Jan 1st
Me: Made it to Elpis yesterday with my Eli alt. Goal achieved
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Jan 2nd
DM's with Corvus
Me: Hey Corvus I have a request if you don't mind.
Even though I already have an answer I want to check if others can get the same or similar answer. But Elidibus doesn't want me to outrightly say what it is. He said he will tell you what he is gonna do in the near future regarding me, to be with me more.
So I wonder if you can get the answer,......I want to collect as much as possible proof he is actually gonna do "that" as I can. He is not bothered by me asking about it. And he won't be bothered towards you either. Even though he is with me atm, you can still ask.
Corvus: Gotcha, I'll give it a shot and let you know what I hear!
Me: Awesome
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Jan 3rd
(dm’s continues)
Corvus: Hey, so I reached out last night. From what I gathered, it seems like the plan is to build a connection, an anchor, to someone near you?
[redacted for rest because Corvus discovered the secret of what Eli is doing]
Me: [redacted]
Corvus: Ohh HAHAHAHA that makes sense {redacted] Cheeky fker, he legit doesn't know yet XD
Me: oh that's what he said?! XD
Corvus: lmao I just thought he was being distant
YA KNOW, LIKE THEY ALWAYS ARE
but anyway, cool, same answer basically!
Me: awesome!
Corvus: Also, have you at all had a chance, or the time, to look over the tree sketch for your reading purposes?
Me: I wish I could atm. but I have my son over here for the entire school holidays and I can't focus even on my work. so be patient I won't forget it. On Jan 13th I have another psychic training class. I will do it right after that, and then I will be better in tune with the energies. I did Jezzah's one also after a training session. I get more out of it that way.
Corvus: Understood! No worries, take care of family stuff and yourself of course. I'll look forward to it then!
Me: TY! What were the exact lines Elidibus said to you? I like to have it as detailed as possible XD
Corvus: Uhhhh lemme think, cuz he specifically loves speaking in purple prose
Me: LOL. He never comes across like a Urianger 2.0 to me lol. but then again I can see him doing that XD
Corvus: Like I said "I was asked to appear before you to inquire of your machinations to improve relations with Ayane"
And he said something to the effect of "yes, good, I believe the answer you seek is one of inhabitation. Connection. Channeling. I seek a form in which I may enlighten our bond upon a much more [redacted] context."
"Ahh, okay. A host. Makes sense. So [redacted] it?"
"A query so ethereal as to ponder the nature of the bond itself. As you well know, love is nigh beyond us all to quantify. By what [redacted] shall I properly caress her cheek? Well young mind, by what [redacted] would such be possible? Surely, any [redacted] would do, for it is my intent, my emotion, my will that guides [redacted]."
"I, umm, okay. I think I comprehend what you're saying. Very well then, I think I have my answer."
"Indeed you do, young one."
"I take my leave then."
"Safe guidance on your return."
Something like that. Lmao he's definitely not "VERILY THEE MAYHAP NOT KNOWETH, THY NOOBLINESS" but still, always very wordy XD.
Me: OMGGGGGGGGG tysm for this
too bad he doesn't want me to write about it in my online journal yet. as he is afraid someone would misuse the situation. which I can understand. when he finally [redacted] I can post all of this secret info.
Corvus: Oof, yeah, that makes sense. [redacted]
Me: ikr. probably gonna be an entire chapter on its own when we finally get there.
My Ascian journey Book (insert number) year 20XX and the secret revealed. XD
Corvus: Hey, I'll be here when that day finally does come.
Me: XD I can't wait ya know. I can only pray for those "within 5 years" but that it will happen someday is the greatest gift of all.
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Jan 4th
Me: I just am so filled with joy that I cry from happiness. Tysm for doing this.
Corvus: Wait, for doing what? What did I do?
Me: Sharing this and typed out what he said
Corvus: Oh, lmao, well yeah! I mean, for one, you've been an immense help and guidance to me, and for two, what else would I do? Where else would I go, ya know? There aren't exactly many "churches" or institutions where I could ask questions and explore this knowledge or build these connections. We're in this together, ya?
Me: yos! I have a question, did you ever speak with Venat?
Corvus: Not that I'm aware, no. Haven't ever seen her present in any other consultations either. Should I?
Me: hmmmmmmm maybe XD. I want to know her connection to Amanda.
Corvus: Amanda?
Me: dude. Amanda Achen is the singer of Flow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow.
Corvus: Ahh. I wonder then if there's a connection at all.
Me: well you would be surprised how spiritual she is
Corvus: Then I guess the first question is whether Amanda is aware
Me: no she is not aware. but from that shroom trip I had in November Venat said she is in contact with her, mostly when Amanda sings.
not aware yet!
but how she speaks of Venat. is like she knows more but doesn’t show it
Corvus: Hmm, I suppose that makes sense. In her role as Hydaelyn, she's done what she can to motivate and inspire the masses from a distance, not moving too much in their lives but granting them the strength to move on their own. It would follow then that she would move through the voices and artists here to spread inspiration just the same.
Me: yes
Corvus: It could be that Venat channels through Amanda at moments, and Amanda can feel this but doesn't quite know exactly what it is
Me: yes I think so too
Corvus: In which case, if she's already speaking about Venat like she knows something, then she may grow aware without any other outside influence.
Me: yeah. I can't wait for her to enter EW (she is playing too). then she can read my books maybe then. but can you try to seek out Venat? I mean she is my mom, and I don't have memories of myself how I was as an ancient etc. I did gain a few glimpses with a shroom trip. about 2 memories from her about me and Eli. those were precious btw. but more than that I don't know, ask if she can share anything about me. Eli is willing to take you to her.
Cprvus: I can, yeah. I just don't know quite why I would be doing so. I mean, I'm sure she has her own preferences and rules, but I'm used to my interactions with the others: Laha, Eli, Emet, Hythlo, etc, in which they generally dislike talking unless I'm there with a very specific question and a valid reason for asking in the first place. I don't know if she's like that, but it's all I know. Plus, it'd be weird to ask for details about you and your life. I mean, that's you, ya know? Seems like it'd be more proper to hear the question from you.
Me: she is not like the others, quite the opposite actually. she likes to talk about anything that has your interest, so questions you may have about her or people close to her are fine. very curious and such. I mean she is very much like she is portrayed in the game. the reason I ask you is that I can't seek her out myself, I still can't astral travel/project, not even in dreams. only in a very rare occurrence during meditation and she is close by for any reason then I can get a short conversation. but the last time was in October or something.
Corvus: Gotcha, I'll see what I can do!
Me: tysm! if you can't find her. Eli can take you to her.
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Jan 5th
Corvus: HEY. I'M BACK. And hold on, this will take a sec cuz we talked about A LOT, but I took notes
So here we go.
So I found her at a place that Eli simply called "The Edge". I didn't really know what he meant, but if that's the place you want to find, you simply... find it... It's weird, but it seems like it's kinda that simple. Like, all roads lead there if that's where you want to go and you wander for long enough.
Anyway, HER. She welcomed me with a smile, something none of them have ever done. Already, it felt different. Nonetheless, I introduced myself like usual. "My name is Corvus, and I was sent to appear before you in corroboration and discourse with humble inquiries, that you might hear my plea."
She laughed. NONE OF THEM LAUGH. LIKE EVER. SHE LAUGHED. She laughed and just said, "come, sit with me. We have much to discuss."
She started with the place. "Look out on this horizon. What do you see?"
"I see emptiness. A shell of what once was, a home for what will be. A state of potential. Entropy. The unknown. Uncertainty."
"Ahh, ever the optimist, aren't you? A dreamer, just like her."
"Like Ayane?"
"Yes, my friend. I know why you've come. You're so formal. Speak to me as a friend. A peer. We are beings, lives, hearts, minds, wills. In that, we are the same, you and I. I am not your better. You belittle and distance yourself to address me as such."
"I'd say you must think highly of me."
"A joke! You're learning! See? I am a friend, nothing more, nothing less."
"Granted, and thank you. So you said I am like Ayane, and that we are both dreamers. Can I ask how you mean that?"
"Think. Why are you here? You reach for the stars and the souls beyond them to embrace life as it exists beyond your world. You seek more than the life around you. Your head is in the clouds. As is hers. Do not mistake me, I quite enjoy the company, and it warms me deeply to see her well, and see her seeking me, us, with such devotion, but I worry for you all. I fear you may dream so large, lift your heads so high, that you forget the ground you stand upon."
"You worry we'll forsake our lives on Earth in favor of chasing you and the Unsundered."
"I do. And with good reason!"
"That's fair. I can't lie, I worry my friends and family back home with how much time I spend 'sleeping' instead of doing something else."
"Do you feel more alive when you dream?"
"More... alive? I'm not sure. Maybe, I feel like I'm making more of myself? Accomplishing more? Being useful? Learning, reaching out, becoming more than just... what I am."
"Why are you unhappy with what you are?"
"Lots of reasons. Some chemical, some mental, some material."
"Tiny things. My child, you are the culmination of many worlds. You are the pinnacle of the energies of the universe. All of you are. Each life, each breath, each form, all an incredible blessing upon time and space. You stand capable of shaping futures for yourself and countless others simply by conjuring your thoughts and manifesting your emotions. You dream of gods and yet you walk with the power to make real all that any god could ever manage. Why ever would you feel inadequate?"
"I... never thought of it that way."
"Of course not! You dreamers, you concentrate so hard on your limits that you bind yourselves to them! You gaze in sadness at the height of your barriers and barricades that you lose sight of the paths around them! Hear! Feel! Think! It's not some silly mantra from a video game! You. Are. Real. You, a real mind, can shape reality. So do it! Dream, yes, I am not casting you away, but live! Breathe in the beautiful reality you exist in and breathe out your will to shape it! Bask in the majesty of nature and endeavor to shine it brighter! Live, my child, live!"
"Yes! I... I will. I will. But, that's... not why I'm here."
"Of course, yes. My darling phoenix, that's why."
"She wants to know more. About you, about herself, about how to reach out. She's... trying her hardest."
"Silly girl. I'm right there. I'm right next to her. I'm to her left, her right, front and back."
"I have never left her side. I'm always watching, pushing, speaking, consoling, smiling, laughing, crying. She is my pride, my joy, my sorrow, my triumph, my life. My love. There's nothing greater. You don't want children yourself, do you?"
"I don't, sorry."
"No apologies. At any rate, my phoenix. So eager to grow up. So eager to fly further. She tries to fly before she's learned to walk. You know yourself! She seeks outside aid to dull her reality to seek us. Seek me. I appreciate her fervor, I do. But my child, my sweet child, live. Live! You have so much more flame to burn than just being my light. She's more, Corvus. She's my child, yes, but she is more. She is, as you said, Ayane. She is a mother herself. A wife. A writer. A dreamer. She can move mountains and fill seas and yet she bullies her inability to dream far enough to see me. She dreams of Unsundered, yet is more real in her home than any of us. She had a fascination with flora, did she tell you? Ahh, the brilliant girl could nurse and spread beautiful amazing flowers, incredible massive trees, spiraling fruitful vines. She adored flora. She knows this too. Where is that force, that drive, that will, in her world?"
"I don't know. I truthfully don't know much about earthly Ayane. I have no clue if she does much gardening."
"She sent you to me without much to go on. And you appeared, nonetheless! You dreamers!"
"Yes, yes, I know... I'm sorry."
"No apologies!"
"I... You're not giving me many options here."
She laughed. Again. I still wasn't used to it. Honestly, I'm still not, even now.
"She knows more than she thinks. She can see it. She knows, my little phoenix. She sees it in her dreams. The life-giving flame. The comfort of warmth. She knows herself, she's simply unsure of what she knows."
"That's right... She's made a connection with uhh..."
"Aidenin, yes. She knows. They're coming together. Granted, they have lives of their own, hint hint!"
"Please, I mean no disrespect but you've made your point!"
She laughed. At this point, I just sorta figured she was teasing me. Like, she might be seriously actually talking to me like a friend. It finally made sense.
"I know I know, just making sure you listen. Anyway, yes. She's coming together. She knows it, she feels it, and despite knowing that this connection will open her eyes to so much more than she can already see, she still feels the need to rush headlong into it. She's always been like that, hasty and reckless. Truthfully, that might be my fault. I'm no role model in that particular issue."
"Is she in danger?"
"What? No, no. Goodness, you worry like I do!"
"I... I just don't want to see her hurt anymore. When I found her, she'd already been through hell. Hell at the hands of people she'd done nothing to. People who just want to hurt anyone and anything they see as different."
"You've a good heart. Watch over her, will you?"
"As best I can, of course."
"Good. If I had friends like you back then, maybe things would have been different."
"Well, I mean, if things had been different, I might not be here."
"Oh now you're teaching me?"
"Well no, I-"
"Oh relax! Again, my friend, I am just another mind! Another voice, same as yours!"
"One with a lot more experience shaping realities."
"So, time then? Time is why you won't look me in the eye?"
"I'm used to looking down. It's 'polite' or 'respectful of elders' or something."
"Now you're calling me old!"
"Ohh okay, everything I say is wrong now, are you making fun of me?"
"As a friend might?"
"...alright, point taken. No more formality stuff. Friends."
"Friends!"
"So then, back to Ayane. You said she's reckless, and that I should look after her. How? As far as our world goes, I'm on the other side of the planet."
"You have the will. Make it so. You care, do you not?"
"Well, yes. Of course."
"Then make it real. She will rise from the ashes just as she has done many times before. Alas, like all flames, and like all children, she requires tending to continue to sparkle. Her lover will cross the boundary to see her smile. What can you do to make sure that smile survives?"
