Jan 5th
Bestie shared a dream,
his spirit guide Alexandra explained to him this within the dream
Bestie: In a world where conflict continues, but actually not.
All conflict of violence is solved thanks to projectors and avatars.
Since the human race needs conflict to continue to exist, but the last conflict almost wiped us out, we made a projection world.
Intertwined with our own thanks to advanced tech with projection tech.
Some projectors are plainly visible, but most are not.
That way we can have our conflicts and battles on the "ground" without extermination one-other.
In the few instances that conflict is a bit more personal, there are small sections especially created for that.
In which we can confront foes on a more dangerous level… sorta like training for the real outside world.
Beyond the walls of our cities, real monsters roam, but we have little need to face that head-on at the moment.
A select few that do crave pain and death, for those we have other special sectioned-off places.
For highly personal matters or conflicts, that can/will result in death.
No avatars to represent us through projection, just you, a weapon, and good luck.
The tech is so advanced it can have your projection interact with the real world in some way.
Yet highly limited within the walls.
Can't have people be assassinated with projections now, can we?
It's a brutal world of conflict that lives in a phased version side-by-side with society.
We can have our conflicts while rebuilding the world, and not destroying it a second time.
Might be dystopic, but hey… we blew each other almost off the face of the earth, and this was the best solution we could come up with
Me: Cool, really super cool that you can do this just like that. But I notice that the information obtained is limited to the time period in which you are now playing. I think if you finish Endwalker in a few months and then ask for info, it might be about Ancient times. Which is what interests me most
Bestie: maybe ask a bit more specifically next time… by the way, I thought I would get info about the conversation between Alexandra and Elidibus, but that's a no atm.
Me: Ah, too bad. But think this is quite something already, that you got information.
Bestie: you and me both.
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Jan 6th
Remember that one dream I had on May 26th, 2022? About my sister having that disease in her neck?
May 26th, 2022: "Interesting dream about my other sister.in RL she has a problem that when she tilts her head down or even lays down, she gets nauseous and dizzy.
I had a dream that she had some kind of disease that literally allowed you to see the inside of her neck. Everything was transparent. I saw her cervical vertebrae, blood vessels, and nerves. Her skin and muscles were there but were transparent so to speak.
So I wonder if her problem might be in her neck."
Well, it came true, the problem is indeed in her neck. And it's a rare disease even.
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Jan 7th
Dm with TK
Me: Hey, got a thing found on Twitter, it's about lahabrea.
If lahabrea has something to say about this. Let me know.
TK: Lahabrea: definitely not 6.3, the plot is on Vrtra and the voidsent plot. 6.4 has stuff to do with me, yes. But a lot of the story now is focusing towards the catalysts to the next big event. Which I will, of course, not tell either of you (he felt like he was saying this teasingly lol). But the story writers already teased this fact. In the future, the three of us will be back, when I cannot say, but we will be.
Me: holy shit. he just gave a spoiler Omg
Tk: Which.
Me: that all 3 will be back
TK: Ah lol I guess he assumed we already figured that
Me: XD
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Elidibus, like pickles wrapped in baloney/luncheon meat XD
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Jan 8th
This is literally how we sleep, lol
Fabs: cute.
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Jan 9th
Dm with TK
Me: Ascian prime from the trailer.
I wonder which one it is.
That person from the previous subject is still hoping for lahabrea.
TK: Lahabrea thinks it's funny I decided to put on the Invoker of Gods title but thinks it should say like Invoker of Ancients lol
also, he still says no to that being him.
Me: True lol
And interesting.
But you never gained an answer to if he was still tempered when he came here? Or when elidibus came to Earth?
Tk: I did not get an answer to those
Me: Too bad......
Tk: sorry
Me: I mean, if lahabrea still was tempered, I don't mind. I won't judge him, though. It was just for the overall lore reasons when they came here.
TK: well I can say that I guess next time I ask, maybe he didn't want to say.
Me: Yeah exactly. Maybe he feels ashamed of it. But I can assure him he doesn't need to be.
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Jan 11th
Me: The twins are officially 40yo now in Etheirys years at this moment.
The previous age I gained in 2020 was in Earth years.
