Before i start i want to announce my mentor is open for new channelling classes they will start at June 5th more info here: https://app.acuityscheduling.com/schedule.php?owner=23840989&appointmentType=62654999 if you're looking for a good spiritual teacher, Triona is your best bet. if you have the money, then do it! if you do enter the course, then let me know your name in the chat haha, then i know which reader i can encounter in the next classes, as i will be joining them aswell! classes are held via Zoom. And don't be afraid talking about the Convocation etc. Triona fully supports my work!
Dec 3rd
DM's with TK
Hey, I just had a quick talk with Lahabrea, can you read and verify it with him if it was him?
Ok so, I noticed someone came to me at the end of my meditation. I got no response on "eli" or "Emet", but did with Lahabrea.
This will be about Amanda and that she doesn't accept DM's anymore except her mods.
So he told me to stop DM her (because I still can somehow, but being ignored), and she will come to me when she finally reads my books when she is far enough in the story. And he confirmed what Venat said as well. That Amanda will be on our side and also believes they exist.
I just need to be patient.
Can you ask if it was him?
I need to know if it was him or not, and if it was him if he have something to add.
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Dec 4th
TK: yes he said it was him, nothing to add, just let her come to you when she's ready. Bugging will just push her away.
Me: Ty!
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Dec 5th
Elidibus at the end of pandaemonium jap translated.
"Go beyond this world"
Space Travel to other planets confirmed
[in JPN]:
「数多の星のどれでもない。君という星が私の前に現れた ことを、幸福に思う。どうかこれからも、この世界すら 超え、思うがまま飛び給え。遥か彼方を目指す、ほうき 星の如く・・・・・・。」
[Transl.]
"You are not one of the many, countless stars [but a special one].... but the one that I met. That I could appear in front of you is [one of the greatest] blessing[s] [I could ever have]. From now on, go beyond this world, and fly as you wish. Aim far, far away, like a comet...."
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Dec 6th
Dm’s with Zio
Me:
Zio: Wow...this fits with what little things he's told me before.
Me: oh tell me!
Zio: It wasn't a lot
I just remember once he told me he was working on a powerful combat spell
And I asked him if it was something like his meteor spell
I don't really remember if he answered me or not
Me: oh. do you have more of these little things that you never told?
Zio: Not really. I'll try to remember if there is though.
Me: awesome.
how is communicating going lately?
with Nabs I mean
Zio: It hasn't been the best, but I've been wearing his memory stone lately so maybe that will help.
Me: I hope so!
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Dec 7th
the new side story
Holy shit that last line of the story
"And beneath dreaming eyelids, our final fantasy goes on."
Is that a very soft implication that they are telling the story.?!
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Dec 8th
On this day I discovered Corvus’s Twitter and wondered if it was him, it was him definitely but he blocked me straight after me asking if it was him and that I was worried about him since he never replied back since July. He also deleted his account.
According to Elidibus, he is struggling with himself (his identity) since he merged with the shattered shards of himself to become a full-shard piece. And this influenced his marriage as well. (The intensity of how much and what way I don't know)
So the earlier info I gained that he has a depression was correct. Unfortunately, Elidibus first said he would contact me again during the Christmas holiday week. But I guess it won't happen anymore.....
I am genuinely worried about him, and wondering what I did wrong
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(note: surprisingly he did come back at Christmas!)
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Jezzah: You didn't do anything wrong. He is struggling with himself.
Me: is it an American thing to shut yourself off from everyone if they are struggling? I mean I never encountered this behavior in my country. we all are like "Hey are you ok bud?" always checking in ya know.
Jezzah: Unfortunately, yes, mental health is looked down upon here in the States.
Me: :(
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Dec 10th
Me: @Corvus, He probably doesn't read it but this one is for him.
I usually never do digital tarot. But this one was too significant for him.
Before I chose the card, my question did involve him. And I hope he will contact me again when he is out of his misery and rested enough.