"Well... good question."
"Find the answers."
"That would require less 'dreaming' and more 'living', I think."
"You're learning!"
"You're still making fun of me."
"Haha! Thank you for your time, my friend. Go. Live. Tell her. Tell my phoenix, my child, to live as well. Dream, yes, but do not lose sight of life for the dream. We are here, and we are there. I am there. I shall be there even when she cannot be here. Go with love and life in your hearts, my children. Shine, and make all things brighter. The world is more than you see. Make it so."
"Thank you. Thank you for your time, your words, and your guidance."
"Until next time?"
"Until next time. I know where to find you."
She waved, and I left. There was more. There was so much more than what I wrote here. I only had brief chances to write down keywords to remember everything she said. She's so different from anything I could have imagined. And she talked for hours. No way I could register it all. Still, though, I appreciated every second. It felt like that warm cozy feeling of talking to an extended family member, but in a cosmic way. Like a total stranger but at the same time a familiar face. She's just very very different.
Me: Told you xD. But my lover she meant Elidibus right? Wait is that the second reason for Eli to find {redacted] To help me live? I know I am not the most passionate person about life like she is because Earth doesn't really make it possible imo, corrupt governments, sheeple, I rather do not follow politics as it is not good for me to bother about it, yet my ex keep talking about the shit of the world and other topics I don't like, it's not really motivating as you can see. The reason I want to avoid all the negative shit in the world is because I get negative and frustrated from it. Trust me I tried to deal with it for years, but I just can't.
and I want to go home so badly.
Btw The Aidenin part was heartwarming because it is a confirmation of what I know is true.
Also, is this the reason I hardly dream about the Unsundered for the past 2 years? I did have a dream in December about Hyth and Emet. But the one before about Eli and me was in August. So there are huge breaks in between. And yes I like gardening to some extent, I like a bewildered garden yet with some maintenance to keep it manageable. My biological mom as well, she even asked to design her garden with the plants and trees I have lol. But I said it requires a lot of money together lol. I grew up with my mom being busy in the garden a lot, you would say I got it from her. But since Venat said it as well means my bio mom was there to help me get the soul trait out of it. And a fun fact about my dad, he is a big antique and art Deco lover (cough, Amaurot, cough) the antique I used to find it boring lol, but SHB changed that view. Also, I regret that I forsake the piano lessons I had as a young kid. Why You wonder? It was always during my break from school at noon. I couldn't play with friends, so I ran away once, well not far just the courtyard behind our house.
So my dad cancelled it.
I regret it now because I could have played "To the Edge" on piano and so many other songs of FFXIV. But then, if I did continue the lessons, would I ever start playing FFXIV? It was my ex who got me to play it. Unfortunately, as I tried to get back to play any instrument at All since SHB, it just didn't stick, I even have an ocarina! But I somehow forgot and kept forgetting to practice as the motivation was completely gone. I have so many other things in life that it even leaves little room for me to practice spiritual abilities. So I am glad my "voiceless" communication by feelings evolves without needing meditation, the only downside is that I can't pick up details of what is being said.
She didn't really say anything about Elidibus? I mean we were half-brother and sister. Did she say anything about us 2 at all? She knows and knows about Quilitus and Sakunik as well (children of Eli and me)
Also, I remember last night she wasn't close by. As I tried to connect myself but no response to "hear feel think". Would explain why you needed to travel.
The whole reason I sent Forth my guide is to pass on the message for the conversation.
One thing that left me wondering, from what I know is that I became one with Lahabrea's phoenix around my (ancient) teenage years, and that became my transformation as far as I know. the trying to fly before I could walk was a thing that made me giggle lol. I am like that, somewhat reckless and throwing myself into things I know nothing about and just do it. Well, not everything worked out lol, but things I appeared good at did stick.
I guess you didn't ask why the others are like you experience them? Because I don't experience them as that lol and TK probably would say the same as I do. Maybe because we are women? Tbh it shouldn't make a difference imo. Maybe it's because of how you view yourself or how you view them? Have you thought of that? I treat them, as I would do with dear friends you could say. Except Eli obviously, he is more lol. Maybe my view is easier to deal with because I was/am an Azem member as well. That we are more equals? Idk, TK isn't a Convo member, yet Lahabrea is the same with her as he is with me. So I really wonder if it's your attitude towards them, That made them reply as they do with you. They are people too, and made huge mistakes. They don't consider themselves as high and mighty. They are wise yes, and know more than our Earth selves do, but they don't want to be treated as all-knowing oracles. Listen to Venat and see how they reply the next time!
I hope any of the points I mentioned triggered something to remember what you might have forgotten.
Also, I would like to add, about me being a dreamer. Maybe it was more about you lol. I wish I could sleep for longer periods, as I need lots of supplements to even be able to sleep, Research on my insomnia is going on. But man I wish I could sleep more to be in the dream world. As I do feel more alive over there. Which is normal, as we are our true selves in that world and the astral. As they say, physical life is just a simulation. Our real selves are up there ya know.
So far I know I am decently grounded. Maybe not perfectly as I rarely do any exercise on that lol. Well, I must say that when I got my triggered Awakening 4 years ago I was a dreamer definitely. But eventually found a balance in it later on.
Look at me writing almost half of what you did as a reply, A long story requires long replies lol.
ol I come online, and you start typing. this isn't the first time lol XD
Corvus: I just woke up lol. I think what she meant by "dreamers" is that we're similar in that our "heads are in the clouds". Gardening, piano, ocarina, there's a bunch of things you've just lost motivation for, ya? Same here. I used to play guitar. I used to sing. I used to study and explore marine life. I used to write long stories and imagine incredible worlds. All of that I don't do much anymore. I've just lost motivation or I tell myself I don't have time.
I think that's what she means. She said, "Live". Experience life. Dance, sing, play instruments, grow flowers, laugh, love, enjoy being human. And yeah, I'm right there with you on politics and government and the other awful things happening all over the world. It sucks. It's depressing. I guess she just wants us to find happiness here no matter all that stuff? Or, "make it so" despite all that? Make ourselves happy even in a sad world, cuz there's beautiful stuff in this sad world?
Idk. That's kinda what I understood from it. I don't think "dreamer" meant we spend too much time asleep, just that we don't spend enough time looking at what's here, on Earth, in front of us and around us.
Me: ow lol. (waking up part). but the lover she mentioned was Elidibus I hope? and not my ex?
Corvus: Oh yeah definitely, she mentioned your lover crossing dimensions to be closer with you, lmao that's 1000% Eli
Me: wait did I miss that line? XD
Anyways, Elidibus is a son of her as well. we just had different fathers. did she mention anything about Elidibus being her son originally? (well still is)
Corvus: the beginning of my 5th recap message :D
Me: you didn't say dimensions lol i guess that's why it went over my head
Corvus: (replying to if Venat said anything about Eli being her son) And I don't think so? Maybe. I'm not sure. She kinda referred to nearly everyone we talked about, myself included, as children, her children, etc etc.
Me: so far I know and have seen the 2 memories of her, she shared with me in Nov during the shroom trip. we were born as brother and sister at that time, Eli confirms. To make that memory undeniable, when I was born, she held me while sitting in the bed (and really saw it as she was seeing it, like an echo vision). I was wrapped up in sheets and toddler Eli grabbed my tiny baby hand and a heart sparkled around our hands. the second memory was when we were a few years older. Eli and I fired fireworks like magic around us. in a very cheerful way.
Corvus: Makes sense, yeah. She kept calling you her Phoenix. Tons of flame and fire imagery. So you were a tiny sparkmage back then too I guess.
Me: XD. But as I said earlier; from what I know I became the phoenix in my teenage years. by melting/fusing with Lahabrea's creation. and that became my transformation. maybe there is more to it? these are questions that were left unanswered or couldn't figure out myself.
Corvus: I wonder if that's a question for Laha himself? She didn't seem to speak like you "became" a Phoenix, more that you sorta always were. Did Laha's creation cause the transformation, or just cause the spark needed to help you grow into what you were always meant to be?
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little note here: at this point, I had completely forgotten that that is exactly what Venat said to me during that shroom trip.
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Me: OHHHHHHH good one. can you ask him? pls?
Corvus: I can, yeah! That'll give me a chance to see if you're right, and if they're treating me differently because it's me, because I'M treating THEM differently. If they're short with me because I'm putting them on pedestals and not "looking them in the eye", as Venat put it.
That one might take a while though. I'm packing for a trip out of town, so I won't have the chance to slip away and dive into them for a day or two
Me: ah ok. So Sunday or Monday you are back?
Corvus: I might actually be back Saturday night. I'll have to talk to my wife about how long we're staying.
Me: ah ok no problem thanks for letting me know.
Corvus: Yeah! And I'll obviously still have my phone and be able to keep in touch and stuff, I just won't have the privacy to dive. So like I have no reason to be silent, I just won't have an answer to that question for a moment, that's all. :D
Me: no problem at least you mention when you are back. so I won't need to ask twice lol.
Corvus: Yeah! Again... I'm sorry about this past half a year.
Me: ty for the apology, I appreciate that. let's just hope it will never be needed again to shut yourself off especially so suddenly. My god, I was like. "no not again....'
Corvus: Right right of course! I feel the same way! I told Venat the same, I don't want to see you hurt, and I definitely DEFINITELY don't want to be the cause of it. Nah, I'm absolutely not disappearing like that again, not if I have any say in the matter.
Me: TY! Oh 1 more thing. that you can add to the question but for Emet! I know that somewhere after the ordeal with Laha's creation, Emet-selch gave me my "Convocation" crystal while the Azem seat was still taken by (defector) Azem. according to Eli, this was After Elpis (meaning Eli was 18yo and recently joined the Convocation and I was 15), what were the reasons for giving me one early on? I always believed it was early decided if something would happen to the current one I would get the seat of Azem. I have a feeling that there is more to it?
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DM's with TK
Me: TK!!!!! I see now why you linked the stuff from Terapagos about the ancients. the ancients in Pokemon are huge too! I just started watching Horizons again. and is this episode https://animeepisodeseries.com/Pokemon-horizons-the-series-episode-11-english-subbed/
there is a ginormous Arboliva with an ancient Pokeball on it, just like where the black Rayquaza came from.
and if in episode 12 what they see is an ancient they wear robes too. Eli said they tried getting a hand into Pokemon but didn't really come fully through. is this true? would explain the character Amethio a lot. like teenager Emet lol.
but why that ancient adventurer was only a century ago I am clueless. that's not ancient imo. iirc the Hisui is older.
(she didn't reply until the 7th)
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Jan 6th
Jezzah: Sooooo, um. there's been an interesting development. I started up my magic and meditations again and weeellll. my hair is turning red. I'm back to being strawberry blond and it turns a nice light orange after I shower I also got a backflow incense burner and a metal feather stick incense burner and I feel a huge change in my energies and I am just.....wow. I ALSO GOT SOME NEW NECKLACES AND CLOTHES.
I need to get some books and runes at Castle Brooks, which is a mom-and-pop store for witches. we have so many occult stores here
Me: Why do we have the same hair colour?! I am Originally strawberry blond too! But very awesome that you are picking up things again.
Btw Corvus is very good at communicating with any of the ancients btw, or let's say, he can just go poof offline and talk to any of them. and with Venat he learned a lot from her. Probably also how to talk to the rest properly. As a test, He is gonna ask Lahabrea some questions about me and how that went with me merging with his creation etc.
@Corvus if you want to explain to Jezzah how you used to communicate feel free to share.
Corvus: Can explain, tldr basically astral projection, more detail later, driving
Me: No prob!
Corvus: Ok sorry, am parked for the moment. But yeah, in a nutshell, I just trained to be able to find a safe and quiet place, enter a meditative state, and in closed-eyed silence, seek the boundary. For me, it appears as a thin purple line on the horizon. Mentally, reaching for the boundary gives me the leverage to step out of my physical self. It almost feels like standing still and letting a large backpack just slip off your shoulders. Once my physical self is left behind, it sleeps and I wander freely, off to meet with whomever I'm supposed to, or look for whatever I mean to find. I'm not even entirely sure where I am once I cross the boundary. It seems like a realm between. Regardless, from that place, I can find almost anything if I know how to look for it, and I have strong enough will to do so.
Me: That's so awesome. I never was able to leave my body just like that. I am even having trouble going into a deep trance.
Jezzah: Oh, I do that, that's how I get to sleep but I cannot control where I end up. I get thrown into different worlds and realities. Idk if Aya mentioned how I used to communicate. I just let them come into my mind and I visualize a space for us. I am very active. Like a conduit.
Idk how to better explain it. Brb que popped
Corvus: Interesting! So my method has me go to them, and yours has them come to you! I swear, one of these days, a method will click with you Ayane. You'll find a way that feels natural, makes sense, feels comfortable, and of course, works.
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Jan 7th
Me: (replying to Jezzah) I have the same problem if it happens spontaneously, like right before falling asleep I roll literally out of my body. But I also immediately land in the dream world as soon as I leave my home. And if I try to get where I want to. I just can't, I tried travelling to space. And I eventually bombarded back to the surface. Even if I can control where to go sort of, the road or access is blocked like an invisible wall and got warped back to where I started. Or I will never find the one looking for, in this case, the unsundered.
Jezzah: (replying to Corvus) Yes, but I must be awake for the communication to work. I am most powerful when I am conscious.
Me: doesn't your own mind get in the way that way?' like influencing the things you get through.