And someone was very confident that lahabrea would return to the story, Because of the Ascian prime in the trailer. But my clear cognizant was at work at 5am (without reading patch notes, because I never do that) Link to tweet: https://twitter.com/illegible_words/status/1612658137948979200?t=2Bf0hoH8EUV2gvddKRvNwQ&s=19
(funny enough, when I finally placed the patch notes in their tweet later that day. They blocked me)
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Dm with TK
Me: It was lahabrea, but nothing new. I think you need to have a chat with lahabrea about this. Since he said it wasn't him, xD
TK: he did not say that specific thing wasn't him. It is him, but he meant anything new. it's an old thing, did you do the raid? the 24-man, I mean
Me: Yes, but in after quests of the raid. We just found Krile back.
Also. Very familiar voices they used for these gods, lol.
Nophica Possibly Venat
That dude Athlyk or something, Emet
His sister, Ryne.
Halone, Merlwyb
Menphina, I don't know.
(sometime later)
ok finished it. blast me with your theories
Tk: I think the Watcher is the 13th, and Deryk is the Wanderer (Oschon) I think, also they did exist pre-sundering according to this:
Me: wait as ancients?, then why does Emet say in Elpis "by the gods" I thought he meant the twelve by this. but aside from that. Then this does confirm the theory that the twelve are indeed Venat's followers.
Tk: One of them says that (Krile, I think). Venat had her followers essentially also ascend into gods because sundering shook up the order, and so they could help with stuff. The Watcher on the moon, I assume, was not only watching Zodiark but the Twelve's doings.
Me: oh where was that said? or I have forgotten, or I overlooked when that was said. or missed that tiny detail, they became gods as well.
Tk: After they read the statue thing with the info about them
Me: oh, that one. I guess that went half over my head because of my limited English
Tk: Yeah, that's what it says pretty much
Me: ahhhhh, thank you for clarifying that.
also, did you have an answer about lahabrea if he was tempered or not? you said you would try again to check if he wasn't just embarrassed to tell.
Tk: I didn't get an answer yet. Was focused on the game yesterday and didn't today
Me: ah, ok, let me know when he answers. I can fully understand he finds it embarrassing to tell. but I repeat, I don't care about that, that he was tempered. I only want to know the truth.
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Jan 12th
I went to the dentist to have a tooth extracted. But I felt so miserable when I got back home, and the bleeding didn't stop yet. So I called again. I could come over 45 min later to check it.
But I was so, so tired of it. I asked Linala to ask if elidibus could come over. And he did. Very slowly, he gave me the energy until I needed to go through the rain again on my bicycle. He stayed with me and gave me the energy to hold on.
On the ride back he gave me some energy as well when needed. Now that I am back, I feel a bit better at least. He leaves in 20 mins. I am so thankful he came over to support me when needed.
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Now that I think of it (about the Twelve). They appear to the humans in the shape the humans think they are or give to them.
Sound familiar to the convocation members we are in contact with in dreams, does it not? They also appear to you how you know they look like. But the real versions of them are very close to the game variant. While the twelve could have looked completely different.
Also, do you remember this from Elidibus: "Those in your world who speak our names with love or curses either fuel our existence. The only death is being forgotten, so you who would heed Hades' words are looked upon with kindness and thanks."
It matches so hard with the people and the Twelve.
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Jan 13th
Me: metallic blue dye on ancient robes.
Corvus: OMG, that looks so pretty!
Me: IKR?!
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It's funny to read this https://twitter.com/EmUnArum/status/1613659344104562694?t=DxSc5MnLMW0tzONjiK6PPg&s=19
But Venat's followers to be the twelve was my first sus already with 5.2 which is Feb 2020. I only said it in FB group comments that I can't check because I got banned from it. I'm not to be the only one thinking this around that time.
Due to the first raid series, I wasn't sure about it anymore. Until the second dropped and did that last Wednesday.
But if I need to throw in actual predictions I received in dreams
2020 lahabrea had a son. Didn't see either of the two, but it was a discussion going on with other people.
Came true in pandemonium.
2021 august. Elidibus, telling to interviewers that he wanted people to know more about his Youth. Hence, pandemonium raids again.
Ok, Eli is over and told me some things about the next expansion.
They are still working on it, but so far Unukalhai will be going to the 13th straight from the first and entering the msq. Also, they are trying to get the Triad raids mandatory for this story.
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My bestie was over today, and he agreed to try to be a host for Elidibus.
Elidibus beforehand said he would try to kiss me at least. But that I shouldn't expect it to happen.
So when my bestie arrived at noon elidibus was at it lol. Immediately using him to hug me physically. But not really a possession.
This hugging happened a lot during this visit.