“This card depicts a young man asleep on a bed or tomb with three swords above him and one beneath him. Is he dead or merely resting?? This interpretation is up to you, for this is a card of contemplation and deep introspection. The Four of Swords appears when you need to take some time to relax, reflect, recuperate, and find your way back to yourself. The fight is done, and now comes a period of brief respite.
Lay down your sword, stop fighting, stop confronting, stop dealing with objections and difficulties, and let your wounds heal.
The Four of Swords provides retreat from the conflicts in your life, representing order and stability mixed with the turbulent character of the Swords. Rest and recovery are essential, as is taking this time to heal. Although the calm may only be brief, enjoy it while it lasts. It may be a sign that you're on the mend after a lengthy sickness.
According to legend, before a man could be knighted, he was required to live in utter solitude and quiet. He vowed he would not talk to anybody or see anyone else until the morning of his knighting. This typically began the day before and lasted far into the evening. The knight would spend his watch in prayer, promising that he would do his best to serve his deity, that he would be honest and just, and that he would do no evil. He prayed to make sure he was on good terms with his deity, that no wrongdoing had gone unpunished, and that he could spend the rest of his days fulfilling his responsibilities to his monarch. This is the Four of Swords' nature.
For those who have visited a cathedral or a tomb, the picture of the Four of Swords card may be recognizable. A tomb is in the foreground, with a stone sculpture depicting a "sleeping" (perhaps dead) man with his hands folded and his head on a cushion lying on top. The man does not appear to be in agony; rather, he seems to be relaxed and at ease. One sword rests on his tomb, or bed, reflecting this idea that he has laid down his arms, finally, to rest and relax. The three additional swords hang behind the tomb, along with the stained glass window depicting an adult and child. This represents forgiveness and the healing that comes with forgiving one's self for life's transgressions.
The most prevalent connotation of this card is pausing to reflect. The Four of Swords, like the knight, may be urging you to take some time to be quiet and observe what is behind you and what is ahead of you. We seldom devote as much time to meditation or reflection as we do to talking and doing; maybe if we did, there would be less misery and anguish in the world.
Rest and Reflection
This card may also represent a time of healing; one brought about intentionally by making time for rest. We occasionally need to take a step or two outside of our regular routines to rest, whether it's due to a bodily or mental ailment. In our fast-paced, relentless society, many people feel guilty if they rest or slow down because of fear of letting down those they are about. If you need the downtime, take it. Embrace a slow recovery a day off from work isn't going to cut it: even a little cold needs longer recuperation than that.
Finally, this card invites us to consider the beyond and its significance in our lives... If the man in the image is, in fact, deceased, then he is in the midst of the last rest. So, what does this imply for you? What would you do if you knew you were about to die? Would you be willing to make amends with family members? Spend all of your time with the people you love? What's keeping you from doing it now, rather than waiting until that fatal day? Many people on their deathbeds don't wish they had worked more or spent more time seeking financial security; instead, they wish they had spent more time with the people they care about. This is food for thinking.
When you see the Four of Swords, keep this in mind. When was the last time you sat quietly, reflected, and meditated? What would be the advantage to you? Is there any disadvantage to spending time apart? Is there anything you need to get back on track with? Could you rest in peace knowing you have accomplished all you want in this life, or is there still something you wish to achieve?
What Four of Swords Means for You Today
Have you been spending a lot of time in your head lately? The Four of Swords is a sign of this deep introspection and a signal for you to pay attention to your inner voice. There is a question on your mind as of late. One whose answer seems to elude you the more you try to search for it. But if you try to consider the bigger picture of your life and view events and situations through a wider lens, the answer will reveal itself to you. This is a perfect time to reflect on what is important to you and whether or not you are on the right path, especially when it comes to work or career. You are going to gain some invaluable knowledge from deep within you that you will need for later on, so listen to your intuition.
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(note: So yeah that was clearly a message for him, but also for me now that I think of it, he was at the end of his struggles and was resting, giving him the energy to contact me again at Christmas)
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Me: Also some positive things. Elidibus week on Twitter has ended (this is the last day).
He said he liked it, it gave him great energy.