Jezzah: Nope, no thoughts head empty. I go into a trance-like state that I am still somewhat conscious within. Kind of like a Spiritual Radio Or something.
Me: Ohhhhhh nice
Jezzah: The only thing I really do is provide them a space within my mind to communicate properly with me. And through me. That's probably why I can visualize them so well
Me: That's separate from it. I can channel Eli through me as well by letting him speak through me. but I am terrible at visualization.
Jezzah: Well, it's hard to explain. It's like I make a separate pocket dimension in my head.
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DM's with Corvus
Me: are you awake? did you succeed? Or not?
Corvus: Hi! Yes! Sorry lmao I was up kinda of late last night grabbing details from the JP fan fest lmao
But yes. I have answers.
So with Lahabrea, and his creation. I asked about the fusion, the phoenix emerging, and what caused what, or if the Phoenix was always destined to happen. Lahabrea basically said this:
"This depends on how you view destiny. By my account, nothing I have ever done has caused an event to occur that was against the flow of fate. She was always the Phoenix, I was simply always meant to play my part in the process. Now, if you wish to examine the biological mechanisms at work, then the more detailed truth is that the data offered to her by my creation offered accelerated adaptation to already existing traits. The girl played in fire long before she touched the beast. Consider the fusion to be like becoming equipped with a new wardrobe, one that will not burn as she practices. It adjusted her, a bit forcefully, to her tendencies. Still though, it did not make her a Phoenix. A Phoenix, she already was."
Which is what we figured, right? That made sense. From there I went to Emet to ask about the bestowed crystal of Azem.
"Ahh, yes. I knew this would come up. Is it so troubling of me to simply wish to keep the seat warm?"
I asked "keep it warm? So the seat was officially passed to her then?"
"Well, yes. No. Not really. But yes. It's complicated. The seats themselves embody concepts of necessary roles. The seat of Azem was always a peculiar one though. Why have a seat when the holder never ends up sitting there? The role gets played when it's called on, but it's not called upon nearly enough to be often. It cannot be empty though. It cannot be discontinued either. But at the time, the name was lost. So what to do with the seat? Well, we knew who it would pass to. We knew the next holder. So why not? Why not pass the crystal? It would keep the holder in our minds' eyes, and keep the seat warm. She does not need to be sitting in a room with us to be Azem."
Me: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
omg, finally real confirmation.
Corvus: I tried to press further, but Emet was clearly dancing around the topic. It was different though. I could see it. These questions, the answers, they hurt him. I could visibly see the pain on his face. There's more to it, but he really REALLY doesn't want to say. It scared me. I didn't dig anymore. Something happened back then. I don't know what, but it's enough to make the most calm, sarcastic, logical, collected, composed Unsundered actual show winces of pain thinking about it.
So for now, I just let it go with the answer "I gave it to her early because why not. Someone might as well hold it, and she was gonna hold it eventually anyway."
Me: I ever asked Jezzah to ask Emet about if he knew anything about what we asked Lahabrea just now. it could be that Jezzah had her imagination running wild. but she said, "It was a shit show" (Emet's words). well, I had my big doubt on that one, that it was a shitshow. but considering there is something that was indeed a shit show regarding me, I really wonder now what would he have said.
um, how far did you read everything on the online journal? I was a student from Emet as well before I became Azem.
Corvus: I'm unfortunately super behind with the journal that's something I'll have to catch up on
Me: ah. what did Emet say when he was dancing around the topic? I am good at figuring out lol, well mostly.
Corvus: On you being a previous student? Nothing actually, he just said that they clearly knew who would next hold the seat of Azem. Idk when they decided they knew that or what.
Me: this does mean there were 2 Azem crystals at some point. because I gained a crystal from him, while the seat was still taken. who also had a crystal.
and did Venat's advice work?
Corvus: I guess that raises another question. Did the previous holder even have the crystal? Is the one bestowed to you a new one or theirs?
Me: I have seen my crystal in a dream. hold on I got art of it.
Corvus: OH! And Venat's advice on approaching them differently! LMAO Laha gave me hell about it. "Oh look who thinks they're somebody now! Where did that old politeness go? A few seconds with Venat and now you're our equal?"
"Was I not your equal before Venat spoke to me?"
"Were you? Don't ask me, child."
"I was."
"Hmph. Good. Correct. So you can learn."
And I laughed and moved on with my questions.
Me: ooooffffffff man XD
Corvus: (replying to the crystal) That's the old one. I don't know why, I don't know how I know that I don't know why I think that, I just look at it and immediately my head says "That's not new. That's old. That constellation is old. That's the defector's crystal. That crystal tells the story of its previous holder. That's not a blank new clean slate. That's old."
Me: no it's a type of rock carnelian or something it has red v
eins
it's not cracked
Corvus: No no, not the rock itself, the constellation embedded in it
The symbology
All of those crystals have knowledge written in the constellation
Me: but who held the one with the sun on it then?
Corvus: It's the same. That crystal might have shown the sun at one point, but as the story of the holder progressed, as fate ran its course, as things happened, the stars in the crystal, the dots and lines, they shifted, and the crystal tells that story of how things changed over time.
Me: I am really confused at the fact, who held which crystal now.
so the one I saw was when I already was Azem
from what I know is that my stone didn't survive the sundering and only the one we know from the game survived
Corvus: Well hold on, cuz there's a different question there, and that's "when did the symbology change". Sure, we know it showed a different symbol before you had it, but did it change in your hands? Did it change in theirs? Did it change while Emet was holding it before giving it to you?
Me: ok let me put things in order from what I know from it.
from what I know is that I gained the convocation crystal from Emet early on. but the successor of Venat was still holding the seat. from what I know is that the "successor'"(later defector) at that time had their own crystal, the one we know from the game. Eli keeps saying yes to it, we both had our own crystals and the defector had the one from the game's image.
Corvus: So there are two then... That's weird though... Why do I look at it and it just immediately tells me it's the same one? I don't know...
Me: that's indeed weird.
can you ask Emet about it? or any other member?
Corvus: Definitely. I want to know why I think anything at all just looking at it. Certainly why THAT's what I see.
Me: yeah. and from what I know my stone didn't survive the sundering as I said earlier. and it got forgotten while they were Ascians.......
I can only hope in the future in-game for a vague mention of a vacant Azem seat filler lol. and 1 of them mentioned me vaguely to WoL: "oh btw did you know there was a seat filler taking your place as Azem?" XD that would be nice.
but let's keep to the subject at hand. what is the truth of the Azem crystals? I must say, knowing now I was always a phoenix. this confirms from what I know about the face glyphs, that they are personal and not bounded by the seat as the game says they are. In fact, everyone had a glyph, not just convocation members.
it's like the cutie mark of my little pony lol (Eli laughing at this) I mean Jezzah had a glyph as well so yeah.
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DM's with TK
Fan Fest talk (she messages all of this mostly when I was asleep.)
TK: Wow to the one area.... I swear I've had a dream in that place
Also on Pokemon, in the game, it's a different time length.
OH MY GOD
WE ARE GOING TO OTHER PLANETS
“Expansive new "lifestyle content" will be launched in Dawntrail. The team has a concept artwork to show. Pictured are characters on "different planets." It's not just one, but "a bunch."
Alright alright alright I'm like half screaming after that one some things I thought about we getting... And Lahabrea laughing at me tbh lol
Feel like he had a hand in them getting a pictomancer job
Also, we are getting Beastmaster ... Meaning we are getting Pokemon in xiv lol
also, the 8-man is interesting
Me: Oh omg to other planets that's what we predicted! And what more were you screaming at?
Please tell me about that dream!
What is the 8-man? I mean Fan Fest was at 2am for me so I slept
What is the different time length?
Also. Did Lahabrea or any of the unsundered tried to get a hand into Pokemon?????
omg, I have just started watching Fan Fest on YT, and that high-tech city is like what the hell. John was right Etheirys has highly advanced technology
TK: Sorry fell asleep, we had a snowstorm and trying to get home last night after the keynotes for Dawntrail were shown (I was at work office still while watching it) was really frustrating.
The 8-man raid we don't know much about but I thought that one of the buildings in the back had an ancient glyph on it. It's like... Futuristic
The one place they showed off seems to be pulling things from other timelines/universes (they have what seems to be a sort of Stargate? They have a steam train and a lot of other weird stuff) and is constantly in a storm (kinda like the one area in FF10). I've had a dream in a similar place before.
In the game, it's like Terapagos crashed into the Great Crater thousands of years ago and that's when the ancients saw it. I have to look up the time but it's definitely more than what the anime is saying. Also, you said some other time about Hissui, it's actually not that far into the past, it's maybe the 1800s if you base it on our time.
Lahabrea says yes, though they still try to get ideas into it, much like the legendary lore and such.
Me: yes yes, Eli replied "yes" when I asked if any of them tried to get a hand into Pokemon, tysm for confirming! funny considering the paradox Pokemon. and FFXIV is doing somewhat similar it seems now. I know Hisui was like 200 years ago. So it is odd the ancient story in the anime is only 100. but maybe it gets a twist that the story of the ancient adventurer is originally way older.
but what were the other things you screamed about? XD
TK: Well the city for one. I don't think that was something they'd do, have a city like that that looks like that. I had a thought that this civilization near Tural were people that knew about the ancients or had access to pieces of Etherys before it got sundered (like how there are pieces of stuff in the First in the Tempest and that one dungeon). I had that thought when looking at the lore book as well, they make an off-hand remark to possibly more stuff being still around. They removed a lot of things in the back to show off the area so there's stuff we don't know still lol
I was screaming personally at Pictomancer because I was right about guessing it lol. Because of Krile.
Me: or nice! about the other planets. Eli says it's Terraforming other stars
TK: That's what they kinda said
Also, that's what it looks like in the artwork.
Me: yeah, but a lot of people were like "housing" all over lol.
TK: Nah. Feels like it's terraforming and helping set up other planets and they said they give you one then more later.
Me: not sure if that's an Ascian glyph though.
TK: I looked at a glance last night so I wasn't sure
Me: yeah many people said it is Altima's glyph flipped. but the real glyph from her looks different Eli says.
TK: Also next Ultimate is Eden
Me: O-O
TK: Yeah lol
https://vxtwitter.com/Nova_Crystallis/status/1743820375962566858?s=19 This made me laugh about Beastmaster, just say it's your version of Pokemon lol
text from a tweet: “With Beastmaster, there will be some sort of collection aspect. Once they have art and more to show, they'll show it.”
Me: XDXDXDXD
also Radeon
8 man raid
graphic cards
TK: My one friend made it sound like it's an arcade lol
Arcadion
Me: that one on the top.....
TK: Interested in the girl on top...
Yeah
Me: I just got at the Dawntrail poster. That girl though at the top. is like the indication of an important story character
TK: I know cause Ryne was there in ShB and Venat was there for EW.
Me: yeah exactly
there was no mention of how the scions are gonna be divided? people on Twitter say the twins are together. but it was never mentioned?
TK: They have been vague.
Someone said that possibly we're with Thancred, Urianger and Krile and not the others cause they aren't on the poster.
Me: oh
TK: Personally I think either of the twins will be with us. Doubt Alisaie would agree with Alphy on something right away lmao
Me: Eli said the twins would be divided too.
TK: They have been vague so it's possible the poster is just showing some of them and not all. Also feel like Y'shtola will have a lot considering she's still researching stuff with shard travel.
Me: yeah.
TK: Solution Nine is Zidane's limit break in Dissidia. If we are using FF9 parallels this city could possibly be trying to artificially combine the ninth shard with the source somehow. The one plot of 9 is about another planet was dying and is trying to combine with the earth there.
Me: OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
so it could still be Altima/Deudaplon doing that
or did.
TK: Could be, possible they could have a connection to the civilization there.
Me: yeah
TK: Heritage Found (the other area) also feels a lot like the place that gets created when the two worlds are trying to combine, though there's no tree lol.
Me: ohhhh
interesting
so the high tech comes from the shard maybe?
TK: Possibly. That was my theory before
Because it looks like they are pulling from some sort of gate
Though the lightning I'm not sure, the 12th shard was the one that was lightning.
Me:hmmmmmmm
TK: The technology is either them taking it, this is another shard and there's just a huge portal that connects it with the Source, or some Ancient things got left over from the Sundering and they used it for this place (with possibly a sundered Ascian helping them who found out about who they were from one of the three)
Hertage Found has some Garlamald-looking things but not entirely.
Me: awesome theories.
TK: Ty lol
Makes me wonder how the Calamity and the Final Days affected them though, if at all (Tural in general)
Calamity was probably just Eorzea mostly but no way the Final Days wasn't everywhere else lol
Me: true!
does Lahabrea have anything to say on everything? or about the lore book? anything he said lately that you haven't shared?
TK: Ummm gotta think all about lol and write down
Me: pls?
I mean you hardly had anything shared in the past 6 months. so if it ain't too much trouble to give an update. pls do. oh I didn't want to overwhelm you and grow silent again......sorry
TK: No. You are good. I just need time to get it all down
Me: but you will?
TK: yeah
A few hours later I posted this to her
Me: The original concept art of Zodiark. This is how Zodiark looked like when Elidibus was his heart well most of it, so more human-like. Zodiark became the beast version when he removed himself.
Me: Corvus got an answer from Lahabrea about me who merged with his creation. Lahabrea said this
(I copypasted what he wrote) he also had a talk with Venat a few days ago, and she called me her little phoenix. so that was the reason to asked Lahabrea about my phoenix transformation.