After making dinner with my Bestie, Elidibus was nudging me a lot to get close to my bestie, so Eli could use his body.
So with a random reply from me, "shall we hang out on the couch".
Bestie: sure, why not, he clearly wants it.
So yeah, we sat next to each other, me leaning on him.
I could feel it clearly. But wasn't sure how much control Elidibus had. After some time, I couldn't hold it anymore and tried to kiss him. And succeeded. Elidibus was horny as hell, but my bestie restrained that, clearly. which is fine, I was already happy that he let me kiss him about 4 times xD.
Somewhere in between he laid his head upon my "chest" xD he found himself upon my boob, and I was petting him, so he didn't bother. He did say it wasn't his intention to place his head upon there, according to Eli, he had a little bit to do with that.
The second last kiss, my bestie didn't allow and took that away from Elidibus. Elidibus was pushing it too far. ….if you know what I mean.
Before we knew it, 4h had passed. Enjoying Elidibus in a physical body.
When my bestie left, he confirmed Elidibus was horny as hell when I said Elidibus was in the mood. Haha.
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Dm's with Bestie. His reportage of the possession
Bestie: so… partial possession.
What a lot of fun, 'cough'.
That was an experience, alright.
So, basically, I had my spirit guide/guardian on standby for just in case.
But noticing her smirking the biggest smirk in there was to muster, I got weird vibes.
She always knows something I don't and revels in it.
After a while, I got what it was.
Since I was very keenly aware I could not let it go too far, I could kick the focker out whenever I wanted.
He had to work to gain control, and then lose it almost thrice as quickly.
My guardian was delighted that it took me no effort whatsoever, and was bouncing up and down like a cheerleader.
The same goes for the taunts she used. Felt like she was a teenager on a sugar high, but a good one.
The thing she was smirking about was my control over myself, and that the possession could only work if I agreed.
And that it would be an insta-kill on whatever was going on with just a thought of disagreement.
I did so some extra checks to see if my limbs were fully mine again, but it was all fine.
Experiment results:
Plausible
1 very happy/proud spirit guardian
2 semi-disappointed entities.
and I feel kinda weird.
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Jan 14th
So I asked Elidibus to help me out (for some time already). To get my ex out of the house. And my son with it. Why my son? Because his special needs school sucks in giving him the right education. The place where my ex's parents live has a better education.
If not all, most of the convocation members are helping. About 9 or so of them even helped my son with the IQ test to prove he isn't mentally disabled. And it worked, he falls under a different category now.
Now. It's waiting for my son's application to be approved.
But my ex and son are during the week at his parents' house.
Every weekend they are here. Slowly but surely I get my freedom and space in my house back.
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Dm with bestie
Me: But if he lost it thrice as quickly. How much of the time was he in control. We were like almost 4 hours on the couch. Also, he is not really disappointed... Like not at all :P
Bestie: fair enough
Me: Ok, so how much?
Bestie: how much of what? Control? about 90%… I refuse to go over that. and then just some body parts -_- and now shut up…. I still feel strange about it.
Me: Also for how long, though.
I am Sorry. But I am also very grateful that you did this for me.
Bestie: On and off. I had to throw him out every now and then for reorientation.
The dream-like state isn't great when I move around it, and it's not my pulses that cause it.
and now I have a weird taste in my mouth that won't come out -_- … fucking side effects…
Me: I assume that was him while kissing?
Bestie: … it wasn't my impulse to kiss you…
Me: clear, ty
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Me: I have been seeing 333 often enough. But 3333 passed by in the game with a gatherer's Guile IX. The realization was after I bought it.
Lol another one
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Me: After an interesting experiment yesterday with my Bestie.
The unsundered can take over your body IF you allow it. Also, it depends on yourself how much they can control you.
Yes, my bestie was a partial host for elidibus yesterday.
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Jan 15th
I checked back on old info.
Elidibus was already here in 2003. Not sure if that was answered in my favor. Because that was the info from March 2021.
But early development of XIV 1.0 didn't start until late 2004.
Well, that one thing answered where 2004 came from.
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Dm's with Bestie
Me: A couple more questions. When you cut off the kissing with small kisses, that one time were you trying to take over again?
And I'm curious about what else you picked up from him besides being horny
And you hadn't answered the question of how much of the time we were there he was in control
Bestie: yes, I took that kiss from him… that's right.
And something inside me knew I'd have to hold you back quite a bit too…
the question about how much time: no idea… it was 10pm before I knew it… so I don't know… small blackouts.