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Dec 11th
DM's with TK on Twitter
Me: OK I need to know if I just spoke with Lahabrea again, can you ask him if it was him?. This time about the cousin's thing. And they were cousins. But everybody saw them as a married couple that were bickering often. If this isn't correct then I assume it wasn't Lahabrea? Can you check for me?
TK: Lahabrea said this dex entry for the turtle legendary is interesting: In this form, Terapagos (pokemon) resembles the world as the ancients saw it, and its Terastal energy is abnormally amplified. Also don't know about other stuff. He told me to wait until I got my lore book shipped to me to be able to discuss stuff. Don't know why other than he said that it would be easier to use what is written to back up actual things.
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After reading about Soken for the ffxvi composing. I really wondered then when undergoing cancer treatment and writing To the Edge. If he ever saw any of the Unsundered (leaning most to Elidibus) during an OBE or dream. Why am I talking about this, i can but understand your soul wants to escape your body for a moment when going through so much pain and suffering, to be relieved for a short time. And sadly enough OBE's and NDE's are looked down upon when you tell that to the doctor, you are declared mentally ill. So I understand IF he had one, he never spoke of it.
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Dec 16th Bday dream
There is an astral Amaurot on the planes of Etheirys, perhaps called heaven in this case. I was there last night. So focking beautiful. Though modern people of Etheirys are there too because I didn't see any people with robes. Only modern clothing.
The aetherial sea is for souls that just died, and for souls that wanna reincarnate. So after a soul lands in there after death, and doesn't wanna reincarnate immediately they go to " heaven" so that their 7D. (On Earth that's 5D for as long we are in the 3D)
So the aetherial sea is the whole return to the star thing, but there is more in higher realms.
The full dream
so I think I was somewhere in an astral version of Amaurot at the end.
I had been dreaming for a long time and at a certain point I became more aware. and there were people in DBZ cosplays, well a bit TOO real let's say. especially Gohan and Goku. they said to me "If you stop the orb of destruction, fill in the barcode and then drop it, then it will reset your life"
so I needed to play on something and finally got the orb of destruction, it was a gigantic fireball. I had to press pause, but I couldn't remember which buttons to press. and then it was on pause (Gohan did that) but I forgot which button combination I had to enter. and to take it off the break I had a few seconds to enter the barcode. and I think it failed. then I did it again, but first I tried to save things like my birds. but then Gohan played it again and the orb was there again. so it was some kind of game.
Gohan: ok I am here about to push in the code "HDCR" buttons
on a controller, I tapped it at the same time and that caused the fireball to pause. And he did it on the joystick (Gohan) with a lot of ups and downs left rights very quickly in dbz style
Gohan: now hit the black button!
I saw 1 flat black button and pressed it.
Gohan: no that one.
that was a round protruding button
and with that black button you released the fireball, so the ball destroyed everything and everyone and reset everyone's "life"
when we survived everything was white iirc
Me: this is not life, this is my astral body,
Gohan: I agree this is not the physical plane,
Me: I want my body back.
Gohan: this is not what was supposed to happen.
here I am missing a part, somehow we were able to turn it back partly by pressing a switch, and then we came back. I started looking for alternative versions of the convocation members. Fandaniel was Rio (that blue ringneck parrot on insta), and Athena was written as Atenna a mystic fox on 2 legs and wearing a cape. (this was just random nonsense)
I was with a group of people and Goku and Gohan turned into their anime versions and later disappeared. I've also treated them as people in cosplay all this time.