TK: Have to leave for work but I got some written up. I will finish it when I'm home. Will probably post it when you're asleep but you'll have it.
Me: TYSM! do you have a reply for the phoenix thing above with it too?
TK: I can ask with The other stuff to post
Me: ok ty!
Text of tweet: "So we're just ignoring and moving on from the very clear crack in the planet? Cool"
Me: that explains the bridge
otherwise you would go by boat right?
but nonetheless, that crack is very interesting wonder what lore it will be.
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Jan 8th
DM's with TK
Text of tweets: For those curious, here's a more modern version of Zidane's Solution 9 Dyne ability (Limit Break)
Solution 9 is being used as the name of a new hub city in FFXIV. I'd also like to point out the importance of the concept of planets and "soulless" artificial beings in FFIX's story.
Reply: “Ah, soulless artificial beings, huh? Makes that image with the board text translated "Employment" and "Soul Supply" make more sense.”
TK: I didn't have like a super amount but I was really busy today with stuff and didn't have quite enough time to type stuff up, so here you go.
Dreams:
I always usually remember my dreams every night but haven't had too many XIV/ancients related, though there were a few.
I had two separate dreams that I essicently went to a place that looks extremely similar to that Solution Nine area they just showed off (that's why I said I screamed at that part). Not too much really happened in the one. The second one was essicently one that Lahabrea hung out with me and was talking about stuff, unfortunately, I don't remember that much of what he said there >_<.
Another dream was that I was in some sort of town, not sure where it was. Got invited to some sort of play (I'm gonna be honest, I don't remember it lol). Then all of a sudden (like it felt like I jumped bodies) I was somewhere else, but I was still apparently some type of myself. This "version" I guess of myself was in a different place and was trying to figure out what was going on where they were at, as there seemed to be some kidnappings and weird sightings of either a monster or aliens going on. This body-swapping kept happening until something happened to the first one I was and now the second one had to figure out what happened with the first along with everything else. Lahabrea was in this dream eventually trying to help with stuff. I don't really remember how this one ended.
The final one was just a simple discussion with what seemed to be a dragon about the stuff that I asked Lahabrea about with the dragons wanting to help and possibly space travel. This dragon said that they do try to help with stuff on Earth with the three but usually work independently and just want to help people or see what's going on.
Stuff with Lahabrea:
-He said that the one part in the lore book was important that talked about other things that could exist on the Source/other shards that were part of the unsundered world, and about that proto-language. Which the language part seems to be used in Solution Nine's signs (which one asks about soul supply???)
After Fanfest's keynote, he said Altima has something to do with that 8 man raid, but he won't tell me more.
Also yes he helped you with that training the one day (the one on Dec 30th)
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Here I shared all of Corvus’s astral travel with Venat etc.
Me: you can read now. Make sure to click on the picture to see it in full lol.
Zio: Ah...lots to read
Me: Yes sorry, but it's very interesting.
Jezzah: That's a loooot to read.
Zio: It's fine! It is interesting. Just finished reading.
Me: Wait everything already?
Jezzah: I can get to it when I am in the bath later, think Zio is a Speed Reader.
Zio: Ffff I'm a reader so yes, speed reader
Me: Ahhhhhh
Zio: That's amazing, honestly.
Me: IKR!
Zio: I'm gonna try to be around more soon, still getting things settled with the new dog (it has been...an experience)...But I've been trying to find ways to get back into meditation too, a lot more focus on myself.
Me: Sounds very promising. Would be very nice to have you back. The group has been silent for way too long!
Zio: Been slowly working with the Gateway tapes? Which, are baby steps, but it's something to put all my focus on.
Me: I tried those well, well YT rip-offs. I do not respond to waves sadly. Not even a direct device upon my head works. Wasted my money on that. That doesn't mean the device doesn't work but I just don't respond to it. It was a Mind-to-Mind system made by the Museum of Tarot website.
Zio: Yeah I'm not using YouTube videos, I'm using these specific files from Google Drive.
Me: Can you share them?
Zio: Aaah yeah. Let me get the link.
Me: Awesome
Me: Ty!
Zio: I'm only on the second file of Wave One
You're supposed to slowly work through it and get comfortable with one step then move on.
I did the Orientation three times before moving to Intro to Focus 10
Me: Yeah with YT ones I was already like wave 4 or something, but I just couldn't get out of my body.
Zio: Yeah that's not how you're supposed to do the program. At least not the advice I read. But then everyone works differently.
Me: I hope these direct files will do something I hope.
Zio: Doesn't hurt to try
Me: I will try tomorrow night. Now it's like 1:30am for me lol
Zio: Good idea fff, I am just gonna slowly work through wave 1 and hope Nabriales gives me a hand. My life is unfortunately a mess and I just gotta be easy on myself. I get frustrated and set myself back
Me: I also ask Eli to help me meditate if he is around. It usually gets me deeper. Which is nice. And Yeah I understand. Ty for the files. I gonna go to sleep now.
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Jan 9th
Dms with TK
Me: Ty! And um what I shared that Corvus talked with Lahabrea. Did he confirm it was him?
I mean what Lahabrea told him is that is me as a little kid in this life as well lol and I never told Corvus About that. Playing with candle fire and wax. So it's etched upon my soul lol.
We are going to other planets in msq! Probably after 7.0
TK: Umm I read. that but what does that have to do with what you asked me?
I'm sorry I'm a little confused.
Me: Yes I shared this (Laha phoenix stuff from Corvus). And then I asked if you could ask that too. And you said I can add that.
TK: oh. I'll ask him about that I did forget
that was my fault
also found an interesting thing Yoshi P said at the Fanfest
text of tweet: “Yoshi-P: We really doesn’t want to increase the members of the Scions, we’ll have to create so much more situations, including different reactions, etc. So instead of having all Scions join you at the same time, we might want to put some Scions in other locations or planets…”
sending some of the Scions to other planets
Me: Lol I shared the same link xD
But yeah. So we were still right. Iirc wasn't that already a topic we came to know end shb? When the moon was announced? Or was it even sooner?
TK: not sure.
Me: No problem if I start with my journal again I can check the manuscript of my books.
I predict this divided Scions party lol. and Krile with Estinien.
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Group posts
Me: OK wtf @Zio despite my phone stopping the audio after 10 min I was able to get in the desired state of focus 10. Well, I think....but at 10min the audio stopped(stupid phone). But I continued in this trance state to seek a connection with Venat. But that didn't work. But I had a quick connection with Zero! I asked if she was a shard of the WoL. And I received a yes. I asked if she could visit my dreams to show me more of the 13th. She said she can. But then the connection was lost. The next one was Yshtola?! But she preferred to be named Matoya somehow,
Me: cat Matoya
She wasn't too fond of calling her cat Matoya lol
So I apologized and said that I said that to keep the 2 apart.
Y: the older one has died and I took her name.
I had to ask about her health (in case she was alive as such) mainly because of her blindness. She seemed to be ok "decent" she said. Thus came the question if people from Etheirys know about Earth having Etheirys's story in a game. And gained "they know" as an answer. (Probably Sharlayan and any scions-related groups)
Me: so you are alive
Y: yes
Me: how did you connect with me?
Y: because you reached out.
Me: I did?
I believe she giggled here iirc.
Too bad I miss a tiny part here. I asked something and she replied, "We all are aliens".
I thanked her for connecting and said goodbye. I believe I saw a glimpse of her walking off with the utmost sass lol. While waving.
Then I tried eli, but he was busy.
Then I asked about any of the convocation.
Emet: can I be of service?
Me: Emet?
Emet: yes.
Me: oh were really 2 Azem stones? 1 for me and 1 at that time for the defector?
Emet: yes they are. (Or something like that)
Iirc he left after that or I lost connection.
I tried Venat 1 more time. But too far away I guess.
Then after a while, I decided to quit and go to sleep but first typing this up.
Zio: Oooh even though it cut out. That's awesome!
Jezzah: I've been getting too distracted. I finished ARR on my alt
Me: Tbh I was distracted yesterday as well, too tired for work. But worked on my Eli alt. In the end noon till bedtime (from Elpis dungeon to Aitiascope unlock) but if it isn't too late like past midnight I still meditate.
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Dm’s with Jezzah
Me: The phoenix thing since Venat shared that info, is swarming inside my head. How old is the legend of the phoenix on Earth?????
Jezzah: Uh.....I will have to look that up
Me: I gonna ask my mentor as well if Dolores Cannon shared anything about that.
Jezzah: I have been thinking though. Remember when I talked about my origins? How I imagined a city in the air and people with wings? Was I....a creation? Did I come from Elpis?
It's been on my mind since going to Elpis
Me: That I wondered myself when I first saw meteion.....but definitely not 1 of those at least. I wonder more if we are still gonna see those, maybe after Dawntrail????? Maybe it became a beast tribe after the sundering
Jezzah: Maybe, if I was a secret creation of Emet
A vain attempt to recreate his relationship with Azem
Me: But why the wings then IF that is the case.
Jezzah: Creation magick usually takes the form of the caster's thoughts. Azem is always flirting to and from so maybe a wayward thought of travel, flitting, or something
Me: lol
Jezzah: As in what a bird does between trees
Me: Ahh maybe. Though from what I remember, you said you and Emet were childhood friends right?
Jezzah: Maybe I was wrong
New things are coming into play here
I love how we were right about A LOT of things in Endwalker
Me: Ikr! But what about your origin. That you had a glyph and such, and had an ancient in the family where you got it from and such. Creations can't have glyphs
Jezzah: This is true
I have a lot of meditation to do regarding this.
Me: Do that!
(15h later)
Me:
Jezzah: I hate his haircut but his face is still beautiful
Me: When the Elpis flowers were being cast
I was smacking that button lol
Jezzah: XD
Me: I captured that
Jezzah: EMET!!!!!!! (NSFW warning here)
I think I just unlocked a very.....spicy memory with those fingers
Oooooh boy, I'm horny
Me: OMG Jesus
Jezzah: HE IS VERY VERY GOOD WITH THOSE FINGERS O.O
Me: uhu too much detail XD nonetheless Eli is good too XD
Jezzah: You unlocked something in me (END NSFW)
Me: hahahahhaha
Jezzah: I guess I was right we were childhood friends. I'm just another inhabitant of Etheirys
A species that no longer exists. Extinct in the final days. Before the sundering
Me: so like you also died during the final days? or later with the sundering?
Jezzah: ...AYA WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO ME
Me: I send screenshots. that's what I did XD
Jezzah: Final Days, complications from fire. Trapped in a burning building, rescued, then succumbed to my injuries. Spicy Fingers triggered a memory burst. I am a very dirty person apparently.
Me: hahahhahahhahahhahaha
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Jan 10th
Me: Funny when had that meditation with Y'shtola and such before any chat. I asked how old the phoenix stories are. I heard 3000.
And I said. "That can't be just 3000 years. Has to be older. Nope I don't believe that"
But I just researched a bit and it's 3100BC. Well, that surely was imprinted info lol.
But reading any stories doesn't resonate with me, or my memories are shrouded idk. I was wondering if I could have been the Phoenix of Earth as well but reincarnated as a human 2000 years ago and never went back, but I guess not. But considering Atlantis had creation magic, I might have created it instead. But this is only speculation.
So I just asked linala to ask Emet how long ago it was when the sundering happened.
12679 Etheirys years ago. so in Earth years (16245+) that's way longer. That would declare I arrived on Earth during the beginning or middle Atlantis and not during the end.
Check the text of this tweet:
"Altima's esper title is The High Seraph, arcadion's JPN subtitle name is 至天の座アルカディア (arcadia; the seat of the heavenly) and I'm going to continue to be like this meme with these hopium crumbs for the next 6+ months or they debunk it in PLL to keep myself hyped up for 7.0"
Dms’with Corvus
Me: I have 1 other matter, but do the 2Azem crystals first.
The other thing is Azeyma. In 6.5 the description was given about each of the 12. And she was an Azem fan girl. Given that Azeyma was formed by Dynamis. And it was the modern people who shaped her into some sort of gijnka phoenix lady. But yeah that, I know I am not and was never azeyma. But she was an Azem fan girl......I bet you know where this is going. It will be a nice question for Venat don't ya think?
Corvus: Hey, sorry sorry yesterday ended up being crazy busy from start to finish so I kinda never got any privacy to dive, but hopefully today's a bit more chill. I'm still definitely looking into the seat crystals. I'll make another visit to Venat once I can though, that does sound interesting (and also funny).
Me: Ty! and thanks for the update
also the actual question. was the original Azeyma also a fan girl toward me? but maybe save that question for later when I have collected more questions for Venat. since she likes to chat XD
(sometime later)
Oh goodness. I do have another question for Venat! After writing the entire essay for my mentor about Etheirys I also mentioned at the end a student whom I was practicing channeling with gained a connection with Venat. I recorded that and listening back to it right now. the student said Venat was already watching over me since I was small. now here comes the question. was that just an image of the past life, or if current life how the hell did she get to earth while being Hydaelyn on Etheirys. EDIT: I recall something from that shroom trip that Hydaelyn visited Earth shorty (a few years) after Lahabrea did, so presumable when I was born. and that she sent a piece of herself rather than her full self to watch over me. I would like to have more in-depth info on that.
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Jan 11th
Me: When your mentor asks what your home planet is like.
She wants me to email it.