And now I know what it's like to be "used"…
Me: But what did you get from him in terms of things.
When I told you, before you left, he was in the mood. You confirmed this. So you did have some experience. What else got you through?
Bestie: that he wanted to take full control, and I was 0% looking forward to it, and that Alexandra was very happy that I didn't allow that.
because A: I have a life of my own that I had to keep to.
and B: just NO… use your own body… I'm just a rental – … be glad I let you go this far --
I feel weird now
please stop asking questions.
me: Ok. Thanks
And thanks for letting me his him in your body
Bestie: ---goosebumps---
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Jan 18th
Sorry for not updating my journal, atm. I have had a lot of things going on since December. I can't find the energy to put everything together. Lack of sleep doesn't help either.
For 3 days already. My cat, weird ticking noise at night (probably wood that reacts to temperature difference), and last night when finally everything was quiet. My body kept itself awake due to a spastic vein or colon in my belly.
(sadly, aside from the lack of sleep, my motivation to write is absolutely zero at the moment of writing this, March 2023. But now that my crafting project in FFXIV has rounded up, I can finally make some this for this again)
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Dm's with bestie
Me: By the way, did you pick up any emotions from him? Towards me, e.g., Or any thoughts other than the control.
Bestie: control over my movements… I don't deal with other people's emotions.
Me: But you did pick up that he was really horny :p
Bestie: by his actions and how he wanted to move… yes
(after talking about the dungeon he was in, we came back to the subject)
Me: He's seriously never done it physically, lol. He was a terrible workaholic in ancient times. Even a girlfriend was not suitable. I am literally his first
Bestie: that explains a lot.
Me: What did you pick up?
Bestie: -- serious? -_-
I know the movements of someone who wants something but doesn't quite understand how.
Me: Ahhhhhhh xD. It's funny that as an entity, he can do the movements and the rest. But that it suddenly works differently with a physical body
It's like: "I want badly to do this and that, but how…." LOL
Bestie: and that he had to deal with a "stubborn host" ^_^
Me: Yes, that too
Bestie: "ya ain't getting full control over this one" + if he wanted to talk, I would have to do it with my voice… through my brain, which is quite -translation sensitive-
if he ever manages to do that, it's going to be laughable.
Me; He can! But then you have to allow it.
Bestie: maybe once just for fun
Me: Niceeeeee. He can speak Dutch. (Because of me). But mainly speak English
Bestie: you know I can't speak his way of speaking… so… no idea how that translation is going to come out of my throat then.
And my retainer stole a chair.
Me: With me, he can only do it if I'm relaxed enough, so in my head. Does not happen often.
Last time he insisted. And merged with me very deeply. And could tell he wanted to talk through me that way. Oh, yeah, that was that Friday, lol. He said one thing or another that he would try to kiss me through you. But I wasn't allowed to assume :p
Retainers steal even more, lol, complete roofs and fences.
Bestie: oh boy… kleptomaniac servants + a horny ghost… going well here. *facepalm*
Me: lol, XD Elidibus is a horny bastard indeed xD
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Jan 19th
Me: It's a public post, so you don't need an account. It appealed to me because of the Shard thing.
https://fb.watch/i8Va4IS1ir/
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Jan 22nd
Had a dream I was at something that looked like a schoolyard, but for young adults rather. But the implication was Fanfest.
I started singing Close in the Distance, trying to imitate Susan's Voice in that compilation vid.
After a few lines, other people joined in and continued singing together.
Near the end, a lot of people were singing already.
And when I sang "the sun will shine again" I raised my arms in the air and waved, and everyone followed.
Everyone including more joined in with the text "Tales of loss and fire and faith" but directly after that, I woke up.
I wouldn't be surprised if this is going to happen at fan fest.
(Marchspoiler: I got tickets! With an access code)
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Me: I will be at my Bestie's place next Friday. Elidibus will there be too? So take two on that front. XD
Also, going to try a magic shroom trip de day after that.
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Dm's with Bestie:
Me: Ok, so I know elidibus is kind of a passionate kisser. Did you try holding him back from it by any chance? Also, when you laid your head upon my "chest" was that his doing? XD
Bestie: If that focker thinks that what he tried to make me do was passionately kissing… yeah… -_- no
and the other one: I don't know… I found myself on you, and you were petting me… and I was fine with that… didn't think about it
Me: That's why I asked if you held him back. Because it wasn't passionate
Bestie: there is a difference between kissing… and eating …
Me: XD So what is it, then? Did you hold him back or not?