After that vague part of convocation members.
at one point I walked into a city on a large square, and looked up
me: What.....Amaurot
but there was some kind of bridge blocking the view of some kind of amaurot castle. in the same style, but yes. reminded me of Elpis but instead, the bridge stretched for a long time but it was closer than the castle. and when I saw that amaurot castle
Me: WTF
Tony Stockwell's text came into my head "When you are in a state of awe, then you know you are in the presence of a higher power" I really had that there. I really had first class jaw-drop.
then someone was poking me all the time and walking in front of me and spoiling my image. so I push that whole person away.
me: go away I don't need you anymore.
so I tried to fly so I could see the whole castle, but I couldn't fully. but I could see him a little better. and on my right side, there was a decorative lake, very low standing water, 10 cm high or so and on the bottom all the art from Amaurot was really beautiful. I will never be able to find anything comparable here on earth so beautiful. and there was a statue next to it. I looked at that castle again, it had 5 of those swirl spires. 1 in the middle and 1 on each corner tower and in the middle there were still golden spires without those between things. it was really so Ancient style. and I liked it
Me: OMG I am home I am home. I turned around and walked into the capitol building. but there were all modern people
Me: hey they don't wear robes. I'm going to look for people with robes. Mommy Daddy I am home!
then I started looking. Only the half-baked ancient ones that I came across were drawn, including the masks as if someone 1 year old had colored them.
but here the dream already faded away and I slowly woke up.
I was home, even if it were just 10 seconds. I was home
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Dec 19th
So I haven't had a dream about any convocation member since September iirc. So I asked my spirit guide to ask Emet and Lahabrea to come into my dreams. Emet seemed to come in January. But Lahabrea doesn't anymore, and it was so much explaining my guide did why he couldn't, that I couldn't make out what he said.
(note: though Emet decided to come earlier lol)
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Dec 20th
Ok, so I asked Elidibus last weekend ( dec 16-17th) if he would have a physical body on Earth in some way or another and would cosplay himself what material his ascian robes would be.
He said a big no to (fake) leather and wanted something Lighter like linen but sturdy enough that it doesn't create any creases.
Silk didn't come to mind. But today the dev confirmed it to be silky.
I always thought it was wool lol.
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Dec 24th
(midnight)
Me: Funny I knew Corvus would reactivate his account. Guess what, 1 day ago. Really feels like a repeat of Zeke.
And yes he blocked me again, well my public account.
1H later:
Ah, I can't sleep. I checked the replies where I was wondering about if he was questioning himself.
{redacted part sorry!} @Jezzah what do you think of this.
Jezzah: I don't really know. It's his coming to terms with himself. You really need to stop obsessing over people. I know you're desperate with the group but what I have come to find is that stressing over little stuff just makes things worse.
(morning):
Me: sigh perhaps. It's just. I don't understand why he blocked me.
12 hours later in the evening
Corvus: Ayane..
To answer some long-lasting questions (very late after the fact, sorry), I'm okay. I'm alright. And no, I don't think you're an enemy or dislike you or anything weird. Lmao relax.
So yeah, about 6 months ago, I went through a pretty rushed collision of personalities, a messy and haphazard fusion of fragments. It didn't take too long to find out that this melding caused immense mental instability. So much so I ended up hospitalized. Again. (Yeah, getting tired of ending up in the hospital.)
After a week and a half of inpatient isolation, I was discharged and put on a few months of outpatient follow-up. From there, my directions were simple: go radio silent spiritually. Disconnect from any stimuli that might repeat the mental breakdown that put me in the hospital in the first place. I figured that I'd be fine then, if I just didn't respond here personally. I knew the convocation were watching. They would inevitably see why I was silent. (Seems I put too much faith in them actually saying anything though.) At school, this was my last semester anyway. I needed to focus on my last classes before graduation. So I did.
All that is done, I've graduated, and my innermost self has had time to stabilize.
You were blocked for a moment here and on Twitter because I wasn't discharged from outpatient therapy yet. I just finished my last week. So I'm sorry for the anxious silence, but no, I didn't hate you. I just had to avoid any spiritual discussion for a while.
Me: Sorry for digging into your Twitter, as I was trying to figure out what you were dealing with.