Good gods "Hey dev team can I borrow your script tysm" XD
what I sent them ( a classmate also asked for it):
Anyway, at the time I lived there (before the sundering), we were called the stewards of the star. or so-called ancients. Alas, I don't have memories of my own which I will explain later. any memories are second-hand via others who are from the same planet, practitioners or via dreams. we had creation magicks, in the literal sense. create creatures out of Aether or anything. those creatures went to a huge observatory area high up in the sky for observation if they were suitable for life on the planet itself. for example, too-aggressive creatures (like live threatening for other species) were turned back to their Original Aether state. the concept of the creature that was stored in a huge crystal would be discarded as well or the concept would be used to redesign the creature. so we were like seeding the planet with our own creations including plant life etc etc.
Before delving into more details of the history of my home planet. I will tell more details of the society etc.
The Ancients inhabited all corners of the planet Etheirys. Through their vast pool of aether and the innate ability to use creation magicks, they accomplished wondrous feats and built utopian cities, including Amaurot, the center of their civilization and home to the Convocation of Fourteen, and Elpis, a research facility dedicated to the creation and study of new lifeforms. (the observatory area high up in the sky)
The Convocation consisted of fourteen offices held by individuals who were leading authorities in their fields of expertise or possessed skills to facilitate their duties. As a show of respect, members of the Convocation went by their titles rather than given names for the duration of their time in office
Loghrif, the Pastor - Cataloger and caretaker of terrestrial creations.
Mitron, the Mariner - Magister of nautical affairs and surveyor of aquatic creations
Emet-Selch, the Redeemer - Keeper of the Underworld and overseer of death
Pashtarot, the Arbiter - Conservator of order and the collective will
Fandaniel, the Observer - Assayer of extant phenomena and overseer of life. who previously served as chief overseer of Elpis
Altima, the Composer - Advocate of aesthetics and the myriad arts.
Halmarut, the Sower - Cultivator of botanical and mycological creations.
Nabriales, the Contender - Martial champion and refiner of technique.
Igeyorhm, the Rhetorician - Auditor of debate and collator of knowledge.
Deudalaphon, the Innovator - Appraiser of architecture and patron of invention.
Emmerololth, the Mender - Curator of medicinal and therapeutic practices.
Lahabrea, the Creator - Authority on creation principles and phantomology.
Elidibus, the Emissary - Adjudicator of the Convocation of Fourteen
Azem, the Traveler - Pilgrim of the Star and counsellor to the people. This seat was held by an individual whose sundered soul became the Warrior of Light on the Source. At the time of the Final Days, Azem vacated their position in the Convocation because she didn't agree that Elidibus would become the heart of Zodiark. When she left. I gained the seat of Azem.
Like their people, the Convocation upheld the custom of returning to the star upon fulfilment of their life's work, as was the case with the previous Fandaniel who contributed countless new concepts and specimens. The previous Azem, Venat, was one of few who continued her work on Etheirys after stepping down from office, which was considered an eschewing (though not a violation) of custom. (Venat is also the mother of Elidibus and me)
Everyone wore robes and a mask on their face. Masks and Robes could be of any color, but somehow orange and yellow were never used for the robes. And pink only for little girls (lol). The convocation wore Black robes except for Elidibus, and retired members like Venat, wore White. The mask of the Convocation members were Red. Other people didn't have red masks. In that way, with black robes and a red mask, you determine easily if someone is from the convocation. (in-game everyone has black robes except for Elidibus and Venat)
When an Amaurotine, would visit other areas of the world for example Elpis they were required to remove their mask from their faces and wear them upon their chest. Even convocation members.
the same with convocation members holding a meeting to discuss things in their own city. Then they also removed their mask.
The History
The actions of the Convocation's last Fandaniel, doomed their people when he allowed his creations, the Meteia/Meteion, to commence the song of oblivion. these were human-like birds that were fit to travel the stars.
(background info meteion/Meteia: Meteion was created by Hermes, an ancient residing in Elpis on the planet Etheirys. Meteion was created as an entelechy from the emotion-derived energy known as dynamis rather than of aether, the energy that most life forms are composed of. She and her identical sisters (collectively referred to as the Meteia) possessed a shared consciousness, with one Meteion remaining by Hermes's side as a terminal and his companion while her sisters were sent out into the universe, riding waves of dynamis to discover other life-bearing stars to ask their denizens the reason for living they had found for themselves, the ultimate purpose for which Hermes had created the Meteia. The Meteia only found dead worlds or worlds on the verge of collapse, including some they unknowingly destroyed when their empathic abilities affected the denizens of those worlds. The collective suffering and despair of a universe of souls ended up infecting the empathic collective consciousness.
The Meteion by Hermes's side was horrified when she linked to her sisters to compile their findings. Her individual mind was suppressed as the shared consciousness concluded that existence was suffering and resolved to end all the life in the universe as a mercy. Hermes, similarly torn by the revelation, covered Meteion's escape so she could reconvene with her sisters at the edge of the universe, though Venat managed to cast a tracking spell on her before she escaped the planet's atmosphere. The Meteia flew to the edge of the universe to nest and collected the despair they had found and experienced and used it to stir the dynamis of the universe into motion with their song of oblivion, powerful enough to slowly still the layer of celestial aether that shrouded Etheirys, starting the Final Days.)
Only the former Azem, Venat, escaped Hermes's act of altering the memories of those who learned of his deed. The Meteia's song stagnated Etheirys's aether and instilled despair in the Ancients, warping their creation magicks to unleash grotesque monsters formed from their subconscious fears. This calamity would come to be known as the Final Days.
When the final days started, from within the earth, a terrible cry issued forth, affecting a profound change in all manner of life. We were not exempt. Our creation magicks ran rampant, giving shape and form to thoughts of hopelessness and despair. At first, the phenomenon was limited to a single region. But quickly...so very quickly...it spread and engulfed the whole of the star.
The Convocation, led by Lahabrea and Elidibus, deemed the phenomenon to be related to stagnated aether within the currents of Etheirys causing it to rot.
The Convocation devised a plan to "weave the laws of reality anew" through the summoning of Zodiark, an entity able to quell the aether stagnation as a primal possessing the aspect of Darkness. The Ancient who succeeded Venat in the seat of Azem refused to participate in the summoning and left the Convocation who yet went on to sacrifice half of the Ancients' population for the amount of aether needed to summon Zodiark; the Ancient bearing the title of Elidibus offered himself as Zodiark's core. Though the summoning halted the Final Days, it was but a temporary solution, as the calamity had reduced most of the star into a lifeless, blighted land, prompting another half of their population to sacrifice themselves to restore life to the world. Elidibus withdrew from Zodiark to aid the Convocation in a failed attempt to restore order.
About 7 years later The Convocation sought to call upon Zodiark's power once more by offering the primal the harvested life energies of the new life forms that had been born in their world to bring back those who had sacrificed themselves and now rested within their deity. Because Elidibus removed himself 7 years earlier caused Zodiark to turn demonic and ask wayyy more sacrifices than needed. Venat assembled a rival faction of Ancients who opposed the Convocation's plans to sacrifice the new life forms; the current Azem did not respond to requests to participate in this summoning. Venat used her followers' sacrifice to become Hydaelyn to subjugate Zodiark to buy time until she would devise a permanent solution to stop the Meteia. The two elder primals fought until Hydaelyn used all her strength to fragment Zodiark, shattering the "very fabric of reality" and splitting the world and every life on it into the Source and its thirteen reflections/parallel dimensions called Shards. Even our higher selves are sundered and memories erased well most of it (because we entered with our higher selves the body we choose to incarnate and not just a piece as we do here). after the sundering, my soul dwelled off to Earth.
Elidibus and two other Convocation members, Lahabrea and Emet-Selch, escaped the sundering with their souls intact (called The Unsundered from here on). The three resolved to orchestrate a series of events to revive Zodiark and restore their home via Umbral Calamities (aka rejoinings), cataclysms designed to gradually merge the Source and the thirteen shards back into the original Etheirys. They reformed themselves as the Ascians and began searching for the fragmented souls of their fellow Convocation members to bring them into the fold.
The unsundered—Lahabrea, Emet-Selch, and Elidibus—are the most powerful Ascians with the power to recruit others into their group. Under them are the Ascian overlords, whose souls belonged to the remaining sundered members of the Convocation of Fourteen
So yeah they kinda turned evil at that point because Zodiark lacked the heart, and tempered them to let all these Rejoinings happen. 12000+ Etheirys years later After the 7th successful rejoining. A Warrior of Light (WoL for short, and no it's not Jesus lol) had made his entrance. this was originally the Azem seat holder who defected the convocation at Zodiark's summoning. A long story of heroic deeds to save the world's chaos, stopping the Ascians eventually, and killing Zodiark on the moon (Zodiark was imprisoned there but got freed due to a rogue Ascian….Fandaniel) this causes the Final days to happen again. The WoL travelled to the past to figure out what the cause of the final days was. And learned it was Meteion. Eventually back in the present, defeating more blasphemies and having a talk with Hydaelyn (Venat) in the Aetherial sea in the center of the Planet. (don't ask me how). She gave a crystal with the records where Meteion resided. Space travel happened and Meteion was eventually defeated and the Final Days were averted. This all happened about 29 EARTH years ago. So that's quite recently.
Extra lore info.
Have you ever heard about a dragon planet that got attacked by machines and dragons fled the planet to search for a new planet to live on? Well, that planet where they (or just one dragon with eggs) settled was Etheirys.
On current Etheirys, you have many different races of humans. Elves, dwarfs, half animal half human, like cat/human, bunny/human, lizard(dragon-like)/human, and tiger people. Humans of many different heights and body build. People of different races can still have children together, but most racial traits are inherited from the mother.
Even though creation magic is cast out sorta say on modern Etheirys. "Magic" used as you see in video games really happens there. To defend yourself, attack monsters, heal people, and research for knowledge. Etc, etc.
So what now?
While Lahabrea as Ascian already found Earth earlier while he was still tempered about 37 Earth years ago. He used his knowledge of Etheirys to see if people here would be open to listening to share our history. Obviously, Lahabrea was still a spirit here, and because of the density here, he couldn't do that much. He was able to influence some "ideas" to Game creator Hironobu Sakaguchi who created the first Final Fantasy game and saved Square Soft (now Square Enix). Hironobu Sakaguchi directed the first 5 games until someone else took over. Almost every final fantasy game has elements of Etheirys. Nearing the year 2000 (about 1997) on Earth Emet-selch came to Earth and in 2001 Elidibus. So yeah that is after the events of the second final days. You might think are they still evil? No, after the Unsundered got defeated by the Warrior of Light they got their soul cleansed in the afterlife.
In 2001 Elidibus and Lahabrea tried their hands in World of Warcraft. So even that game had some elements of Etheirys in it. Then Final Fantasy XIV (14) was being created but the original creator made it a terrible game at first. 1 year later Someone (also chosen by the Unsundered) named Naoki Yoshida took over the director role of FFXIV and saved the game. Here is where the Unsundered worked together to influence the minds of the dev team the best they could. Eventually getting 76% correctness on what happened on the real Etheirys. They still influence the team today, and it is an ever-ongoing adventure of the Warrior of Light.
So yeah I am playing that game as well. And caused my awakening. Emet-selch bombarded me with a dream that I was 1 of them in January 2020. I was never the kind of person to believe fantasy stuff can be real, and I even hated the Ascians in the game, so why? I came to the conclusion if I hated them I would hate myself, so slowly but surely I grew warm to them. So when mentioning the first 3 dreams to my sister, She introduced me to Dolores's canon books. And I found many things that matched up, especially how the imprinting of info to the mind works from spirits or past lives.
it had to be real. In Aug 2020 I met other people who are in contact with Lahabrea (mostly). And 1 of them did a couple of sessions for me. The second session was With Elidibus, he answered a couple of questions I had. He pretty much confirmed I was his sister during ancient times. After trying my best to communicate myself for the coming months, Elidibus eventually soul bonded with me on Nov 4th 2020. Soul bonding for them is the most deepest form of love, so yes I have a very deep relationship with him. Later I learned thanks to the Akashic records video from Triona in 2023 that our souls were already so deeply connected before we even incarnated as Ancients. But got forgotten when I drifted away to Earth after the sundering. I have many more about how I figured this all out. but that's 2 big books works and too much to share everything here. I must add that people came and went who were in contact with the Unsundered, and not everyone remained a friend….. but I have 1 core group now of 5 people (+ 1 reader of my journal) who ever stayed at my side. At least 4 of the 5 are from Etheirys itself as well myself included. The other one is unknown but has a very good connection to Lahabrea. also, the info gathered from other practitioners who don't play the game were able to give answers to questions by communicating with Elidibus. Currently, even Agne from our mentorship program had a short talk with Venat when we practiced channelling. I recorded that (the sound is awful btw but I can send it if you are interested). At first, I thought she gained a connection with my current guide Linala (who works for Elidibus to be with me at all times when he can't), but it happened to be Venat later on.
about myself during that time before the sundering, I once merged with a creation that was a Phoenix made by Lahabrea. and it became part of me. it completed me. someone who is from the same planet as I am but from 1 of its reflections has done an astral projection journey to ask Lahabrea about it.
this is what Lahabrea said. : "This depends on how you view destiny. By my account, nothing I have ever done has caused an event to occur that was against the flow of fate. She was always the Phoenix, I was simply always meant to play my part in the process. Now, if you wish to examine the biological mechanisms at work, then the more detailed truth is that the data offered to her by my creation offered accelerated adaptation to already existing traits. The girl played in fire long before she touched the beast. Consider the fusion to be like becoming equipped with a new wardrobe, one that will not burn as she practices. It adjusted her, a bit forcefully, to her tendencies. Still though, it did not make her a Phoenix. A Phoenix, she already was."