Bestie: after I noticed what he was trying to do … YES -_-
Me: Just the kissing, or do you imply further things.
Bestie: both… but the kissing was the most obvious
Me: Yeah because he answered "yes" when I asked if he was held back by you from kissing deeper/passionately.
Bestie: I know what a kiss, a passionate kiss, and a French kiss is.....
so faking hell…that what was tried was eating.
Me: Lol. Well I guess that's our kissing lol (him and me I mean)
Bestie:. . . . . . I feel awkward now
Then we talked a bit about my sleep-over at his place, and that I would bring elidibus with me.
Offered to try to talk through my bestie. But he replied, "we will see"
Unfortunately, nothing mention worthy happened that day.
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Jan 23rd
Me: He helped again :P
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Jan 28th
Me: Quick info notes of my magic shroom trip today. That didn't work out too great, not gonna use these shrooms again.*puke*
Elidibus plays Piano but also flutes. He can play the Trumpet as well, but he doesn't like the tune of it.
He said he could play the ocarina since it is basically a flute.
Each convocation member has his own abilities.
I asked why he never moved objects.
He said he can not. It's more a lahabrea thing to do.
Elidibus said he is more of a debater and makes decisions as an emissary. So, more on the communication-based abilities by voice.
My ex and Eli had a short conversation. About several things.
He will bring Quilitus on Tuesday. Quilitus is interested in learning what love is and means. So elidibus will show him with us.
These are just Quick notes. Because I haven't remembered everything all too well this time.
So I have notes to work on tomorrow.
(alas, it seems I forgot to write everything down. But I can add that Elidibus said to my ex that my soul is pregnant and not de body)
Zio: Sorry, I haven't been saying much of anything at all. Just been…going through a lot. Emotionally. And honestly, I have been really disconnected from everything.
I know it's mostly problems on my end because I know he's always there.
Been trying to cheer me up by focusing on new things, and hopefully, I can be back to myself again in time. I hope everyone is taking care of themselves.
Me: it's sad to hear you are detached from everything. I hope it will get back eventually.....
You can always shoot me a dm if you want. Maybe I can encourage you to do things?
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Jan 29th
After elidibus said yesterday that the urge to breastfeed with the pregnancy of Quilitus was because it was probably new for my soul and that the urge of nurturing reflected in my physical body. And now it was not new anymore and got used to it.
But this morning the urge to breastfeed feed returned. I grabbed the Azem plushie from Foiting cake. And tucked it into my shirt. Not long after, I fell asleep. Normally it kept me awake, but this time it was so relaxing that I fell asleep.
During the trip yesterday, I explained To Eli that I don't want to use Ibuprofen anymore to fall asleep.
My body got used to it, because of my extracted tooth 2 weeks ago.
Eli: leave it for tonight, I will help you sleep.
And he sure did. I didn't need it even in the slightest and slept I think a total of 10h. (Small break of 1,5h in the morning because of my cat.....and the breastfeeding).
I woke up at 11:32 am.
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I can't wait until my bestie finishes the main story.
He might be the answer on which games the ascians helped with. Because he played A LOT of games. And he recognizes a lot from others in FFXIV.
Also:
Bestie: When I was doing the LVL50 last quest of the culinarian guild. I was sitting in Hawkers Alley in my all-brown (because I had the dye's) outfit, next to a stand, trying not to fuck up an HQ meal I needed to make. In my mind, I was thinking a few steps ahead in hotkey mode while looking at the blue lower bar to make it as full as possible before I'd run out of CP… and then it fucking hit me in a split-second flashback.
I had dreamt this shit before. Looking at blue bars – figuring out numbers – in the middle of a busy "street".
That was freakin months before I had my burnout/breakdown – somewhere at the beginning of that year (if memory serves me right).
I had dreamt that I was cooking in a freakin game I had not considered playing AT ALL at that point in time…
and now it is helping me not to go completely insane by keeping the hyper part of my brain occupied.
Pre-cognitive dreams are wonderful. It's just that you don't know you had one till the time of its fruition has come.
The other thing.
—
I have been a gamer my entire life, and I'm seeing influences from other games left and right in FFXIV.
My inner gaming library is large (but I sometimes forget the names of the games) and it's having a field day figuring out all the stuff that I recognize one way or another. I might not have played all the games, but I recognize even those I've only seen on mp4/videos/moving images
—
I've fought spider robots that have the same style as those from Crono Trigger.