Also as I said on Twitter I found your reply on Amanda's post. And that is the truth. I wasn't searching you up. But I stumbled upon you. So I grabbed my chance to see if it was you indeed. And by directly blocking me everywhere it was just confirmed. But why didn't you say it all earlier that you couldn't deal with it? I mean I can totally understand your undergoing massive persona change because of the merge. If you just explained that to me and said you need to cut yourself off for a while. I would have completely understood and wouldn't send so many messages to begin with. Also, Eli didn't say you were ok.....quite the contrary well the last 3 months. I did not receive exact words, but the overall feeling and movement of communication indicated you were having issues, big mental issues because of the merge. So I started to worry more and more......and with that, weird behaviour to try to seek out something to know what was going on was triggered when you blocked me. My apologies again for that. But did you directly get hospitalised again after our last talk in July?
I honestly didn't expect a reply yet tbh. But I am glad you did.
It seems the first indication of a reply back came true, in December during Christmas holiday week (the answer was given somewhere in October or early November). It just became uncertain after you blocked me. But somehow in the back of my head, there was this intuitive knowing going on, you still might reply. But I dismissed that at first, but I see now why. because if I focus on it too much it wouldn't happen.
So I am very happy to hear from you again. Are you stable enough to talk about things again?
what do you mean by "Seems I put too much faith in them actually saying anything though" like saying what to who? or ?????
just promise me if something happens whereby you need to cut off suddenly. pls, let me know. (well in this case I hope it will not happen again ofcourse, just for your own well-being, my god)
also grats on graduating from school!
@everyone maybe a bit early, but happy Christmas everyone.
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Also, I found an interesting tweet about the Unsundered having wings since arr and Elidibus foreshadowed being the heart of Zodiark https://twitter.com/illegible_words/status/1738312605557469520
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Dec 25th
(midnight)
Jezzah: Did I tell you so? I think I did.
Me: You confirmed the issues yeah
Corvus: Gotcha, gotcha. That makes sense. And the timeframe is a blur but as far as I'm aware and as my family has told me, most of July was a descent into madness and I was actually taken to the hospital at like the beginning of August. Idk, the discharge papers are around here somewhere.
But yeah I did some backreading of what I missed in this server and on the blog. I'm glad you even said there that you know I'm not the type to just ghost you without reason, or block you and never look back. Kinda wish I'd given a reason beforehand... That's on me. I kinda have this issue of usually always trying to face everything alone. Like I don't think to depend on people when I probably should. I'm trying to get better about that.
And yeah, I'm good and stable and here to stay. No more wacky adventures, at least for a while XD. Oh, and the "put too much faith" comment? Lmao I was so sure Eli or at least Emet would just tell you "oh yeah, here's what's up with him, yeah he's fine". BZZZT, WRONG. Typical. "smile sweatdrop"
And yeah, here's praying as well that doesn't happen again, but nonetheless, I promise.
And thank you as well Jezzah for being here as a voice of reason when I wasn't. Definitely gonna try not to just poof again, but nonetheless, I appreciate it. And and and to everyone and all, Happy Holidays.
Me: Glad to have you back /hug. Are you able to go into spiritual stuff again? So mediation and communication with the convocation?
Corvus: Yup! Let me know how and where I can help and I'll do what I can!
Me: Awesomeeee!!!!
Have you read the new side Story about Lahabrea and Igeyorhm being cousins? Are they really? Or is it just a fantasy of the devs?
(morning)
Corvus: I haven't. Between all that happened, my sub to the game slipped and I haven't had the chance to resub yet. I don't even think I've played any of 6.5 at all.
On the family note though, given how temporary any actual corporeal connection between the seats would be, it's totally possible that they were cousins at some point in time. Or, that is to say, the people holding the seats were. If the seat holders are now though? I'm doubtful. That seems like a twist written by the same mind that wrote the ending of the Pandaemonium story.
Me: Hmmmm. You might have a thing there because the change in Lahabreas soul definitely happened when Hades wasn't a member yet, I mean it happened when Eric was (from what it looked like) a 10-year-old max. I doubt Emet was still an adult 15 years earlier lol. But the side story is quite a bit farther ahead in time. It could definitely be the same Igeyorhm as she is discussing the soul subject with him. What I do know is that Igeyorhm is of Lahabrea's age. (I knew this before the side Story)
Pls read it, and try to connect with them to seek answers
I must add that Mitron and Loghriff were a lesbian couple in that story. And some years ago Jezzah said Mitron was a woman at that time. So this confirms it quite clearly. At first, we thought Mitron switched seats to the male one. But I see with this story that that didn't happen.