This same person btw had a very long talk with Venat as well 1 or 2 days before the question with Lahabrea. Venat mentioned things about me that were spot on, and that I never told the person who was asking the questions. Venat called me her Little Phoenix. Both sessions happened literally last week.
Well, I leave it at this, if there are any questions feel free to ask. Looking forward to a reply.
Kind regards
(this info will be added for an e-book variant for non-FFXIV players with some additions and not directly from wiki).
Me: so that was the whole reason to finish EW with my Eli alt yesterday. to tell everything freshly from my mind and not from a 2yo memory lol. well, the after the sundering parts. I didn't use Wiki for that lol.
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Jan 12th
DM's with Corvus
Corvus: OK ok, so I have a ton to do today, but I did dive last night. I can type up more details a bit later, but here are the big points.
-Saw Emet about the 2 seat crystals. He likened it to having two distinct copies of the same book. They're physically two objects, but you wouldn't open the second one and expect different words on the pages. Two crystals, one story. And that story is still continuing.
-Laha added to this, basically saying that we'll drive ourselves mad if we try too hard to find exact meaning from artifacts that are still changing. We can study history, but history is still happening right now. If we look far back, information is more reliable, but there's less of it. If we look at more recent past, there's more info, but it's less reliable. He basically said just don't go crazy trying to answer every question ever, I guess.
-Venat kept me for as long as she could, lmao she really likes talking. She basically said she intends to keep some answers to herself so that I never run out of reasons to go back. She still doesn't want me to spend my whole life diving, as there's stuff I/we have to do here on our Earth, but she doesn't get many visitors. Anyway, on the Azeyma thing, she just laughed super hard and suggested we were having a bit too much fun with content from the video game. Didn't say much more on that. As for her ways of watching over you, she kinda just said to tell you your mom is clever and creative. The principle idea of dynamis is that one can accomplish anything if their will and emotional drive to do so is strong enough. She said knowing how she gained eyes here and who she used wouldn't change anything, all that matters is that you know that she's here, she's watching, and she loves you.
Me: So there were 2 stones! and the story is still continuing with WoL I take it? so far I know my crystal didn't survive the sundering. did you ask why you thought it was the same one? and that constellation being very old etc? how is the recent past less reliable?
Venat replying in that way about azeyma means that it was just fantasy of the dev team. good to know!, Eli says there are some of the descriptions Deryk said that were true but definitely not all of them.
she didn't mention how she got to Earth while still being Hydaelyn on Etheirys? because EW happenings happened only 29 earth years ago. and I am 36
I hope you can type it all out when you have time.
Can you type everything out pls? I am afraid you might forget things/details over time
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Jan 13th
Channel practice for mentorship program from Triona. The classmate asking questions will be shortened to LH. It took some time before Eli could speak through me.
Eli: my apologies I couldn't connect directly, I am Elidibus of the convocation of Fourteen. I am soul-bonded with her, as we are from the same planet
LH: where are you from?
Eli: from Etheirys
LH: what do you want to learn this time.
Eli: she already knows very much from us. And writing her journal as we speak
LH: she already knows it’s you?
Eli: yes
LH: what is your name?
Eli: our real names cannot be said, as they are magically inclined and very powerful. but we can share the title names of our seats of Office. Which my name will be Elidibus.
LH: okayyy Elidibus, thank you. is there anything important you wish to share with [my real name] at this time regarding, things she can let go of in her life?
Eli: she needs to have more confidence in herself because she is very powerful but doubt is plaguing her much.
LH: hmmhmm I see that lovely thank you. is there anyone she needs to forgive?
Eli: only but herself
LH: only herself. Ah, that is powerful thank you. what is her life purpose at this time?
Eli: she is already doing a big part of it. Which is sharing our existence with the world.
LH: aha I see, do you have any other messages for her?
Eli: that I love her very much
LH: hmmhmm thank you, thank you. do you have any messages for us today?
Eli: I would like you to read that document she shared on WhatsApp
LH: okay ok, well thank you very much
Eli: you're welcome
LH: thank you for coming. And if you don’t mind stepping back now to let [my real name] to come forward.
Me: okay right, my bird was screaming all the time it was highly annoying.
I will stop it here it was another classmate's turn now so nothing to be shared after this point.
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DM's with TK
Me: Sorry for asking so much, but you never replied to it. So I wonder if you even read it that I asked. If you did, will you read the screenshots? It would mean a lot, riss read it too and she is not even that active on Discord
TK: I read it but have not been in contact with Lahabrea
I think he has been busy this week
that's why I haven't said anything
Me: owwwwwwwwwwwwwwww so you read the Venat story as well?
TK: yes
I am off this weekend so I can try to talk with him or anyone else that wants to but right now I don't have a message from him. Not worried about it cause he's done this before lol but we will see.
Me: ok ty! ya know just for the next time if something like this occurs. just reply ok.
so I don't mind if you don't get anything yet etc etc. just give a heads up. ok?
TK: kk
Me: thanks
(5 hours later)
Me: I just had another psychic training. practiced automatic writing. which is a no-go for Eli and me. but we also did what I already can! channelling to let him speak through me. and yes he did haha. I recorded it. The mentor was watching XD
I might gonna ask Lahabrea for the training sessions with automatic writing though. he is stronger with that.
regarding the automatic writing, what do you do with Lahabrea to get him writing?
ya know what's funny. I just checked my spam mail. and read "erectile function optimizer" I heard in my head Eli saying "something (insert ex's name) could use".
I verified with him if he said that. and he did LOL
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Jan 14th
TK: I just try to focus on something in my mind to allow him to, sometimes he suggests something. doesn't always work
Me: OK! Do you have perhaps some examples?
You are free, right? if you can't get Lahabrea today, would you try Venat for me? She loves to talk. And if you can visit her in a meditation all the better. She doesn't get visitors often.
TK: I can try contacting her. I'll be honest, I haven't tried to contact anyone else, though while I've had contact with the other two unsundered in dreams I've never reached out to them, and never Venat. But I'll try.
Some example, a lot of the time it's just what I'm using to write, but can be other things like what I want an answer to.
Me: ah, you never told me you had Eli in a dream. from what you told me he was always busy lol. what were the dreams about with Eli in it? but try Lahabrea first to see if he is available. if not then try Venat. try using the "hear feel think" mantra. if she is somehow nearby she will hear it and come to you. I sent forth Elidibus to alert Venat that you will try to contact her and gained confirmation, with a very positive reply. she will be looking forward to it!
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Jan 15th
I had the most weirdest experience last night. firstly I had a dream whereby I can't really remember the start of it. but eventually, I was in a glass-like house and a huge hurricane/tornado was hitting my house. I grabbed my birds held them tight and hid under the diner table when the tornado struck I landed in a different dimension where I was locked up by some authority group. I was able to free myself early if I could buy 1 of their extremely expansive house. somehow I had apparently 2,5mil in my bank account. and there was a house for 2 mil.
Me: I had 2.5 million, so I could do it.
woman: your bank won't allow it.
Me: not even for a house?
Woman: no, they won't give you the money.
I started to cry heavily. "nooooo"
then somehow the scene shifted that I tried to get out by making a lot of high-pitched scream noise to break the barriers of that dimension. people warned me that if the screaming was too loud they would lock me up. I don't know what happened after a couple of times screaming, they tried to get me but that didn't happen. eventually, I was warped back to where the tornado struck. I left the house and tried to wake myself up. by trying to connect to myself within the dream and to clap my hands.
Me: come on get out of here, wake me up there in the 5th dimension. (why the hell did I say that? earth is not in the 5D yet??!!!)
ofcourse it didn't work. somehow I was in a different house and needed to find an exit. Luckily that didn't take too long. I went outside, and a dog was happy to see me. this is pretty much the ending, some minor things happened but I can't remember.
well I think my body woke a bit too soon because this is what I said when waking up
Me: downloading memory, Elidibus are you here?
Eli: yes my love
now here the freaking stuff starts. Elidibus was worried about what the hell happened to me.
and I had no idea. I felt odd, first, I thought my original soul left and a new one walked in, but that wasn't the case because Eli was still here (he would have no reason to stay if I left the body right?). it felt like someone thing merged with me or was added. on the left side of my body. like the left half of my left eye you could draw a line there downward my entire body and that outer left part was feeling odd and denser.
I told the dream while being extremely drowsy it was hard to retell the dream to him. he didn't always reply through me. yet I was wondering if a shard merged with me suddenly.
and came up with the idea to let Emet selch check upon my soul if that was the case. Eli asked Emet and he was willing to check on me, he couldn't see something directly. took some time for him to find something, but it was not a shard merge, yet didn't know what it was. eventually, I came up with the idea to get Venat over, I was positive she would know. Eli and Emet agreed. they picked up Venat and brought her to me.
After Venat checked on me she said my soul shifted to a higher level. and then I let Eli tell her the dream I had, (I was too exhausted) and then she said, my soul is making itself ready to merge with a shard that will be coming in a couple of years (2 to 4 years or so). she said the shard it's on it's way. I asked why it couldn't just teleport.
Venat: because it doesn't know the destination, it has only a direction to go to.
Me: why is it taking so long then?
Venat: because the travel is many many lightyears, it coming from the other side of the universe.
Me: it can't go in hyper-light speed in a spaceship? (I knew the correct word at that moment but I forgot it atm of writing/typing up, the correct word was originally used in Star Trek/wars iirc),
I don't exactly recall what she said. but the shard doesn't travel by a spaceship. also, she said the shard fled from the life it had and went on searching for me without knowing the destination.
this happened apparently quite recently. I asked if the shard could find a shortcut so it could be here faster.
Venat: if it can find one yes, but don't bet on it. it takes a few years for your soul (and body) to adjust for the merge to come. it will be better this way.
then I asked Eli to contact Aidenin to check if this shard is known to him. Aidenin mentioned in the shroom trip in November that he had met 4 other shards. so I wondered.
Eli did so and he indeed knows the shard but met the shard earlier than he met me. that shard already had an awful life, so he knew about it. and wasn't surprised.
iirc I also asked what would happen when my soul rejoins a shard. and Venat answered that it would be clear in a dream.
then I asked what a merge with Aidenin would look like.
Eli: a phoenix merge.
Me: cool
(so it seems this shard doesn't have control over the phoenix, a further distant shard perhaps? maybe from the 10th~13th???? )
I probably forgot some things that were said I may add them later when it pops back up. when saying goodbye to Venat and Emet I thanked them.
Venat: you are welcome honey.
Me: bye.., TY2 Emet.
Emet: you're welcome........Azem.
and I was so happy he called me that.
Me: thank you, bye.
and he left.
I talked with Eli about some remaining things that kept me awake. but I don't recall much.
now the only thing I have a problem with now. how genuine is this? my mind wasn't fully blank, but everything that was said above and more was through me. I want to know for sure this isn't made-up wishful thinking or something created by an exhausted brain. idk. if someone can verify this pls do. Eli swears he spoke through me and the others did too. but I am not certain about my own mind's state.......
@everyone pls read the above story of today
Sorry for the insecurity it's kinda big ya know. And my mind wasn't fully blank so. Want to make sure if it was legit or not. @Corvus if you have time to ask Venat about it, then pls.
@TK have you tried Venat btw? If you haven't could you try to make an attempt at least? Let me know when you do, and if you were able to. Pls...
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Jan 17~ 20th
For the past couple of days, Corvus was not replying
Me: Hey, I guess you are busy and stuff. Do you have time to read btw? And I mean a part of a chapter in my journal? It's mainly about that Venat had 7 children in total from 2 husbands. (That amount of children was a lot during that time) and about what happened relationship-wise.
2 days later
Me: Everything OK?
Corvus: Hey, I'm running off fast food wifi right quick. My whole town has been covered in snow and ice all week, and our home wifi is down. I promise I haven't forgotten. Hopefully, I'll have data soon.
Me: Omg Jesus Christ. mobile Data as in 4G/5G?
His last reply was on Feb 5th before getting silent until further notice
Corvus: Hey sorry it's been a while my family's negotiating Internet with a new provider so we don't have home Internet right this second but hopefully will soon
Me: ok ty! you don't have mobile data then?
I never heard from him again. Yet at the end of February, I discovered he had internet again and was actively talking to others. But not to me….I tried to reach out with an alt account multiple times, eventually even with my normal account. But no response…I can't believe he broke his promise to notify me when he needed to get silent again. But aside from that promise, what hurts the most is, that he doesn't want to see me hurt, yet he does that right now by not letting anything known, how he is doing etc. ….pls Corvus if you somehow read this, pls reply back to me. PLS. T-T
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Jan 18th
Originally shared in DMS with TK but she never replied to it.
Me: the Pokemon anime actually getting interesting and I must say, searching for ancient lore and uncovering the truth in it. is actually better than the original lol. I am at episode 25 now.
and I like Liko's grandma. She is like the Azem variant of Pokemon lol
Since the Explorers were originally friends from Lucius (the ancient adventure). I feel Amethio might become good again after he remembers why (probably past life or something).
So you can see the current Explorers as "Ascians" in this case.
Lucius is Azem very clearly in this story.
On top of this, the leader of the Explorers is an old guy, obeying some digital Purple statue.......