A boss that's almost one-to-one with Azura.
Boss arenas and its gimmicks thereof from Castlevania combined with Dante's Inferno (though made more pg, sadly enough).
Entire levels that could be straight from the: Myst – series.
I even see likenesses from obscure games like Combat – from Infogrames… or the voxel-levels having: Outcast…
or first bullet-time having game: Requiem Avenging angle…
There is just so much in FFXIV that I can point at and say: "That looks almost exactly like [input game] from [input year]"…
And I now feel like a massive nerd -_-
Me: XD I hope ever to get confirmation of exactly which games the ascians helped with. Maybe Alexandra can tell? Otherwise, I guess I need to be patient until you finished the main Story.
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Jan 31st
I know altering art is a big taboo. But that's not the intention here. Even so I am just pointing something out.
He looks a lot like this. I draw how he wears his hair, but less wavy. And his face isn't far off either, only a bit broader in the face. Hence, the WOL version of him is the closest, but without the top fluff upon his head standing up straight.
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Ok, the twelve act like arch-angels, but aren't really arch-angels.
For Earth terms, they can be considered angels.
Elidibus just explained this.
He explained more about other subjects.
Quilitus is here too to learn about "love".
Elidibus often said Quilitus is a bookworm, and it's true
He said normally a baby soul of his age (1,5) would be equivalent to a 6~8yo. But by studying that much, his intellect is already at 13yo.
So this explains some sort of sexual education part x3.
Me: can Quilitus speak through me?
Eli: I can ask
Quili: hi (higher voice than Eli's really sounded like an older kid)
Me: did you just speak through me?
Quili: yes.
Me: did you learn from this?.
Quili: yes, I did.
Me: didn't you find it embarrassing to watch the sex?
Quili: no, not at all. I find it rather interesting.
Me: good.
Iirc, the small conversation was a sentence or 2 longer, but that has been deleted from my brain, apparently.
Some other small conversation.
Quilitus didn't know how soul babies were created. I let elidibus explain it.
Later I told Quilitus I didn't know until 1 or 2 days after meeting him. I came to it across the internet.
He didn't know what that was.
I explained it as a big library, but on a screen. And you can search for anything you want that is publicly available. Though some things are restricted etc. etc.
And that in that dream right before meeting him I saw exactly how he was made. And when I found the exact same on the internet, I knew it was true.
Quili: ah.
Also, he feels sorry for not coming to my dreams after I met him.
He didn't keep track of time on Earth while being in the astral.
It's ok. He will try soon.
Me: are you allowed to go alone?
Quili: no.
Me: try to arrange it?
Quili: I will.
Ok, I just mentioned to Eli why TK still hasn't replied.
Eli: sorry, I didn't have the time yet.
Me: well, ask lahabrea then to nudge her to reply
Eli: yes, I can do that today.
Me: now or today.
Eli: today, I will speak to him today anyway.
Me: good
Ok, so I asked "that" question now that Quilitus is here.
I asked the both of them.
Me: Eli, if we get ever to the point of taking a host body on Etheirys, I want Quilitus to be our first child as well.
Eli: well, I am not sure if I want to take another host body.
Me: yeah, but what if we do.
Eli: I suppose, ask him first.
Me: Quilitus, if we take host bodies at some time, I want you to be our child. So you will be our child physically and soulwise.
Quili: as my first human life?
Me: yes.
Quili: yes, I would love to. but not sure when.
Me: it doesn't matter when just when we decide to do that.
Quili: I will definitely learn a lot from that.
Eli: well then I am ok with it. This gives me also more reason to do it.
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Dreams of January
Jan 3rd
after a weird bit of a shower head not working on vacation and that just before an occasion, I felt gross, and I found it really annoying. I went out and flew over the water's surface which was tropical blue. I apparently had all the convocation crystals with me, but they were resin replicas. I went under the water and got 2 Azem crystals and let them float underwater. the light of the sun passed through the water and reflected off the stone
me: oh look how beautiful, I really need an underwater camera.
When I was done with that, I flew over the water and ended up in dirty water with a lot of people. then a creature came and grabbed someone in the water. the water disappeared. when I tried to save that person, he got me too. someone else helped me break free, and I clamped that half-man, half-monster so that the other one who got caught first could get away.