So I am open to believing anything regarding Igeyorhm and Lahabrea. I wish I could get info from Lahabrea himself via @TK but she hasn't replied on that further yet.
Corvus: Have you heard from her at all? Like, since you last reached out to her on my behalf?
Me: Yeah. I told her about the Lahabrea and Igeyorhm thing. But she wanted to wait for the new lore book, but that didn't reveal anything new. But since then she has been silent again.
Also Merry Christmas from Elidibus to everyone here.
(afternoon)
Corvus: Hey, update time!
So yeah, you were right. The forms they most recently took were indeed related! Took finding Igeyorhm to confirm it. Lahabrea's even more stubborn than Emet when it comes to answering questions he doesn't deem worth his time, and even she laughed at me for asking. They don't get why we care it seems. It's like sometimes they need to be reminded that our lives here are short and that we strive for any sense of community we can find, and that family has innate significance to this place's humans who only live an average of like 70 years.
But yeah, I guess that side story has some truth to it!
Me: awesome! thanks, that would mean because of the 2 bickerings a lot they "looked" like a married couple, rather than that Igeyorhm was his GF or new wife later on (so after Athena). I probably misunderstood the message so long ago XD. I mean I asked that firstly during SHB originally, if they had a (love) relationship. but because I believed that was correct for so long. your own gained answers can be muddled by your own beliefs, i.o.w you will only get that answer when you ask again. So that happened the past 2 years. I never asked if she was a relative instead hahaha. the answer I gained back then wasn't entirely false just misinterpreted, this is also a thing I learned in my psychic classes. but it makes sense now especially that Ex member Ghia who was a younger brother of Igeyorhm, and Lahabrea was like an uncle to him, this adds up better now! TYSM for this.
oh yeah, Corvus. Foxclon was with Yoshi when I gave him my books. And Foxclon's reaction to the subtitle "ascians of ffxiv are real existing spirits" was "oehhhh interesting".
(and showed the pic with Yoshi holding my books)
Corvus: Glad you were able to present it to the man, the myth, the legend himself!
Me: ikr!
I have a totally different question. The "word" you found of what you are. Is it relevant to the soul merge you went through?
Corvus: Hmm?
Me: It was on your Twitter
Corvus: OH THAT TWITTER POST. LMAO
Me: yeah
Corvus: nope, lol that was a totally different discovery
I had a heart-to-heart with a friend from university about identity and gender and how I experience it versus how she does, and she introduced me to the concept of "demi male" and I'd never heard of it before then.
Me: Ok I never heard of that as well. What is it? what does it mean?
I am not in that community myself so I am completely oblivious to most things of it.
Ok, I googled a bit.
How did your wife fare when you were struggling with yourself btw? Speaking of which, she was from the 8th shard, right?
Or let's say how did your relationship went during that time.
Corvus: I mean, the mental breakdown was sorta rough. Somewhat thankfully, it's not the first time I've gone nuts. I had a super bad breakdown in 2015 too. So she knew something was wrong and that I wasn't acting or thinking clearly. She helped me get into the hospital in the first place and came to visit me a few times over the course of the time I was there.
But yeah, demi male is effectively like being half guy and half something else, or in my case, nothing. Half man, half agender. It doesn't change much pronoun-wise, I still go by he/him, I just don't align with most expectations of "masculine".
Me: Given the fact you rejoined with shattered shards I can imagine it raised some questions as to what you are, or didn't it?
Corvus: It's interesting. The scattered parts of myself felt very foreign at first. That's part of why the fusion didn't go well. It was like cramming squares and triangles into a circular slot and expecting them to fit nicely.