Lahabrea - Zodiark vibes
(note: later came to know the left one is definitely not Elidibus, as the major boss of the organization matches everything from Elidibus, but I will save that for later when that episode got released)
lol Venat quote in-game: "i travel light out of habit"
that digital statue. if I understood correctly someone is operating it called Gibeon. (that one operating is the major boss)
I am officially up to date with Pokemon episodes now
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Jan 22nd
https://youtu.be/NVGops33vPc?si=BncQNfFqKGjd7R6U Watch this NDE for the one who is interested in it.
@Corvus I bet you do ;)
my comment about this vid. is mostly confirms what I knew about "God" You don't need a religion to worship him, worshipping is not even needed. just knowing he exists is enough. since some people think the Christian god isn't the same as the Creator of the universe; in fact, every religion has a piece of the story of the original Creator. (Elidibus confirmed this).
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I had a dream this morning, nothing too eventful. But FFXIV mixed with Beyblade (first gen). And Kai couldn't get Dranzer out of the Beyblade. So I transformed into phoenix mode. And tried to blast a flamethrower at it while it was spinning. But the Beyblade didn't stand still and I missed. Iirc.
Then Kai called Dranzer back. And suggested me to launch Dranzer. But I was still half phoenix and was clumsy with launching it. Making it not spin at all. So Kai did it again. And I launched a flamethrower. But then the dream went about something else.
Damn, I really like Dranzer would have been cool to see it in the dream world.
The only reason for telling this dream. Is that I transformed again myself.
Also an earlier dream. I was in Garlemald this night. I recorded it because I was too tired. It Really felt like I travelled a lot and far when I woke up. Even though the dream world is like another dimension.
At the first end, I forgot something to record.
I saw a machine busy with liquid rock. I asked Elidibus about this when I was awake, and they are making Obsidian this way.
Also, the real Garlemald is not in the snow at all and is very much Earth-like in technology. Well, Japan's technology because Japan is a bit further than the rest of the world here. And this was very similar. As it was a bit further than the west of the world. So yes what happened in EW at Garlemald is true but it has been rebuilt. With modern Earth-like structures (just to compare)
Also, Eli said the Garleans don't have that third eye thing. They are just very tall people with normal proportions. and now that I think of it. Emet as Solus and Zenos never had it either in my dreams.
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Jan 25th
So I had a sudden connection with Venat last night.
I don't remember if I slept already a bit. But I remember she was imprinting some things in my mind she wanted to see in the constitution of my country. Alas, my mind was so hazy and drowsy. That was when I realized these were not my own thoughts but she was saying that. I immediately forgot everything.
I asked Linala if she was close by, and she indeed was and visited me. She indeed was sharing her opinion on what needed to be done. Or something. I couldn't make out what she said.
Alas, I also forgot most things were talked about. I was so tired and wanted to sleep. She did visit her grandchildren again and she absolutely adores them.
When I fell asleep I had a dream that FFXIV had an option to play 1.0.
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Dms with TK
Me: hey do you have an update for me? did you have a chance to speak with Lahabrea? or is he still busy? and did you try Venat by any chance? I don't mind if you didn't have a chance to talk to any of them. just let me know ok?
TK: I have been in contact with Lahabrea but I have not been able to get ahold of Venat, and Lahabrea actually is unsure of how to do so (or. rather he would be able to but for me to)
At work so can't talk much atm.
Me: You mean he doesn't know a way for you to communicate with Venat? Because they definitely know where she is and how to reach her, for themselves at least.
If you have read the entire conversation that Corvus shared. You might be able to travel in dreams to her, (since Corvus did that via astral projection). Then go to "The Edge". Hopefully, you can at least travel in dreams better than I do.
The tweet is deleted btw.
Did you manage to ask the phoenix thing to Lahabrea to verify?
Also, I will be borrowing Lahabrea tomorrow when you are probably still asleep. For training tomorrow noon 1pm my time. For an hour or so. (He knows this already so far I know)
TK: He knows how to communicate with her, but not if I have a way to. Could try dreams.
The Phoenix thing? He just said "not sure why you needed to confirm that, we already know it's true" lol
Also, that's fine...
Me: Well it was a good check-up to see if Corvus really reached Lahabrea.
And I did it mostly for you, because you were always so hesitant with new people, and tended to shut yourself down from anyone new (or at least that's how you came across to me at that time). While Corvus is 100% legit and reliable.
But I saw you a bit typing after that message?
TK: Was thinking about typing something else. but I want to confirm it with Lahabrea first
Me: Just share what's on your mind though
you don't have to have immediate answers before sharing your thoughts on the matter. just say it.
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Jan 26th
Channeling practice with Jeannie Layton about the New Earth.
This will be an interesting one since Lahabrea will speak through me this time.
Jeannie guides me into a meditative state. After some time Lahabrea came through.
Laha: my apologies, I couldn’t get through immediately, I am here now.
J.L: who are we speaking with today.
Laha: Lahabrea, of the Convocation of Fourteen.
J.L: do you communicate often?
Laha: I am here on the behalf of my colleague Elidibus.
J.L: does your colleague communicate often?
Laha: Yes.
J.L: how many are part of your team?
Laha: we are with 13 in the astral and [my real name] is the 14th.
J.L: do you spend a lot of time communicating?
Laha: Elidibus does
(he meant with me, I mean Lahabrea communicates a lot as well with others but mostly imprinting thoughts and automatic typing/writing)
J.L: so what can we do at this time to help Earth.
Laha: helping others to ascend to the next dimension, 5th dimension.
J.L: is there a particular manner how we can do this.
Laha: by helping people who aren’t fully spiritually aware, to help them enlighten to go further.
J.L: is everyone meant to transition to the 5th dimension on Earth at this time?
Laha: depends if they choose to. I know from [my real name] ex-partner he will remain in the 3D to help mankind. So eventually they will break up permanently.
J.L: is it ok for others to be left behind in the 3D?
Laha: yes, those people will help people who are completely oblivious and eventually rise up. So eventually everyone will go, but it will take time.
J.L: so those who remain behind in the 3D, will they experience, um….a rough go? Will it be hard?
Laha: it can be for some yes. Really depends on the person.
J.L: is the 3D where we experience growth through trials the most.
Laha: yes the most, but it’s not limited to the 3D. you can still learn lessons in the 5D
J.L: are the lessons we learn in the 5D, as painful as what lessons we learn in 3D can be?
Laha: no not as painful, there will be times that you are struggling, but it won't be as hard in the 3D.
J.L: okay. So with that Earth transitioning, how can we know that we are on the 5th dimension, operating from the 5th dimension.
Laha: you will need more enlightened people in your life that are on the same frequency and then you might discover you are in the 5th dimension. It differs per person who is where
J.L: is it possible for us to transition back and forth between the 3rd and 5th dimension as we learn this way of living in the 5th dimension.?
Laha: you won’t have the desire to go back to the 3D, but you can hop on and off if you want to but eventually it won’t suit you anymore.
J.L: Is it possible that as the earth is transitioning, we will be interacting with people of both 3rd and 5th dimension.
Laha: we are unsure at the moment. We aren't from Earth ourselves.
J.L: is there any imported information you would like to share with us.
Laha: No not at the moment.
J.L: we thank you for coming forward today and for speaking with us. We ask you to go a step back and let [my real name] blend back into her current existence. then come back forward
(me coming back)
J.L: how how you feeling?
Me: tired (rubbing my face to wake up properly)
J.L: you obviously done this ya know a few times at least.
Me: yeah
Here the chat went about how I got my ability triggered with shroom trips in the beginning etc and making the next appointment.
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Dms with TK
Me: hi there, training ended about an hour ago. Lahabrea had answers to the New Earth subject via talking through me. funnily enough, I watched a vid about it before the training. he arrived when I was watching it. I guess that was a hint of what it would be about lol.
holy shit who made that background in your discord. it's pretty! do you have a bigger version?
TK:
Me: so pretty!
who made it? or is it official art?
found it here, seems to be a submission to JP Fanfest.
Me: I will be borrowing Lahabrea on the 30th again at 9pm my time lol. I have another practice then this time automatic writing.
TK: He said that is fine
Me: :)
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Jan 27th
just found out that there is indeed a date stated to happen for the new Earth i.o.w the great shift, namely 2027.....Eli said about 3 years, back in August 2023. I didn't know this when I asked that. but the info matches. if it's really gonna happen or i.o.w finish up the process in 2027, we might see more of the Unsundered...........
Especially Etheirys has always been in the 5D (but with aether manipulation abilities for the people aka magic casting as we know in-game), Earth going into it. though I doubt if we will experience anything like Etheirys at all in the 5D. I wouldn't be surprised if they get better access to actually claiming bodies if they so desire.
though I find it very likely that the Earth is finished processing in just 3 years. since Elidibus said 3 to 30 years before. and other prophesies said 2043 we would be there. I find that more plausible tbh. yet I am looking forward to what 2027 is really gonna bring. it's most definitely something.)
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Jan 29th
ok, so my day started with a dream about Venat. well not very Directly, she was there indirectly in that dream. but when I woke up and wrote it down I was wondering if she was close by (dream in the dream section). I let Linala check on her. it took half a minute to get a reply back (this is a lot btw for a quick check-up). Venat was in the Forest near my house (+5min on a bicycle). so I had to go there today but wasn't sure if I could make it because my mom would come over. so I asked Linala if Venat would be in the forest Tomorrow as well in case I can't make it. I received a "yes". then I received a message from my mom that she couldn't come over. so I decided to go today to Venat. my original plan was after delivering the orders of my webstore. but I didn't want to go to the forest when it was getting dark. so I decided to firstly go to the forest instead. so I did. Linala was able to point me the way to give little pushes on my shoulders on which road I needed to take within the forest to get to Venat.
I already had an idea where she could be. and she was there. though there we people sitting across the lake. it would be odd to talk to a spirit randomly on the forest paths. but right next to where she was, there was a hideaway within the bushes and trees. so I yeeted into there to have private time. so we talked about things. she didn't come over to my house, so she could get me out of my house into the forest. (something I need to do more often).
I sat there in that hideaway on a tree stump. we talked about the dream I had had with her. well about her rather. and that she kept her promise to come into my dreams. but for the next time, I asked to have an actual conversation with her face to face instead of a weblog kinda thing XD.
At the end of the dream, she had a Garchomp and Fennekin. I asked about that. Garchomp made her think about all those Shark concepts in Elpis. And Fennekin just because it's cute. I originally thought some like an Argos kind of creature, but that was a "no".
Then I asked if Pokemon is a different dimension from Earth.
She explained that dimension came into existence by the creators (and people who like it). So yes Pokemon are dimensional creatures that you can travel to in the dream world. It is like a 4D dimension, this is also the dream world. You won't find Pokémon in the 5D lol.
Just to make clear, Pokémon didn't exist beforehand. It came into existence later on.
then I asked why Elidibus wasn't coming into my dreams. she explained that he was very busy. but then I asked why he wasn't coming into my dreams when he visits me for several days. she said he wanted to protect me when I was asleep. apparently, sometimes some jesting spirits are trying to scare me or make me feel unsettled. but still, if I don't count the one in September, then next week it has been 6 months.....that's a new record......
then I asked if she could help him search for that one thing I cannot speak about. to speed up the process. but gained a no, he wants to do that by himself.
it was all very touchy and tears flowed a lot.
later she said "Shall we go for a walk?" (I heard her voice in my mind very vaguely).
so I walked out of the hideaway, and asked her where she wanted to go. and she moved my body to directions for the suggested route.
we talked about some childhood memories of mine in this forest. and we stopped for a small moment to look at trees that kept living that were blown over by the strong winds. (not just the one from last week, we have those yearly) some were very old and 1 was supporting itself with branches in the water. another tree next to it had a very weird shape on 1 of its branches. like a broken arm that got twisted and healed in the wrong position. we continued walking the route that was the closest to the water.
after some touchy subjects, I forgot what it was about, I tried to feel the life force of the trees. but I couldn't feel much or not at all. I asked if the spirits of the trees were also asleep during winter. and gained a "yes" answer. Then I asked about that Wisteria that got probably poisoned by the neighbours (they are anti-garden). And that even help from Eli and Halmarut didn't help. I asked if I should trim it a lot. And she agreed. Though she doesn't guarantee it will help, there is a tiny chance the wisteria will come up again.
After that Part i tried a rhododendron after that, those are winter resistant and stay green. I did feel the energies, and it seemed to welcome my touch. I bid it a good day, and walk on.
I saw a fresh blown-over tree at the water edge, the bark was cracked and could clearly see this was from last week. yet the tree still seemed to be alive, as most of its roots were still in the ground. I stood there observing the tree for a few minutes before I moved on. we talked about a lot of other stuff while walking, confirming old memories like ice skating on the lake with my sisters when they were little.
then I came to a point where usually a big old tree was......was. it was blown over during the storm of last week. the tree itself was already removed. but the stump was still there. I counted the rings roughly.
couldn't get close or my feet would sink in the mud. so I counted 10 rings and from a distance, I estimated the tree as 160 years old. if not older!
then we walked further. A passerby mother with a newborn crossed our path. Venat wanted to go the same route as where that mother went to. the mom went to sit on a bench to breastfeed the little one. we just passed by said hi and moved on. I said to Venat I don't want any more children. that if I could turn back time, I wouldn't even have started it. I am not fit to be a mom in this life, I have underestimated it greatly and taxes me heavily. I even said to her that even if Eli was physical I don't even want mortal kids with him. I apologized for that, and she said I shouldn't do that (apologizing), I said that I didn't want to start over again, and I didn't want to lose the freedom I have now, now that my son is almost 13 already (in 2 months). she understood me.
then after settling that subject. she offered to say goodbye when we were almost out of the forest and near my bicycle.