I then flew away, back to where I was before underwater. I was ashamed that I had gotten even dirtier and was very emotional about it.
here comes a bit, of which I don't remember the details, but the water was now low and had a white bottom. the convocation crystals were scattered all over the water. and I sought those of the unsundered as soon as possible. finally, someone wanted to get the 3 Elidibus variants (I thought, but I think he was stopped). the 3 Eli's were 1 real crystal but was still a replica (the one I actually have). 1 of the Christmas tree replicas and another one.
I picked them up and flew away in shame.
me: thanks for saving me…Elidibus.
I said as I hid behind white curtains afterward.
turned elidibus, like Themis, to follow me. I knew this. once hidden and he came to me. I looked at him by showing my head behind the curtains. we looked at each other. he looked surprised, and we looked at each other for at least 5 seconds, and then he was gone.
(unfortunately, this wasn't the real one, and I find this very disappointing. I haven't "seen" it in so long)
the Ophiuchus crystals were in my pocket. I took the Laha and Emet crystals from my pocket. the constellations were scratched out, but it was still possible to see who they belonged to.
I went looking for them by asking with the crystals in my hands. I went to a few people and asked if they knew where they were.
man: Oh, Emet and lahabrea.
(I don't know what they said next)
I was sent to someone else.
I showed the crystals without saying anything.
person: yes, I know where they are, come with me.
I was taken to a building.
person: they're in there.
I went through a door first. but that was not theirs. next door sat Emet. he was cleaning up in one of those typical anime-look outfits. only he was hilariously quite bulky (solus Emet, btw). I walked over to him. I tried to hold back my tears.
me: umm Emet.
I don't remember exactly what I said. it came down to, I thought, I was ashamed to death that I hadn't been able to shower (I thought) for the occasion. and I said something else I don't remember. Emet made a movement that suggested a hug, and I was more than happy to do so and cried for a while.
after the hug, I said I wanted to go to lahabrea.
Emet: Come on.
I looked to the side and saw a random guy looking at us through a small window and said
man: you should come by more often.
me: (asked Emet), is that lahabrea?
Emet looked around with raised eyebrows.
Emet: no
then the dream fell away for a moment but came back.
Emet was at his car and did some checking.
me: can you take me to lahabrea?
Emet: yes, come on.
but then I woke up.
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Jan 4th
I was eating and the doorbell rang. I didn't open it at first, but then the door turned out to be open. . a very tall woman with bright red hair in a black coat was standing there when I looked around the corner to see if anyone was standing there.
when I saw her, she came in.
me: sorry, I'm eating.
Woman: Doesn't matter.
she came in and sat down and started talking about Mark Rutte and was praising him, so to speak.
me: I don't care, I don't agree with him. you can go now.
and I pointed to the door.
but she didn't go. then, after some more Rutte nonsense, she turned into a ghost. In some way or another, I had the lamp of Aladdin in my possession.
I think he was very much in the background.
I tried to lock her up by getting her into the lamp. (I don't know if it worked or not)
I do know that I first saw Genie (the blue ghost of Aladdin) flying like a rainbow-like cloud. he entered the lamp. I rubbed and he reappeared. his cloud-like form slowly took shape and became a small version of the movie version, also blue, by the way.
I don't remember what he said to me at first, but then I asked.
me: genie, can I make a wish?
G: Of course, you can.
me: I would like to be with Elidibus in this dream.
only that didn't happen, he looked to see if he was available, I guess.
G: I have news from the hairdressing world that he is not available.
me: what is he doing at the hairdresser?
Then he started to sing. I don't remember the beginning, but it was definitely emotional. for verification, asked what his hair color was.
me: what is his hair color?
G: (singing already) Silveryyyyyyy
the lamp had turned into a handkerchief-like thing, and after he said that I cried even more because it was right, and buried my face in that handkerchief. (even though it felt like cardboard)
G: (singing) And when you feel sad, he summons the sun for you.
then I woke up.
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Jan 7th
I was at some event. sort of convention, but not everyone was in costume. in fact, here and there were a few in costume. but most of them were not. I don't remember what I did at first, but I knew that Elidibus was there as Themis and went looking for iirc.
after a short search, a performance was held and everyone found a place on a chair. once I was seated, Themis sat next to me. I wanted to kiss him right away, but I couldn't. I had a feeling this was his younger version and I might come across as a bit too overwhelming.
I watched the show for a second, but it was 1 sec. and then I looked at him again.