After recovering though, it became clear to all of us that we weren't different people at all, just different demeanours and perspectives from the same original mind. Like instead of this body being home to Corvus, Faris, and Vyon, it's really just home to Corvus, brash Corvus, and aloof Corvus. And so on and so forth. The voices eventually all recognized each other as their own, and we properly all synchronized.
Me: Oh awesome! Amazing how this works. I did a shroom trip in November and had a visitation of Aidenin (known as Joshua Rossfield ;) ) we had a very short merge, but only for how it would feel, not to stay. It was overwhelming in power ffs. I mean so far I know my source pièce isn't further shattered like yours was. Nor was Aidenin's. Imagine you 2x regarding the merge effect. If it was permanent I would have gained mental issues definitely.
Corvus: Yeah I definitely don't recommend trying to slap together 6 fusions at once. In much the same nature as Rejoinings, it gets messy. Worked out in the end tho, ya?
Me: True! But Aidenin has a life elsewhere on a different planet. If both of us have passed and want to rejoin, we will do so. But not while we are having bodies lol.
But I'm going to sleep now lol and Elidibus needs cuddles lol... Thanks for that chat
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Dec 27th
Relevant to the dream I just had about Emet and Hyth, discovering probably just this (read Google info). Emet said it was female while Hyth said that you can't assign a different gender if it has already one. (So it was assigned male) though they called it a toad, they meant frog obviously. Maybe the term frog was determined later as well lol.
I was defector Azem for the time being in that dream, as Hyth was still alive at that point.
The info:
“Do Trogs have both genders?
Unfortunately, there is no single external trait that distinguishes males from females across all 7,000 species of frogs. The reproductive organs of most frogs are located inside their bodies so you can't simply look for reproductive organs to tell apart males and females.”
Oh yeah, in the game Hyth's hair is a lot lighter, here in the pic what his colour really looked like in bright daylight. So a tone darker purple. Also, he didn't wear a braid, just a ponytail. And no eyeshadow underneath his eyes. And his hairline was more towards the middle. So on both sides more equal amounts of hair.
What my mind crossed when hearing the 2 talking. But my thoughts didn't come further than wait a minute
“Can a frog change its gender?
Frogs can change their sex even in pristine, pollution-free settings. Past research suggested that male-to-female sex changes happening in frogs in suburban ponds may be caused by increased levels of estrogen released into the water. They found more female frogs than males in suburban areas”
(added on 31st Dec: oh yeah I just hit Elpis with my Eli alt and saw Hyth's bright purple eyes. but the real one doesn't have purple eyes. iirc it was brownish. Went through many eye pics.
This colour the real Hyth has).
Full dream in dream section
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Dec 28th
Me: @Corvus I have a question Lahabrea never really came across to me as stubborn since he loves to help out on things with questions. From Emet yes I get that he is stubborn and finds it a useless question, but yesterday he showed he cared regarding my request. I haven't had a dream about any of them in the past 6 months so I asked my guide to ask Lahabrea and Emet to come into my dreams with whatever subject they want me to know (about 1 month ago), and I missed them. Lahabrea said in January, and from Emet, I gained a big fat NO. Yet, well I have to type the dream out. He and Hyth appeared in my dream yesterday night. You can read a tiny bit about it in the dream channel.
I wish TK could reply about how Lahabrea really is. She knows him best.
Corvus: Lahabrea never gives you a lip about helping? I can take a wild guess why, you're not a guy.
Me: could be
Ya know what I find absolutely hilarious in the game? So the value of mats is dropping significantly so I decided to make lvl 90 gather gear. But I never do without materia. But I had only bullshit materia left and didn't want to buy expensive ones. So I bought grade 8 and lower instead and pentamelded that. I call it bullshit melds. I sell them significantly cheaper than the correct ones and they sell very well for gathering gear lol
Cprvus: I mean, cheap materia or not, people still don't wanna go through the work of pentamelding
Me: XD That is probably the reason lol
Corvus: Besides, the perception and gathering differences between melding 9s and 10s versus 7s and 8s prob only matters for current patch rare collectables.
