
Ok, check my old sigil in pic 1, 3 points under the wings. I guess that was more accurate than I thought it would be.
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Dm’s with TK
TK: Patch up early, live now
Me: Yeah, I didn't sleep well. I have unlocked the first (fifth) raid. Now.
Now I need to do life stuff.
Me:
TK: msq has some theories in my head regarding possibly someone related to Pashtarot
but you need to play msq :p
me: Ok! Make sure to tell them when I finished it! shit panda 585 ilvl. me 580. new gear is too expansive
where does the msq start?
TK: Radz
The dungeon is 595 gear.
You need to be 585 for trial
(I worked to almost the end of the msq of 6.2)
Me: Can you spoil me 1 thing.
Do we get to see Themis as elidibus, with his mask, or pronounced by lahabrea?
Also, I almost finished msq. I need to lvl up in ilvl before killing Barbariccia.
But so far I don't see any resemblance to Pashtarot though.
TK: no idea, didn't do Pandaemonium yet
Me: Oh ok xD, But do I need to finish the entire storyline for your theory? Or can you tell now?
TK: Just that Zero got named Zero, the one boss in IV is named Zeromus, Zeromus in XII is related to Pashtarot, Pashtarot being one of the seats. somehow, maybe she is related to Pashtarot in some way. that was it, lol
Me: Ohhhhhhh interesting
13th shard of Pashtarot lol
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Aug 24th
Me: Ok, I spoiled myself on YouTube. I am satisfied, lol
TK: sorry I was a bit late with doing it, one of my friends had a huge fit for some reason.
(sometime later)
Me: You are still on? I guess you watched the first cutscene after that when lahabrea enters.
TK: I did the first fight and every cutscene up till the second fight
I called it x3
me: Lahabrea refuses to call elidibus's name xD
That's what I remember you said, lol
TK: yep XD
Me: That thought was keeping me awake, I just had to tell you xD
Or talk about it.
Also, the fact that Themis can just walk around without a red mask to conceal his identity. Just means he recently joined. Not everyone knows he is. I guess.
But then I wonder why he didn't wear black though to be more obvious undercover.
TK: maybe he didn't want to, lol
Me: have you seen this? That looks like an ancient.
TK: A friend asked if that was Unukalhai
Me: that ancient? Unukalhai gained the ancient robes from elidibus, before that Unukalhai was wearing normal battle gear.
I am in the queue for the 3rd panda raid btw
Omg, finish Panda, please. I got some much to discuss.
I have done it myself now. and a big wtf moment when you report your things.
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Aug 25th
some details were absent. I just added them. my face glyph is complete now as far as I know.
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Aug 27th
Ok so. Because of my approaching spiritual pregnancy, I got curious about how long an ancient was pregnant. So I asked elidibus who he apparently knew lol. And I combined this with questions about Venat and the side story that just got released.
So Venat started to journey on her 17th. She joined convocation at 21.
Elidibus was born when she was 35. But a few months later (4) she became 36.
Without elidibus age in mind, when he joined I asked how old Venat was during the pandemonium/Wol to the past, she was 54. But recently! (3 months after her bday).
This would make elidibus about 18,5 at that time. And indeed joined recently.
The age she retired from the convocation isn't very clear for elidibus. But after a rough calculation, the pregnancy is 19 months for an ancient and Etheirys had 13 months in a year. I came down to 8 years earlier when she got pregnant with her first child. (Eli had 3 older sisters)
Meaning she would be 27. Eli did confirm the siblings were around 2 years apart in age. And there is a possibility that the first child was taken care of by a nanny. But he doesn't recall. (Memory issues)
Sadly, Eli doesn't know anymore if she was already retired or not at that point the firstborn.
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Now next up is originally on Sept 5th, I didn’t see the “glyph” summoning circle of Pandaemonium up close until then. But to keep it relevant I will show it now since I improved my glyph right before the patch.
I see a resemblance here! Together with the newest one, I finished before 6.2
I found the head, but it's facing forward instead. But the same feathers on the head are there
I asked several people if they saw the same, even people who don’t play the game at all. And they all answered “yes” shortly said.
More of the conversations regarding this will be in the September chapter.
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Dreams of August
Aug 13th
after a long dream about something else. I was spontaneous on the 13th shard.
but without it being consumed in darkness. that Reaper lady (later known as Zero) introduced me to the landscape.
me: oh wow, look how modern it is.
I saw tall buildings and a Grand Canyon-like something, but smaller, and a lot of cars.
me: I wonder what their reaction would be when they get here (the scions).
the environment changed to other random things you see on Earth as well.
me: also, the gravity is a lot heavier.