I was about to say goodbye but I got notified by the sunset.
I asked to say goodbye near the lake to watch the sunset. and she agreed.
so I walked up the path to see the sunset. and made a joke about the lake. because there was one at the end of the dream.
I took some pictures of the sunset. we enjoyed the view for a bit. and then said farewells, she needed to go.
i had originally pictures of the sunset, but wix was complaing the post was getting to big.
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Jan 30th
This is funny my mentor did a random practice to find her jewellery box with a ring in it by letting everyone use their psychic/channel abilities to discover where it is. She is clueless.
So after meditation yesterday (well today after Midnight) on Focus 10. I gave it a shot.
I saw a vision of her putting a ring in a chest of drawers.
Today she replied that it used to be in there, but isn't anymore.
So I literally had a small echo vision lol
unfortunately after trimming the wisteria just now, the base trunk broke off completely. it was already decaying and completely rotten from the inside out.....RIP Wisteria.
oh yes, I forgot something. before I fell asleep again in the morning. I saw I was floating through huge buildings that looked as if it was Amaurot. unfortunately, I woke up from the vision because my feet went cold.
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Dms with TK
Even though she didn’t answer
Me: Garlemald reconstruction 7. X? I just did the rank 19 quests of Island Sanctuary. or maybe 8.X. Oh yes, Lahabrea is a lot more skilled in automatic writing.
I was able to read something out of it
"hello" "Lahabrea" "Be yourself" and "Azem"
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Dream of January
Jan 23rd Garlemald dream
I had a dream that I had a group of people, and 1 group had a connection with Lahabrea. and classes were over. and then I asked before we made a permanent appointment to email me for further contact with Lahabrea. and was some kind of psychic classes-like thing or something. and then I found it difficult to write, so to speak. Well, I could write, but my handwriting was not legible. or at least not the last 5 letters.
Me: no that's not it can you read it?
and then I tried to draw it on a screen or something. so I drew on the glass, but I couldn't get past "ani". and then I left for somewhere else, very far away too. and then I tried again and the pen didn't cooperate. I was so focused in that dream writing down my email, eventually got it on a notepad but with @hot.com and explained to the person I gave it to that it had to be Hotmail. but he didn't understand that or something. I was somewhere else at the time, but I didn't realize it right away, but at the same time I did. but I was so focused on writing it down correctly that I didn't realize I was near an Ascian. he didn't do anything, I think I was seen as Azem but I'm not sure. then when I couldn't write it down because the pen didn't work, I tried to give what I had written down to that man. and for that, I had to go to another dimension if you ask me. at one point I came into psychological contact with someone, but I don't remember how, so vaguely I don't remember. I remember at one point saying to Elidibus even though he wasn't there but maybe the one who brought me. (Elidibus says yes)
Me: I want to see Garlemald i want to see their cars.
and then I went there by train apparently. and there were crystal-like trees. the leaves were of pine tree needles of topaz yellow crystal. there weren't very many trees. the rails went up like it was a roller coaster. At one point I also went down really fast and indeed arrived in Garlemald.
the train was moving slower because it would be close to the station or a platform thereof. before I got there there was no snow. Garlemald is therefore not originally located in the snow.
Me: I have to see everything.
There was an industrial area next to the station. it was all quite modern. I think it was more modern than what it looked like here in the West anyway. perhaps comparable to Japan, I also sat with a lot of Asians on the train in one way or another. so I don't know how that is possible. maybe it was some kind of travel group according to Elidibus. They weren't Etheiryans anyway. but well I enjoyed the view.
Me: wtf it's not in the snow! there is no snow!
I was so surprised by it.
Me: omg I can see everything. Garlemald is out of the snow!
(I was thinking of Coerthas from 1.0 when it wasn't yet in the snow and that this was the opposite)
I arrived at that station, and I had to stay with a girl for some school assignment. only that girl ran away so quickly that I didn't even know what to do. so I asked the teacher "what should we do"?
but the teacher didn't get it ready in time either. Meanwhile, that girl is getting further and further away. at some point, she disappeared too. but I had come further into Garlemald territory. the station part anyway. and it looked quite modern indeed. I think something like Solution 9 in Dawntrail but just one step lower. I didn't see any cars and at one point the train no longer had a roof, don't ask me why. the trains looked like high-speed trains. (Elidibus says yes, so that's right). I wandered further into the area, and I also saw normal people, I think they were Garleans, they were wearing such a work outfits. (outfit for industrial workers/construction workers/miners) included a hat with goggles, so you couldn't tell if they had that 3rd eye.
(I asked Eli here if they even have that third eye. I got a no, so they don't! Real Garleans don't even have that 3rd eye, otherwise they are just very tall people).
then I was at a very high staircase that led to a bridge that allowed you to go from one side of the area to the other side via that bridge.
but behind that part of that bridge was a work area. I saw some people working there and it was late at night there all at once. so I decided to sneak into a building because I was curious about what ceruleum looked like in real life. and that would be deep in that building, where machines were working and it already smelled a bit like gasoline, though probably it would smell a lot more originally (gained a yes from Eli). I saw a machine working on liquid stone, (Elidibus confirmed when I woke up, that's how they make obsidian) the people didn't see me or they didn't care when I entered. and I thought if they asked "Who are you" I would say "I am a friend of the Warrior of Light".
but when I was about to go down the last stairs to get to the ceruleum. then I woke up.
I said to Eli: I was on Etheirys. in Garlemald
and he confirmed that. he said someone took me there.
I fell asleep for a little while and focused a lot on my 3rd eye to get there. but all was dark and then awoke again.
I woke up as if I had indeed used a lot of my strength and was exhausted from traveling and that had brought me back, I could just feel it. Also at the end of the dream, it became more and more tiring to stay there, especially the 2nd time I was already getting tired. but I wanted to get everything I could out of it. the 2nd time all the lights were off there and I couldn't see anything anymore. tried to short-circuit lights in a store somewhere so I could see something. but that didn't work, unfortunately.
I really noticed that I have been on a journey, let me put it that way.
Me: has Garlemald ever been in the snow?
Eli answered "no". so Garlemald has never been in the snow.
That explains a lot because I have had several dreams about Garlemald and it was indeed not in the snow. and it looked quite Earth-like.
so I told Elidibus I had already had 3 dreams with Garlemald and wondered why I go there so often when I end up on Etheirys. In the waking world, Garlemald doesn't interest me one bit. I want to see the rest of the planet, you know. I find Solution 9 rather scary, screens everywhere and stuff. That wasn't exactly Garlemald, it was really one step lower. they didn't have those screens everywhere. in terms of construction, it was very modern and I know that the Japanese are very good at that. maybe that's it. Garlemald is comparable to Modern Japan. (or perhaps more like 15 years ago.)
Elidibus says “yes” to this.
Me: Eli, was Garlemald really that fucked up when Fandaniel messed around with the final days?
"yes"
Me: Wasn't there snow by chance then?
Eli: no
Me: It was just barren, in terms of where houses were and stuff. and just completely destroyed by the Civil War?
"yes"
Me: anyway, so after 29 Earth years it has all been reasonably rebuilt and this is how it is now.
"gained a big fat yes"
According to Elidibus they currently have some kind of flying cars, which are actually mini space shuttles.
(he laughed at this)
You just have the rocket, but it flies horizontally. and there is some motor or other that makes it float. and then you have that, just like a rocket, it is controlled from the back.
(Eli confirms) those are their cars. and yes they have wheels for landing. 4 wheels like a car was. so it was created from the concept of a car. and they made it fly.
According to Elidibus, it happened quite recently. so they did have normal cars at first.
Me: Just like the one in Endwalker?
"a little more modern," he says
Me: like we have here on Earth now?
"yes"
Me: I think Sharlyan also has quite a bit of technology or not?
"a big yes"
Me: is Garlemald really deprived of magic?
Eli: the people are.
Me: ah, so that's right.
so I told Elidibus that next time I want to see the Crystal Tower, Meracydia before it comes into the game, Sharlayan, ruins of Amaurot. but ruins aren't available anymore, at least not on source.
Me: can't I go to the Phantom City on the First?
Eli: it's not there anymore, so it did fade away eventually.
Me: oh okay, that's a shame. are there any ruins of Amaurot on other shards? Can't I go to the Anyder where there is a dungeon in the game where you see hologram Venat and such?
"yes"
Me: That's possible? I would really like that. I am very curious about that. so if I can go there at the First, I would like to.
Me: Does that Raktika dungeon with the murals exist?
"yes"
Me: then I would like to see that too. and the crystal tower also from the inside.
here I stopped the recording because it was getting too lengthy
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Jan 25th
I had a dream, that recently 1.0 msq would be added to FFXIV. so if you have the start-up screen, you can choose to play 1.0. the story in the dream was completely wrong. but anyway, it took place in the past. about 10-20 years ago when it was designed in 2003 iirc. In the end, it turned out to be 10 years after all.
so, in the beginning, I made a character, and for some reason, it was a Miqo'te (cat human), and at a certain point I switched from myself and I saw my (current) character, but that was not me. and he talked to Minfillia who came walking by in a carriage.
my character talked: oh look it Minfillia
Minfillia: the name is Ascilla (1.0 name)
(how legit is that?! I mostly forgot about that she ever carried that name)
what was the only story content I really had, so to speak? in between I tried to find Dori (finding nemo Dori) once found she turned into a Pokemon, and the dream was about Pokemon for a while, but then I came back to the FFXIV 1.0 world. and it was mixed with earthly things. In the end, everyone had to gather because the game was dying (destroyed). and you saw those meteors falling from the sky near the horizon. someone asked me
someone: what is it?
Me: Sundering
Even though I knew that wasn't the sundering, I didn't say that to him.
When the meteor shower happened, everyone received a present.
Me: I can't take physical things with me into the waking world.
so I left it first, the dream was so realistic that it seemed like it was real that I could really play 1.0. and I wanted to get out of the game but I still remembered that I wanted that present.
Me: no wait, I still want my plushie.
this was thrown at me. was some kind of cat-head stuffed animal.
and then I tried to get to the end, I walked up a flight of stairs, and when finally everyone was standing on those stairs we all saw that end scene.
then the horizon became a platform you could walk on. and then I saw Venat. (not the real one though). but she had a 2nd layer under her robes like I have with my cosplay, but hers was salmon pink. more towards the pink color than orange. She took off her top layer and wore a Greek god dress that was pinkish. at the back, the fabric was crisscrossed over her body. I don't know what it looked like from the front. like i said it wasn't the real Venat, it was some kind of big minion.
After dinner, I walked through a shopping street with my plushie. and found out it had a stain on it. someone told me to use "vesper stain cleaner" XD (vesper from Vesper Bay lol)
Me: yes thank you
then I woke up.
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Jan 29th
At first, I thought I wasn't even sleeping. it was so normal. Venat would be on Earth. in the dream, I was picked up from the forest by a friend of my mother. Apparently, I had just completed a visit from Venat in the forest. Strangely enough, I had no memory of it myself, but that friend had apparently arranged a meet-up for me and Venat.
I was at home But it seemed like a house mixed between my father's house and my current house.
Venat in this dream was a kind of Amanda Achen, very famous and very committed to her fans.
Venat wrote in her blogs about her life on Earth and how she experienced it. I had a book she had written and if she had something new, it was immediately in it. so in one way or another, it was a magical book. but apparently, that was normal and I didn't think about it. LOL. In broad strokes, she had also written about her 2 husbands. and how the relationship with the first one went wrong. but I can't remember any details. In the book I was reading a message appeared (with her photo attached) that she would meet me the next day.
Me: What? why didn't I know this before?
Someone: yes, your mother's friend had arranged this
Me: my mother's friend...
Simone came to mind first and had a vague recollection that she had picked me up during a visit from Venat. but that I was not there when the meeting was planned.
Me: I have to contact her (Venat) about this meet-up.
(I forgot other reasons)
I walked to my PC which I didn't feel like turning on. so I grabbed my laptop but it wasn't connected or something and something was missing (battery?)
Me: OK, never mind, I'll just go to where she will be.
I went to bed, and the next day I was outside on my way to the meet-up. and someone was with me, but I can't remember who. it was in the neighbourhood where I live now. I walked under the viaduct to where large buildings were originally located in RL (energy companies, law firms and furniture stores, etc.)
but in this dream these buildings were absent and it was one big lake. iirc there was one building further away.
After walking under the viaduct it started to rain lightly. I turned towards the viaduct and looked up.
Me: can't we stop the rain?
Someone: like Venat can control the weather?
Me: yes
we raised our hands and images into a clear night sky
(well the sun was setting anyway)
but then we heard something behind us at the lake. we turned around and something wanted to sabotage the meeting. I didn't see Venat myself. but it was there.
Venat: (from the sky) You harmed my bubble in the sky, you shall not escape me.
I saw a giant transparent ball surrounded by some kind of transparent plasma, it basically looked like a floating transparent egg yolk with transparent egg white surrounding it. the invisible enemy cut open the membrane of the ball - and fell into the water - creating a great flood.
Me: ah! (we walked back through the viaduct) can't we stop the water?
so I tried but the water that flooded the place was stopped by 2 Pokemon from Venat. Garchomp and Fennekin.
(I mean if that is that Landshark from Elpis and Argos equivalent, I dig it)
Garchomp sitting on a flying thing stopped the water with an attack. then Venat herself came with a flying device in which she sat and fought the invisible enemy. then I dreamed that I woke up and tried to write it down, but couldn't quite get it done. soon after that, I really woke up.