Me: Yeah as I often gain 1 max stats meld with lower materia anyway. I sell them for 500-750k depending on how well the composition is
Just sold pants for 700k lol
If it absolutely trash meld with lots of grade 4 and 5 I sell it for 400k (edited)
And somehow even that works
Corvus: People don't read XD
They see Penta, they click buy
Me: That's what my bestie said too
I mean even competitors selling penta meld which are done with grades 10 & 9 even undercut me. Like wtf. Pls, read you ass.
I even bought a good meld of shoes from them this way. And then they became suddenly aware. Well, 1 seller that is. Lol
Maybe it just looks good
Grasp was freaking cheap when I did the boots
Well for as long as I had grade 9 grasp lol
Here is one of 500k
The grade x came from spiritbond
Corvus: I mean hey, if they wanna just click buttons and not read, that's fine by me. Money is money.
Me: IKR
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Dec 29th
Dm’s with Jezzah
Jezzah:
Me: so you want the simple things in life. but looking at the trunk it's not very stable as a root/right part is sticking out of the ground. which would mean your life isn't/wasn't very stable. you want to go with the flow by looking at the leaves in the wind, but you're wobbly because of the unstable trunk. so it's hard to do so. yet you manage to hold on despite only having 1 part into the ground. perhaps more grounding would help you a lot.
it's funny that I could read in your tree what I already know lol
Jezzah: I read it, and yep, pretty much. Says stuff we both already know about myself
Me: yeah, it was funny i could read that out of the tree lol
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Group posts
Me: @Corvus can you draw me a tree? I had a practice in November to read someone's tree to pick up things about the person. I just did Jezzah's via DM. Sorry if it's a weird question. I just want to practice my skills
Corvus: No no you're fine, and sure! I'm lowkey garbage as an artist, but I'll give it my best shot here in a bit!
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Dec 30th
Me: Thanks! Doesn't need to be a piece of art, Jezzah's tree was very simple yet I was able to read it. Do what you think is right to create, but don't overthink it lol
Since it's past midnight here, I might read it (a few days) later.
Corvus: welp, here ya go! lmao did whatever came naturally and tried to stop before overdoing it
Me: Lol, I will read it later. Have a headache all day already.
double lol I am not even reading it yet, but are you aware you drew 7 branches? XD This is going to be a nice read when I get to it.
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@tk via dm
Me: Can you verify that for me if Lahabrea was with me during the healing training today?
I also asked him if he could help me in my dream to activate my glyph, as i never saw it in front of my face. He gave a surprised reaction i never was able to. He gave the implication to use my whole body/soul to activate and not just my head. Can you verify with him, if that was him?
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Dec 31st
Corvus: gdkahfksjd NO lmao that wasn't even intentional but that's funny.
Me: Good lol xD
@everyone Happy New Year!
(unfortunately, I forgot to read Corvus’s tree until the end of March…..)
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December dreams
Emet and Hyth
Twice even, but after the first time, I no longer knew what Hyth was saying. woke up went to the bathroom and went back to sleep. but the dream continued and they tried it again.
so Emet and Hyth in ancient robes. Hyth robes are also in black. we were somewhere that looked like a research area. something like Elpis. they got into a discussion about a toad.
Emet: it's female, the toad is female.
Hyth: preposterous, you can't say its gender is different from the one already assigned.
I was listening from a distance and thought for a split second that some toads are asexual, but the thought didn't get any further than wait a minute
Emet: it's female.
then those 2 walked to another place and they were now higher than me. I found out that at that moment I was Azem (not yet defector Azem). I didn't do much else with it. because I found out I was azem I partly missed the conversation of what Hyth said.
Hyth explained it again. but only half heard it. it was with more content/detail. he mentioned points on why gender could not be different
Emet: is it determined what is male and what is female?
Hyth: it never crossed our minds to do so.
Emet: sighed they need to do more research.
Hyth: I agree
then they made up with each other, with a hug.
Emet: and that's why you are my greatest friend (hugs)
Hyth: Your welcome
then the dream was about something else.