Zero: yes it is.
then it went elsewhere. I ended up somewhere in a schoolyard after a chase.
me: get elidibus to get me out of here.
but then I saw a dream illusion of Themis with an Elidibus mask, but not older than a 12-year-old.
me: no, that's too young Themis. and probably not even the real one.
then I saw an elderly man walking. which resembled lahabrea from the Pandaemonium series (thus the trailer version).
I called him.
me: Lahabrea!
he looked back
Me: ah, you are responding to your name. I assume it is him then.
I went to him, and I don't understand why I couldn't have asked for something better. >.<
he sat down, but had 1 knee on the floor and 1 up. and a little boy crawled on one of his legs and sat on it. I thought maybe it was Eric at first. but the boy was too young for that and too dark-skinned, even because Lahabrea was just white.
(ok, the real one is tanned, but the boy was even too dark for Èric)
me: can I ask something?
L: Sure, go ahead.
me: could you give some spoilers?
L: (had to think for a while) Is it that time yet?
me: on the 23rd
I rubbed my hands to stay in the dream.
Laha looked at me questioningly at what I was doing.
me: I do that to stay in the dream longer.
L: I think you're going home in a minute.
and then I half woke up and dreamed again. I was at the same location, but Lahabrea was gone. instead, I was suddenly in a classroom of what should be of ancients. only the children were not wearing robes. 2 children had made some sort of cookies in combination with creation magicks. there was chocolate filling in the form of Oreo cream in between.
me: can I taste?
boy: yes, only they failed.
me: that will be fine.
I grabbed 1, but it slid apart in my hand.
boy: that's why they failed.
me: doesn't matter (put it in my mouth) it's still good.
I went on to see what it looked like (the classroom). and tried to draw it so that I could remember it.
((unfortunately I can't draw it)
I saw rows of tables and chairs and on the left a sign with Ancient ABC and the month “August”
I tried to draw that but had trouble with the letters. after some drawing attempts, I woke up.
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August 26th
this is a dream about lahabrea, but a white skin and blond hair version.
I don't remember exactly how it started, but I vaguely remember that I was growing magic mushrooms and getting high from it (while I've never been) but it wasn't a trippy experience.
(it is clear, just like the past-life regression that my mind is preparing me psychologically because I really want to try it).
sometime later in another area (wasn't high anymore) lahabrea was in it. only I wasn't lucid enough to get it completely. (facepalm)
L: what are you doing now?
me: see which ones are ripe/need to pick
and I pasted them on paper XD
directly after, it was about a group of children with a special condition. and I and a few others went looking for suitable escorts. lahabrea went looking too (lol). later, someone said they had found a suitable person and asked if I was sure I agreed, and she mentioned one thing or another.
me: ok, that sounds good.
then Lahabrea called me.
L: I found someone even better, but you have to come here.
me: ok, I'm coming.
only the ride was sketchy. it was winter, and I was on a mount as I moved I had to collect balls that floated above the snow (items)
it was also dark and became almost pitch black at the end. but I made it, got off, and it was light again.
there was a staircase up like I was in a building, but outside? then suddenly I was above and at lahabrea.
he mentioned what value this person was good for.
Me: That sounds a lot better, yes.
L: Only we still have to get her there.
me: yeah, that won't be easy. we're just going to try.
I think I was sitting next to him in the car. I don't know where that girl was, and I didn't even think about it. cars in front of us went up in the air at a certain spot on the road.
me: oh, there they go up
L: yes, I see.
we drove to that air stream because it was on our route. only it was cold, but it didn't bother me that much.
the bonnet almost flew open in the fierce wind.
me: oh no, soon it will really fly open, and then you won't see anything anymore.
L: don't worry
after a few more meters on a bumpy airway, we were back at the beginning (of the dream). lahabrea stayed in the car. I don't know where that girl had gone, completely off-topic.
I went to someone, but I don't remember what I said.
I shouted from a distance to Lahabrea.
me: lahabrea, come out.
L: okay, I'm coming.
he got out and walked towards me.
L: I think I'm getting high or something.
I thought, *why are you taking mushrooms?* (but that wasn’t the case)
L: I don't feel very well. I think I'm getting sick.
me: come here.
I gave him a hug.
my head reached somewhere near his abdomen and was gigantic, and long. I thought * he is so tall, then Igeyorhm will also be about that long*
me: you're cold, can I feel a little higher?
he lifted me up a little.
my head was now on his chest.
me: yes, you feel cold, you caught a cold. (so he wasn't high but got a fever).
I gave him a big hug to warm him up. at that moment, I was actually floating. so he didn't hold me anymore.
he was silent from the hug. but then he hugged back, and my warmth went to him.
then I woke up.
he was wearing his turtleneck shirt with a thin black long-sleeved jacket over it and jeans.
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