I'll let him kiss me, I thought. (if he wants)
then he said something, iirc something about him liking me, or it came down to that.
I continued to look at him with surprised eyes.
Themis: come here.
and he kissed me, it was heavenly.
after the kiss…
me: I.......(thinking that he has just reached legal age there and is therefore 18, and I am 35) do you know how old I am?
Themis: how old you are? he gave a questioning look.
me: take a guess, I got an 11-year-old son.
Themis: Hmmm.
he kept thinking (I saw his eyes!)
I thought again he is 18 he is just of legal age.
he said something that looked like "doesn't matter" but didn't hear it, I think. he kissed me briefly if I iirc, and then he hugged me.
me: oh, if you don't mind, then I don't either.
only our tender moment was disturbed by a raid and everyone was taken and locked up. on the way there (where we were locked up) Themis kept walking behind me with his hand on my shoulders. When I was in the room where we were locked up, I turned around.
when I was in the room where we were locked up, I turned around. and saw the guy standing behind me that it was someone else.
me: *oh no,* you're not Themis.
he left. the doors closed, I assumed Themis was somewhere else in the building. but I had an idea.
me: ok people, if we can free the unsundered, then we are out of this in no time.
but then someone else had already cracked the doors and everyone could get out. I ran outside, and there was Themis with someone behind him. that person held him by his shoulders. Themis looked shocked.
me: oh, there you are!
I gave him a hug, and he gave one back. oddly enough, he was suddenly a bit shorter than me, but he didn't pay any attention to it.
me: I was already afraid that you had turned into someone else like all my dreams go (i.o.w that he wasn't the real one).
Themis: no, I was here.
me: thank god. let's go out of here.
we wanted to go, but at that moment I woke up.
it was, funnily enough, the real one, but why as Themis?
So I asked Linala to get him over to ask some quick questions.
I was lucky, he was able to come over.
So it was him showing he would love me even if I were older.
And I asked what happened when he was walking behind me. Eventually, I was taken away from him and he was very shocked about it. He was held back by the person holding me, so he couldn't save me somehow.
When I got out, and he was smaller, it was because the dream was ending and his energy for this dream depleting.
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Jan 10th
After not having a Phase dream for a long period. I finally had one again. Though nothing fascinating to report. It was mostly the usage of my powers, teleporting, portal opening, and going through it. Trying to find the ascians in that in-between dimension. But alas. Wall through walls. Etc. I did find Emet and asked where elidibus was. But he wasn't there when I arrived at the place. Never really asked if that was the real Emet, though. But I think he was.
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Jan 26th
I had been dreaming for a long time, but after about the end, I was apparently in ancient times. but in the neighborhood where I grew up in this life.
Emet, Hyth, and I were being chased by someone. Hyth did a Limit Break as a Bard. his bow was green, by the way.
Emet and I kept running. Hyth caught up with us again, and Emet somehow disappeared. but I had a hold of his mage staff. I was allowed to use it. (was no more than a standard wizard twig).
we were still running.
Hyth: is it ready, yes?
I looked at my staff, and it still had to charge the dot to do the limit break.
me: almost, just a little more!
Running charged the LB somehow.
after running about 100 meters, it was charged. the boy who was chasing us was now in front of us. this was a boy from a previous dream who had to raise his cat.
(IRL there is a cat that goes out every night meowing and in the dream, I told him to raise his cat and keep it inside).
me: it's done
I wanted to do a powerful magic attack. I aimed my staff at that boy, but only purple cloud blobs came out,
later they became purple serpent dragons in cloud-like form.
me: it's not working/doing anything.
Hyth looked concerned.
and then I was suddenly somewhere else
my dad: (insert my real name) where are you? (he had slightly Emet's voice)
me: oh no, don't tell me Emet is my father (didn't realize I was back yet).
I looked back "oh luckily I'm back"
I was at my father's furniture workshop. looked a bit different, but it was clear.
me: so I was sent back to the present by Emet.
and I saw a kind of Portal with purple colors close. as in that it got smaller and then disappeared.
me: (to my dad) I was in the past.
dad: ah, don't be silly.
me: what is that, then? > pointed to a portal that closes.
he didn't answer.
me: or there is 1 more. (the third one, this one also closed). so I'm back. *I wonder where Emet got those time travel abilities from, from Althyk?
then I woke up.
(Emet is not my dad, let's put that straight, nor was he in this dream)
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please look forward for the next chapter!, tysm for reading!
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